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Well sir, I suppose I'll write a journal entry now as it's suggested one does. I have always been fond of journaling, although I wouldn't say I was particularly effective at it. Mostly I ramble. I suppose that's fine... if not a little annoying for anyone on a social site.



Hopefully I'll keep up on this. On the other hand, I need to figure out what the sections are for. I mean, for the most part they're self explanatory, but what if I've misconstrued? It's been known to happen!



Anyway, let's see... I haven't done much of anything interesting lately. Been rereading books... and poking around in Pokemon Moon. Hurt my wrist... but managed to fix my wrist brace. But, I gotta leave that off if I wanna type. Eyes are acting goofy but what's new... I'd like to get some new art together on the off chance I can go to FWA and sell in the artist alley, but there's also the chance I won't be able to go. That's the only con I'd hit in a year since I can commute instead of staying in a hotel, so I'd hate to waste the effort on making new art and then not put it to use. Worse, I need to put together a whole display. I figure I'll gear everything towards my *gothier* art and hopefully that'll draw more people. I'd stand out, be easier to find for those doing their rounds (you know, you want to look at everyone in the alley first, then try to come back... Provided you can even remember anyone!). I've gotten better at making an impression on people... So hopefully that'll work out. Provided I can go lol. We'll see how things work out.



Well, tomorrow I gotta get up early and go to the herbal medicine fair thing tomorrow downtown (or midtown?), which should be good. I went for the first time last month and it was very good, and this time I'm bringing my room mate since he has the day off. Now, if he'd only get a Saturday off again without having had to work until 10pm the night before so we can play VtM again. it's been weeks! Our game is in a dystopian future Atlanta (which is accidentally coming true, it seems). We only have three players outside the story teller, and timing is difficult because the other two players are only free on Saturdays, and my room mate the story teller is often scheduled to work weekends. He's always off on Mondays... which is no help since the other two work 9-5s. I don't even remember what the hell we were doing in the game last time... I think we're only a night out from when we broke into a vampire hunter's house to steal back a body...? And we fucked up and he found out and actually called one of us and was like, "lol you could have just asked" but our characters are idiot neonates, so of course we figured we had to do overly complex sneaking missions.



Speaking of health, I need to be better about the whole Vampyre thing because boy howdy am I great at holing up and then being like, "I just don't understand why I'm having bad stress headaches and eye sight problems and so fucking hungry!" Over and over and over again. Now, I also know that it can't just be like, "well let's go to the store and hang out for a while" because that doesn't work well for me it seems. I do know that if I can meet my apparently very exacting requirements then I can do very well. Like... there's this local pizza and wings joint that is fucking perfect... Like I ended up going there with new friends for the first time once even though I had a terrific headache, and I ate pizza and loads of beer which should have made it worse, but it went away pretty quickly while I was there. But that place is like, a skeezy graffiti covered bar and ??? in a questionable part of town, and filled to the brim with people who are drunk and high, and of course it was late at night. I guess it was the type of energy I can feed from the best. We sat on the rooftop patio under some sort of trees I'm not familiar with and we had a good view of the moon too. A lot of Atlanta is *nice* and I don't usually feel too comfortable with *nice*. And my own discomfiture might be the biggest barrier, honestly. I mean it's not so much that I can't feed on energy unless it's very specific, but I need specific surroundings to feel comfortable enough to actually feed. No one can eat when they feel on edge, right? So why would feeding be any different? If it doesn't seem punk, then I feel out of place.



Well I guess I'll put on some Wolfsheim (trick question: already have) and smoke and play some more Pokemon while not entirely certain I'm making the best decisions about which moves to keep and learn lol.