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the rage in my body

uncomparable

the pain in my heart

the depression has taken

over my mind and body

but then he come in to my view

his face soft not happy not sad

and sits next to me and brushes my arm

my heart flutters it beats 10x faster

the strong emotions that was once

present has been replaced

with pure happiness

and my heart doubled in size

full of joy

and turn and give him a smile

he smiles back

we sit for a view minutes sharing

unimportant information

everyword he speaks rings in my ear

like tens and thousand of bells

each ringing to a different word

making a melody

that even angles couldn't

then he gets up and gestures

good bye and walks off

and watch him leave

his figures slowly vanishing at the horizon

and when i no longer see him

my heavy heart

crashes to ground

and shatters scattering

over the ground

for a minute i sit there

numbed by his presence

but then the pain

him never knowing

never loving me back

sets in

there is absolutely nothing

my life is a black sky and only

does it shine when your presense

is in it

i know that he wouldn't be happy with

me who could be...

he loves someone else and i respect that

because with out her he would be

in the same pain as i and thats one thing

i would rather die than to see

so life meant for me to feel the pain of love

i am tired of hearing other people

try to explain love because to me

it is only painful

and lonely

and strong

no one told me to love

is to hurt