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when the world seen to stop in time. The thing which had happen seen like the world was coming to a end. Between the lost of a love one and between having my heart broken.. overall i couldn't handle that kind of stress. In hopes of the world to freeze just this once, in time where no one would move. i would want to sit there in silence and wonder on how life will have been if this would of happen earlier. Time which i would hurt the most and break to a millions of pieces. For i am just confuse, or lost. never knowing how it feels to have a great day without ending up with a bad one.. Those are the times when it almost feel like my world I've created in my mind is coming to a end

i've met someone wonderful.. someone i have been wanting for a long time.. my prince had awaken from his sober .. He unchained me from my sorrow and waken my heart.. He is my Romeo for i am his Juliet. Keep my heart to hold and protect always.

have u ever had a dream that come true the next day. I did.. i had, on January 1, 2008. i had a dream that my " once my boy friend, ex now" broke up with me... me i thought it was the end of the world.. depress, lonely and confuse.. i gave him my heart, and he turn his back on me.. than went out with my best friend.. so much hate,- the main emotion i don't ever wanted to have. torn my heart, until.. i gave up, stop caring about everything, and everyone.. i hated life, i hated myself.. blamed everything that had happen on myself.. i gave up on love.. hated the thought of it, never wanted to feel that way again. but i know one day it will happen again..

i wish to never feel that way again

i kind of wish i could predict the future. fixing the mistakes that was committed. always stepping forward in life instead of backwards... together with the ones i care for in the world i really call home. the things i cherish, the things that makes me fully alive. things happen so fast, things in life i wish to never to lose. i've been walking alone in life by myself never knowing the bad and good outcomes of life.. never knowing that nothing isn't fair... i'm grateful for only the things i have.. and always will look forward in life to myfullest.. without no end.

being alone.. Being by myself leaves nothing but sadness in my heart.. leaving nothing but a cold, dark, empty heart with nothing in it.. I wonder, by being alone, what effects it has on a person.. Why feel this way. what makes me feel this way. depress, mad- no just wonder -is. losing the thing that is so dear to you is what hurts the most.. Having no feelings at all leaves no pain.. Feeling nothing- how does it really feel.. having no emotions at all. Nothing without no care in the world.. In the cold dark world you created in your mind.. For me i have keys.. key to my heart, my mind and world.. But its only one person i will give it 2 one day.. the person i trust, the one person i will give my life to but he isn't awake from his slobber

i'm lost in life, never understand what happens.. In i wake up i wish the world in my mind would be real instead of waking to this world.. my world yet so peaceful, but missing 2 things in it, life and love.. so much of day dreaming.. Today all it had me thinking about what mite happen to me one day.. when the world go quiet and nothing is left ... i wonder about a lot of things.. i just wish i could really smile without hiding my true feelings. i want to smile showing i'm really happy.. i just don't understand.. i forgot what it really means to be happy, i forgot what it really means to be in love

i guess something happen for the good or the worse. i notice that every step i take is a new beginning. Starting a new story wouldn't be that hard. Every story need a happy ending. my heart was broken so many time, things i hope would never happen again. I guess i would have to deal with it someday again. i've lost someone who once dear to me.. he step out of my life, ending everything . Only wishing to find true love one day. without no problems.. I only look forward to the things i need in life instead of what i want. i guess things just takes time to recover and regain. waiting, and hoping

wonder about life and what it has in store for me.. new beginning or a new end.. starting over i guess wouldn't change who i really am... the new people i meet , and their love the show me out of care.. the thing i would wish for the most.. seeing everyone happy- never sad.. everyone living a better life together.. and me there with a helping hand

today wasn't my day.. i finally learn to control my emotion... but holding back to much emotion is hard to handle.. the people i love i'll always keep dear to me in my heart.. But when the time comes will they remember me.. remember how much i care for them more than my own life. i wonder will i be forgotten one day

today wasn't my day.. i finally learn to control my emotion... but holding back to much emotion is hard to handle.. the people i love i'll always keep dear to me in my heart.. But when the time comes will they remember me.. remember how much i care for them more than my own life. i wonder will i be forgotten one day

wonder what may happen to me in the near future.. Not knowing what mite happen fears me enough to wonder... Lately i haven't been myself.. Almost felt like i've been cast away from the people i once hold dear to me. Why do people change, and why not me.. So many years had past yet in my eyes nothing change.. Same old world, same place, but yet new people was reborn.. New faces, need life... Almost makes you want to write a story.. There is one story i'm working on call Broken Cast Away... Its mainly about my life, and others around me.. Just need a little more inspired i guess.

lately i've been confuse about what i want in life.. like do i want love or more.... People changes throughout time. But for me i'll stay the same.. i feel like i don't belong to this world, because of the things that happen.. The good and the bad.. I just want to escape from this world and enter to my own........ My world, my paradise. Throughout my years being here not once anything change. always start with birth, death and reborn......... repeating each time i look upon the world

today i have felt lonely, like i was missing something in my life.. Maybe love or much more than that.. i just i wouldn't understand what love is real is because of the pain once u get hurt. love confuse me, y love someone when u know u going to get hurt.. y even try. i've been in so many relationship, i'm surprise i didn't go crazy.. instead i've grow cold hearted. hiding my true feelings. always showing everyone that i'm happy when i'm not.. I guess that is just me.. Always hated to cry, hated to feel lonely