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I'm tired of hurting.
I'm just tired of hurting
Of putting myself through pain.
Emotional pain
It's kinda worse than physical pain in a way bc there isn't anything you can do but to rip the metaphorical band aid off and just run away from the thing that hurts you
But I don't want to go from this person bc I think it will hurt more if I leave
At least it will hurt them

So I am new here obviously. I have been wanting to join the vampyre community for awhile but I haven't known how,Until now. I have had an awakening and I feel something beautiful and wonderful while being involved with other individuals like myself. I have problems finding friends because I am just too different from everyone around me. I am 5'2 and 150 pounds. I am shy and I enjoy books and music more than people. I hate negativity, I want things to be more positive. I find myself with a twisted view on life because I have had my world turned upside down for too long and then things are now falling into place. I apologize for my rant, but um I just felt like saying these things so umm bye I guess......