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Inside I scream

scream for you

Inside I run to you

but your so far away

Inside I cry to you

and never lie to you

Inside I scream for you

and always dream of you

Inside I am with you

all these thoughts of you

just you and only you

Inside I cry for you

and I would die for you

Inside I wish you where with me

I would hold you tight

would wecry with you all night?

Inside I wish for you

just watch and wait for you

always think of you

Inside I need you

need you close to me

Inside I would die

If you left me here alone

so far from home

Inisde wish i could be there

wish you could see I care

Inside it is true

this me and you

Inside I hold you tight

forever not just all night

Inside I scream for you!

The stars still twinkle with light,

light that refelects my tears

solitary crystals, drop one by one

the lonely darkness confirms my fears

Why won't you hold me?

You gave me my reason

the only true reason to live

now that you're gone,

all that remains are tears

My reason is gone

lying in a pool of blood and tears

my pounding heart aches

when will it stop?

Someone save me

this love is killing me

there is nothing left

end my suffering

There is no light up ahead

crystal falls into emptiness

my heart still aches. even after death

why did you do this to me?

your love killed me

I hope you're happy

What do you do when your true love dies?

Do you continue to walk the Earth as planned,

Or end it to see his eyes?

You feel the pain in your heart,

Tearing away as if a tiger clawed a crossed it,

Leaving pieces of it apart.

You long for his embrace,

The touch of his lips,

The features on his face.

What you miss with extreme obsession,

Are his deep brown eyes,

Full of passion

Staring deep into your eyes

With one gaze,

Your souls unite,

Running together for days

No one understands the pain.

They claim, “time heals all”

But you know it will never be the same.

All but you have moved on

They give you reassuring smiles

You smile back, even though things still feel wrong

The pain becomes unbearable

And you crack.

You feel too terrible.

You scream at the sky to send him here

You swear at the clouds that if they give you one more minute with him,

You would give them everything with no fear

And you swear at God for taking the one thing you ever wanted.

Your knees give way

And you begin to bawl

Screaming his name,

All day long.

You become Juliet Capulet

With your happy dagger at hand

This has become your only outlet

You feel a sharp pain

Then all goes numb

You look into the dark clouds

And realize it’s his dark eyes again.

Burn a little slower….

Burn a little warmer….

Melt away anxiety

Your coals, the formers



Put warmth in my skin

And that red glow in my eyes,

Sit next to me under the night

As the sun slowly dies



I envy those stars

They’re never to be alone

Paired together at birth

And all their futures sewn



I want to exist

As a piece of your life

A place in your heart

A reliever of strife



Turn me into a stone

A tree or a shape of clay

And place me in your garden

Give me a place to stay



Plant your flowers at my base

Lay under my limbs for shade

Climb among my branches

Where as a child I once played



This ember for you will never cool

It will continue burning

For you, and you alone

My heart will forever be yearning

MY LIFE POISONED WITH THESE

THOUGHTS OF HATRED

LOVING YOU, HATING YOU

MISSING YOU, NEEDING YOU

WANTING YOU

HEARING YOUR WORDS

THE RING ON MY FINGER

MEMORIES OF YOUR TOUCH STILL LINGER

A LOVE SO BLINDING

NO SURVIVING

SEEING YOU WALK THROUGH THE

DOOR ALL OVER AGAIN

REMEMBERING THE WAY

YOU MADE ME FEEL ALIVE

YOUR ARMS AROUND ME

YOUR KISSES THERE

MY HEART IN THE OPEN

YOUR FOR THE TAKING

WHAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED

A RELATIONSHIP IN THE MAKING

THE WAY YOU MADE ME

FEEL SO SPECIAL

THE ONLY GIRL YOU EVER SAW

LAUGHING AND SMILING

THE WAY YOU HELD MY HAND

WHISPERED THOUGHTS IN MY EAR

AND GAVE ME THE WORLD

THE ONLY BOY THAT GOT INSIDE

AND REACHED MY SOUL

THIS DEPRESSION NOW

TAKING IT'S TOLL

NOW YOU'RE GONE AND

I LET YOU GO

YOU'LL NEVER BE MINE AGAIN

I GOT YOU IN THE END LOVE

AND NOW I'M WAKING UP

I'M TAKING BACK ALL THAT I LOST

FOR THIS AND LEAVING

THE PAIN BEHIND

You ever want to close your eyes and never wake up again?



