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the things in this house that happen every day still shock me i have not quite yet come to realize i will see this shit for the rest of my life every day theres more drama than a human has in a lifetime, funny.... i think not having to deal with these problems and our own on tp of it are hard and exhausting it makes me at times not want ot get up but i do becouse i love my family and i will do what i must to protect them and keep them happy but it is hard i wish i knew of an easy way to handle these things that change everyday but there is no easy way to deal it comes the way it comes and u deal with it if u can survive it.

today was dark it rained for most of the day and yet im not satisfied since the accident on monday the days seem longer my love that i once had for many things has slowly dissapeared. i ask myself what i should do and nothing seems to come to mind so i wait ..... i wait to love or maybe just to feel once more the sadness and darkness the has consumed me and is ripping me apart inside i have to find a way to get away from all this pain and sorrow .