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Why do i have the feelings i have

Why do i hold the doubts in my mind

Why cant i stop these tears of mine



My mind is over flowing with thoughts things that i have been thinking about for an eternity it seems why do i feel the way i do



There are things i wish i could say but cant

There are things i wish i could do but wont



and i all i can say is why why cant i free my mind of these thoughts and rid my face of these tears

At night i lie awake and wonder why i have the dreams i have.

i wonder why they come to me they way they do and why i must feel the way i feel for you.

sometimes when i dream i see what i would want .

and other times when i dream i see what i would fear.

You have been in my dreams since i left always on mind mind and always in my thoughts.

your something that i cant get rid of nore do i ever want to .

I love what i have and feel with you , its like none other that i have ever felt only in my dreams do we meet every night and lay beside eachother as if we werent apart

only in my dreams can i feel you and smell your caliming sent

i wish nothing more than to make you happy and to always give you what you need ill never neglect you or your feelings nore will i lie or hurt you

only in my dreams do i have my fears and they scare me to think of them and if it should happen i fear that you will not love me as i do you i fear that i will not be good enough or what you want

but i would spend and eternity making sure that my fear never happens it would hurt to much to know that i could have been dreaming something real....



even the darkest hearts can be brightened by the touch of another you have brightened mine have i yours ?.....

maybe only in my dreams will i get the answers that im looking for

I feel you touching me

like silk wraped all around



I feel your breath on my skin

as you utter me words of the sweetest sin



I feel your lips touch mine

as our bodys begin to intertwine



I feel you embrace me

for only what we have could be unknown

How could you write the things that you have written

how could you have meant the things that you said

i feel disgusted and hurt and im angry with you

after all that i have done to help and after everything that has happened i feel betrayed and used and i blame it on you

tonight was the night i felt my heart rip from my chest

tonight was the night that made me second geuss you i geuss

i feel like i should have never opened up at all because i know i wouldnt have to look forward to this fall

the trust and friendship im now thinking over twice

how could i have let this happen to me again

how could i have trusted someone who i knew would just hurt me in the end

i do not know how to feel or what to think

all i know is i hurt

i do not know how we can talk about this and i do not know why you did what you did if this was your plan then thats was very low but if this is not how you meant it you better explain better than you know

Everyday seems to be getting deeper and darker

how can you make something stop that you have no control over?

How can you fix something that has already been broken?

How can you make the pain stop when you dont even know why it started in the first place.

how can you love something so much and feel so empty at the sametime.

I hate to feel this way and i hate these things that i have come to realize but the truth is you cant stop the unstopable,fix the unfixable and make the pain go away.

I belive that everything happens for a reason but why does it have to happen like this and why does it have to feel like this