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why cant i shake this feeling of being a complete and utter failure. why cant i do anything right. im always fucking up. i dont know what to do. if i didnt have to worry about my son i dont think i would be where i am right now. i think i would be out somewhere probably trying to numb the constant remind of how retarded i am. or how gulible i am. or how easy i am. doing whatever i can to keep myself busy so i dont have to submit to the fact that i fail at everything. i fail at life. no one can fail at life more than me. fucking piece of shit loser. worthless. pointless to waste ones time. i cant even get close to anyone. afraid that i will bring them down. down in the failure world that i live in. that i succeed in. ha. i guess that is one thing i succeed in....is failure. yep thats me. queen of failure-ville.... fuck my life

Reading over some of these journal entries I cannot believe how immature some people can be. Nor can I believe that there is this much drama. Are people really that bored that they come onto a site such as this to just pick a fight with someone they dont even know. Are they really that sick of themselves that they have to project it on to other people. This makes me sad for man kind.

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Eleanna
18:20 Mar 07 2010

Seems like there is always drama on here *rolls eyes* is quite sad.

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EurusRa
04:19 Mar 08 2010

awwe don't be to sad lol

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Freyja
05:56 Mar 08 2010

Pretty much, apparently. Its stupid and pitiful and you would think adults could act like adults but most of what I see is adults acting like 2 year olds

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I havent been on in the past week. Work has been insane. All I do now is, wake up at 5:30 am, drop my son off at preschool, go to work, work, drive to get my son(which takes double the amount of time it does to get there due to traffic), go home, cook dinner, do homework, and pass out.....rinse and repeat. Training is just ridiculous. 6 weeks of in depth training. I have survived week 1. Here is to 5 more :D