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I trust no one, I feel nothing, I am empty, I am but a shell of what I used to be, Can you find the soul I lost so many ages ago??? Can you feel me within your viens and under your skin??? Do you see me haunt your dreams and your reality?? I am what I am...A reality of darkness within your very blood, I am the rage within you, I am the anger that sets in...I am the regret of exsistance....I am the Oculairus Inferno..

Don't look for me, I am lost, Don't love me, I am unlovable, Don't hold me, I am hard to hold, Don't kiss me, I am the sweetest posine you will find....Don't think of me, I am confusing, Don't Hear me, My words will deafen you....Don't like me and I don't care!!!!

If you could see inside my soul

see inside my heart

you would know how I long for you

whenever we're apart



If you could see inside my head

if thoughts were things to see

you would know how I cherish you

how much you mean to me



In all the ways you comfort me

the way you hold me near

the way you know just what to do

to chase away my fear



The sparkle in your beautiful eyes

your smile, laugh, your touch

are just a few of many reasons

I love you oh so much



Knowing I can talk to you

about any and everything

and knowing together we will get

through whatever life may bring



I could search the whole world over

and this I know is true

I would never find another love

like the love I found with you



Though with each new day, each sunrise

we can't know what's in store

there is one thing I know for sure

each day I love you more



So if you could see inside my head

if thoughts were things to see

you would know how blessed I feel

to have you here with me

I had closed the door upon my heart

And wouldn't let anyone in,

I had trusted and loved only to be hurt

But, that would never happen again.



I had locked the door and tossed the key

As hard, and as far as I could,

Love would never enter there again,

My heart was closed for good.



Then you came into my life

And made me change my mind,

Just when I thought that tiny key

was impossible to find.



That's when you held out your hand

And proved to me I was wrong,

Inside your palm was the key to my heart...

You had it all along.

I know you're going crazy,

I've been there too.

I can see how the weight is making your knees bend,

Let me take some of it from you.

Don't keep yourself closed off,

I am here for you to open up and let go.

There is so much you can't forget or forgive,

Let me help you cope, we can work things out together.

I hear the pain in your voice,

You need me now.

Don't worry, I'll move heaven and hell to get there.

You can't talk, you won't talk about it,

I understand.

Put your worries in my hands.

Lay your head down,

And believe that I will do anything to stop your tears.

You're ready to give up, you've stopped,

I want to be able to give you the strength to keep going.

Link arms with me, Let's move on,

As one living, breathing, loving, being.

Know that you can put faith in me.

I will be your rock, I will be your dwelling,

I am here with you, for you always.

Subtly sensual blacks and grays swirl

serpent-like behind my eyelids where

I hide hours beneath a stone-

mysteries of darkness.

When the sun sets my eyes snap open;

these moments I live

inside you. Images of energy

surround you, where my flesh walks

I curl around the tangled folds

of indistinctly drifting thoughts,

caught in the merciless currents of

incessantly surging obsession with passion.

I long to run down

the curve that arches heart to thighs

and catch in the hollow below

echoes of my blood

pounding for you as

words blow through me, inspire

your hands.

I must explore

your luminous landscape

flooded in tremors of stormy fire

our celestial efforts make;

and when the last restraints snap,

we reap pleasure's dance,

convulsively grasp lucid ecstasy

I'm compelled to keep us there,

accumulated effulgence filling us-

And when we soar for hours

I'll hide mysteries of darkness

beneath a stone.

When the candles gutter

and the bedsheets entangle me

in the convolutions of an

indistinctly menacing emptiness,

and i wander like a lost child

through gaping chasms of

the unfamiliar terrain of loneliness--

When the light flickers

like a moth against the face

of this black world

and my soul is flailed

in the silent faces

of love lost in time,

and I feel the nails

driving me through;

when there is nothing to forgive,

and the penance seems

too light--

It is in these times of horror

when the town clock

rings only a moment,

and the echos follow me

out of the bedroom

and through the door,

that I wish you were with me;

only you can dispell this horror.

As I lay here unrested,

A soul always lost,

A past that I wondered,

At my very own cost,

So close, Yet so far,

We once stood together,

But here we are,

A future that is misted from far deep within,

A past deluged with the purity of sin,

I walk all alone within darkness abode,

But when I look back I see I am not alone,

For shadows leer behind me,

And a angel to my right,

I may not be of this life,

Yet for my next one I must fight,

They say every time a child dies,

An angel loses it's wings,

I look up above and ask of you,

Why must we endure such things?

I look across the ocean,

And hear a broadened sea,

Now here I am a wondering soul,

Just longing to be free.

Words unspoken,

You left me this way,

No choice of matter,

A heart that fades away.



(Chorus)

Take me over,

I want to cross that line,

Take me over,

Let my eyes be blind,

Take me over,

Take me over.



Doubt in place,

Trust misguided, Misplaced,

The cold of darkness,

I want that chance.



(Final Chorus)

Take me over,

I want to feel the need,

Take me over,

I'm runni'n Outta time,

Take me over,

Let my eyes become blind,

Take---------------->(Note held 30 secs)-----> Me over,

Take me over ---------------------> (High pitch c cord 35 secs-------> me over,

(Repeat 1st verse)

(Repeat 2nd Chorus)

Clouded by memories,

Struck by objective thoughts,

Delivering the unjust of man,

Taking what shant be,

Loving what is truly ours,

Tis the far, wide and beyond,

That takes our future from us,

Deny not what you see,

But deny what you speak and hear,

Follow only thin own heart,

For love shall never fail,

Wither not such as a withering rose,

Beloved is thy heart,

But to be the true beholder,

Of the eye is which hold true beauty.

He reaches out to my soul,

He calls me by name,

He knows I would not deny him anything,



The smell of sweet roses grows feint to the scent,

As Achient death arises to feast on my flesh,



The speed of the wind,

The flow of the sea,

He calls out my name in temptation of me,



His flesh grows cold in longing to feed,

The yearning of my crimson wine to sustain his needs,



I show him no fear,

For fear him I do not,

But to embrace him,

For into my arms he was brought,



For the end is neigh,

And day is near,

I let him go into shadows unclear,



For the roses now wilted,

And fallen apart,

But from now till the end,

He will forever own my heart.

The cold earth surrounds me,

Yet I am not deep enough,

I am the one they seek beneath,

But yet I am forsaken up above,

I have no one to need me,

I am but cold in flesh and blood,



(Chorus)

Awaken

Awaken all these fears,

Awaken,

Awaken all these tears,

You search for me,

But I slumber within your soul,

You reach for me,

But I am just to way far gone to know,



(Master Chorus)

Awaken,

I am your time of need,

Awaken,

I am the darkness you feed,

A---------------->(20 secs) waken, Awaken

I am your master of thought,

Awaken,

I am the madness you brought,

(Repeat 1st verse)

Awaken,

I am the vortex of deep,

Awaken (x2),

Awaken and-------------------(15 secs hold) Awaken,

And live within me..........

I CLAIM YOU AS MY LIFE MATE.

I BELONG TO YOU.

I OFFER MY LIFE FOR YOU.

I GIVE TO YOU MY PROTECTION, MY ALLEGIENCE, MY HEART, MY SOUL AND MY BODY. I TAKE INTO MY KEEPING THE SAME THAT IS YOURS.

YOUR LIFE, HAPPINESS AND WELFARE WILL BE CHERISHED AND PLACED ABOVE MY OWN FOR ALL TIME.

YOU ARE MY LIFE MATE, BOUND TO ME FOR ALL ETERNITY AND ALWAYS IN MY CARE.