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It is a crazy day for me today, this time last year I was so excited to be seeing someone, who promised me so much, and well deliverd nothing but heartache. My exboyfriend travelled down to suprise me, and with in 2 months he was with someone else, and left me feeling used.



Now in the last 12 months, I have ditched so many infact I think pretty much all of the so called friends I had had when I was with him, just because I saw them for what they were.



And now for the funny thing, when he was visiting we went to see a band at a gig in North Wales. The band was desolation remains, and 12 months later, I am living with and oh so in love with the drummer of that band.



You see 12 months ago, I thought that my ex was great, but he ended up being controlling, and weird. But he was an improvement on the guy I had been out with previously. I guess I didn't have any self worth at the time, and my friends were people who really held me back, and stopped me achieving all that I could, simply because it was out of their grasp.



Now I am with someone who worships me, and who sacraficed so much to proove me how much he wanted to be with me, something I had never experienced before, and I have to say the feeling is amazing. being told at least 20 times a day that I am gorgeous and beautiful helps any girl, although it did take some getting used too, after things I have been through.



And the christmas just gone, was the first christams since I was 17 that wasn't a dissapointment, simply because I had a boyfriend (and step son) who thought of me, and it wasn't just me who thought of them for once.



I am happy to say I am so in love, and hope this feeling never ends, as I truly believe I have found my soul mate, as we connect on so many levels, and although we have some problems in life, there is nothing we can not face if we are together, as corny as that sounds, I believe it is true, as we have already overcome so much, that would have caused so many people to give up.



I love Xeper (Jon) so much, and I can't wait to one day be his wife :)

Ever had a bunch of friends who were so self involved that they didn't even notice that you dissapeard from the group entirely, and still keep on texting you their problems even though you don't reply any more?



I had one such group of friends, whom I left when I pretty much had a break down, needing someone to talk too, but no one would listen, they just piled their problems on to me, as hell, I never have any issues. They even kept a girl who was spreading malicious rumors about me in the fold....



But thankfully I am away from them now, and I know for a fact if I go to one of their local bars on any friday night in say 10 years time, they will still be there in the same group, moaning about their dead end jobs or kids, having changed nothing.



And as for me, well I am setting up a bussiness with my awesome boyfriend, who once his divorce is through, will become my husband, and hopefully with in the next 10 years his band will be signed so we can actually live our dream, and who knows I may see them at a music festival, while they are counting change to get a beer, I'll be walking past them, with the AAA pass to get me back stage, walking through the crowds to go buy some merch for my fave bands :)

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Ezio
12:33 Jan 21 2011

What type of music does your husband play? And does he have a site so I can listen to it?

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