You lie in bed and hope for the day to never begin.



You wish the world would turn to ash and everything finally end.



You wait for time to stop and let your broken heart mend.



You wait for the dead to live again and your smile to come back.



Want the angels to see what they have taken so you wear black.



You fear the closeness you might feel so you push everyone away.



Hate the sharp hurt and tears that come when you wont stay.



You hold your breath and count to ten and again fall apart.



You close your eyes and feel the scars burn on your heart.



You see no one cares if you cry, die, or whatever you do.



So you lie down and let the never-ending nightmares take over you.

I am the drug.

To remove all pains.

You can inject me in.

I course through your veins.



I am the solution.

To your problems, you say

With one sweet kiss,

I can tear them away.



I am heroin.

You'll get addicted too soon.

With beautiful feelings,

to take you over the moon.



I am your worst nightmare.

That is now under your skin.

You'll regret you took me.

That you let me in.



I am your obsession.

I take the place of your blade.

I can take all your pain,

all that pain that you've made.



I am your picture perfect.

I can try to create it.

I am your savior.

No matter how much you hate it.



I am something you don't want.

Yet I am something you need.

A foul fresh infection,

that has decided to breed.

You say you don't want me,

but you take me by greed.



Every time I take you back

I have to bleed.

A boy and girl

The best of friends

From elementary to high school

From beginning to end

Through all the years

Their friendship grew

They both felt the same

But never knew

Each waking moment

Since the day they met

They both loved each other

Sunrise to sunset

He was all she had

In her terrible life

He was the one

Who kept her from her knife

She was his angel

She made him smile

When life threw him curves

She made it all worth while

Then one day

Things went terribly wrong

The next few weeks

Were like a sad song

He made her jealous

On purpose he tried

When the girl asked “Do you love her?"

On purpose he lied

He played with jealously

Like it was a game

Little did he know

Things would never be the same

His plan was working

But he had no clue

How wrong things would go

The damage he would do

On night she broke down

Feeling very alone

Just her and the blade

No one was home

She dialed his number

He answered "Hello"

She told him she loved him

Then hung up the phone

He raced to her house

But came a minute too late

Found her lying in blood

And her heart had no rate

Beside her was a note

And in it her confession

Her love for this boy

Her only obsession

As he read the note

He knelt down and cried

Grabbed her knife

And that night they both died

She was found in his arms

Both of them dead

Under her note

His hand writing said

She loved me so

But she never knew

That all this time

I've loved her too

As i watch the blood streaming down my wrist

I recall life and its cruel and menacing twists

The pain people inflicted upon me

Emotional, physical, mental

The way they stared and gawked

Outcast, ostracized, forgotten

The cold starts at my fingertips

Gushing and dancing

The blood escapes my veins

As i see the end of society and all its pains

A tear falls from my eye

As i finally realize

Im going to die

So good bye to all of you who listened and cared

And go to hell for all who scorned and stared

The cold has seeped now into my face

As my heart begins to slow its ounce lively pace

My eyes grow hallow

My breaths become shallow

The razor falls from my hand

Hitting the floor with a metallic thud

As i smell nothing but the overwhelming odor of my own blood

A puddle of my “life” has now collected beneath me

I look and see my reflection

Gazing back i see a void

an empty body missing a soul

Some one who has endured so much suffering so much pain

The child who was ounce afraid of the rain

The boy played in his first recital

The teen who wished to disown his family and renounce his title

My vision blurs

My emotions fade

My life is finished

As my will to live has been completely diminished