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I'm not going to be on tomorrow....And tomorrow is someone's birthday.....

Joyeux Anniversaire, to thee: TheHellboundSoul!

May you have many more!

Trent's not here...(sigh)....I'm feeling even more alone....

Trent's not here...(sigh)....I'm feeling even more alone....

ANGEL...IS...SCARING...ME...He won't stop calling. I told him that I don't want to be with him...He still calls. I'm feeling sad....Still need a Hug....(Sigh)

I'm feeling lonely. I have people all around me yet...I feel alone. I haven't seen Trent anywhere...I haven't spoken to my buddy James. I need a hug.....(sigh)

I'm sorry that you are mad.I'm sorry I couldn't make you happy. But James I love you....

I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I miss you... I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. Je t'aime. James...Je t' adore...

I didn't hit Trent like I said I would...George was following him around...Lol....

I was angry last night....I was mad at Trent....I still love him though...

My Ex-boyfriend still wants me to be with him..I don't think I will. I was going to write something mean about Trent, but I'm not mad at him anymore.... I'm going to go bite someone...bye.

My weekend was boring for the most part....I was taking care of my "son" Adrian on sunday. He is five years old and lives with his father. His real mother had ran off...I hate her for that. The reason why I call Adrian my "son" because he calls me, "mommy."

He knows my real name but he still calls me "mommy.''

His dad Kevin didn't picked him up until 11 at night. My ex-boyfriend Angel had called me last night...he wants me to be with him again....I don't know...I like someone else...

I feel tired....

I'm feeling better...The dark cloud passed over. My buddy James and A manda...I love y'all.

I was yelled at yesterday...My friend Whitley found out that I was cutting myself. She told me if I don't stop...She will turn me in and have me sent to a mental hospital. Then, my buddy Trent... He found out and said that he was disappointed in me. He made me promise not to do it again. He thinks that suicide is stupid...I don't...He doesn't know how it is to wake up to another bad day.He doesn't know the pain, anger and depression in me is to much to bear. Sometimes I think that suicide is the answer...that finally I won't be in pain...

But I promised him and Whitley that I won't cut myself or try anything ''stupid"...

I didn't know that there were people that cared about me...

I'm feeling bored and depress. I haven't spoken to my beloved friend James. I'm going to take Trent's hoodie from him today...bwahaha....

I love you nothappy. I'm not sure if I should use your real name.I won't use it unless You say it's alright. It's been two years since I've seen you. Feels more like enternity. I hope to see you at our friend's party. I've loved you and I still do. You don't know how much it means to me that you talk to me. I, myself have been thinking about killing myself. (To A.H: Yes, me too. If you're mad...well... don't be. I'm still here.) Just last night I started cutting myself again. I do this because of the pain, the anger, and my depression is trying to take over, and it's overbearing. I love you, nothappy. You and A.H. are the only ones keeping me from going over the edge. I love the both of you and don't know what I would do without the two of you. I love y'all. I love you nothappy.



p.s. I will never ever stick anything up your ass if

you don't want me to, nothappy. ;)

I have two BEST friends here in North Carolina.

I love them both. She is a great listener and so is he. He is really cute and I still like him. I can't see neither one of them but .... I still love ya'll!

I want to sing. I want to scream!! I want to cry. I want break something!!! I need a hug.

I am going crazy!!!! I am bored. I can't sleep or eat. What have I done?!! Why did I did what I did? I'm worried, nervous. Why????!!!!!!!!!!

I'm bored. I had a boring weekend. I stayed home and watched t.v. I don't remember what I watched. I want scream because it's so boring here!!!!!!! Nothing exciting ever happens here.

I'm Confused!