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(Confessions of a Cutter)
00:42 Dec 16 2005
Times Read: 566

Silence

Only tears

As I press the blade

Against my skin



Red

The blood flows

From the wounds

Echoing my inner pain



Satisfaction

As I feel the knife

Slicing into me

I only deserve pain



Anguish

As I realize what I've done

I feel accomplishment

As I gaze at the marks upon my skin



Stares

People are horrified

Don't understand why

Neither do I .

(Wave Of Mutilation)
00:40 Dec 16 2005
Times Read: 568

I press my forehead on the window

And through it watch children

Playing on the lawn



Desolation pulses through my veins

And my futile fingers reach out for guidance

I savor the blade, sinking deeper than blue



I can taste tranquility for a wavering instance

The anger flows down my arm as the bitter black blood

Burns off my fingertips



Death swims before me in hazy illusion

Images of eternity skip shamelessly through my mind

Pain surrounds, I am resolved to be - still



I run my hand on the tear stained window

And distorted through it

Watch children playing on the lawn.

(Suicide Poem, A Sonnet)
00:39 Dec 16 2005
Times Read: 569




Was I bewitched so by the thin red line

To notice not that time released its hold

And let pale Iris snip the silver twine

To steal sweet youth before it turned to gold.

Existence now is not what I was told;

No seraphim and harps to grace my ear,

Just silence, painful silence, and the cold

Discomfort of my masochistic fear,

So icy cold, yet somehow seems to sear

My soul until the ache's too much to bare,

As mortal life mirages now appear:

Intangible are they; away they tear.

Mistake, it was; the curtain fell too soon

When razor's edge did charm me like the moon.

(warped and twisted)
00:39 Dec 16 2005
Times Read: 570






Harsh words & violent blows

Hidden secrets nobody knows

Eyes are open, hands are fisted

Deep inside I'm warped & twisted

So many tricks & so many lies

Too many whens & too many whys

Nobody's special, nobody's gifted

I'm just me, warped & twisted

Sleeping awake & choking on a dream

Listening loudly to a silent scream

Call my mind, the number's unlisted

Lost in someone so warped & twisted

On my knees, alive but dead

Look at the invisible blood I've bled

I'm not gone, my mind has drifted

Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted

Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow

Today's just yesterday's tomorrow

The sun died out, the ashes sifted

I'm still here, warped & twisted.