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Sommetimes people say things and don't think how it will effect the person that they are saying it to, perhaps they were tired and didn't think before they said it, or they meant it another way. But. Regardless sometimes words can be very hurtful. So be careful of how you say things to people because just as a random act such as asmile. To a stranger can lift their spirit an unkind word can destroy a person

Sometime's we just need to hear the reasons especially when. Everything else is falling apart around us

So ya had my disability hearing today... it was aweful for me but my lawyer feels confident that we won because the judge closed it eraly saying he had enough of the medical information to back things u0p and he didnt ask the specialist to question me, i feel that he was really hard on me about certain things that had nothing to due with the case... but he wanted a feel to why it was that i hada breakdown 4 years ago... it will be a few weeks before i get the descion I pray that its a yes befcause if it is........ I am out of here away from everything and everyone that is causing me unneeded stress. away from the ex... I want to be able to have a sense of control again and when I do I will feel a hell of a lot happier because right now I feel totally depressed all the time I hurt all the time Im scared about the treatment...Im actlaly terrfified about a lot f thigs because i feel like things are just falling apart around me and feel helpless as to be able to do any thing to change it right now and that my friends is a horrible feelin......

Oh I just found the most perfect ring.........

















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Its come to the point that I dread going to the drs its like the cat that hates to go to the vet... I have really been researching the treatment plan they want to put me on and I am just not sure of it .. the side effects the long tern, do I do it or do I just deal with the pain and hope and pray that it doesnt get any worse then it is aready... my choice yes I know its just really scary to me... i go back to get the test results friday... have one more hurdle to go over and then hopefully I will be in the clear with out having to have surgery which would be nice... but I am thinking positive, at this point i just assume they gut me so there is no risk of any complications. I have my 12 yr old whom i love deary would I have liked to have more yes, but it just doesnt seem to be in the cards.

I'm tired of feelin this way. And I just want it to end I thought I saw a glimmer of light at the end of. This dark tunnel but it was just the headliight of this train don't tell me. Anything anymore. Is all. I can say becuz all. It does is give me false hope what I want and what I need are two very different things. I don't need to explain what I need. Anymore it is pretty clear. Just give me something to believe in. I,m really havin a hard time with having faith, because everytime I believe again. Everything changes again.

So many times in the previous weeks all I have heard was "online" realtionships rarely ever work out... and ya know just because it doesn't work for everyone doesn't mean it doesn't work for some.



Long distance romance needs both partners to form a relationship built on trust, understanding and strength to make the relationship work. Couples must be determined enough to make it past the tough times through to a final close-proximity bond.



Long distance love relationships are filled with overcoming obstacles and may be difficult to maintain. Never forget that it takes extra effort to keep long distance dating working. Love does not just consist of looking at each other or walking hand in hand. It starts with a shared vision and mutual trust.

Sleepless nights

Questions unanswered

Debating the pros and cons

Making peace with people

Making my list of things that matter most

No one ever said things were going to be easy

Knowing I don't have to do this alone

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I am hurt. Beyond anything I can explain. The choices I have made are really going to change a lot of things once I start the treatments I'm going to be stayin at my gfs house because she doesn't want me to have to be alone incase i get too sick this hasn't been a easy choice and its been really hard on me. And

weighing the pros and cons for days. And feelin very isolated. I've been very emotional but geez. Given the situation I think its more then expected. I think what I needed to hear most was I'm here if you need me. But instead all I heard was silence yes I worry a lot why. You. Ask ? Because I am so used to people walkin away all I ever wanted was to feel safe. They say. Your never given more then you can. Handle and let me tell ya. This year I have been tested enough to see how strong I am. If I haven't replied to you its because I'm mobile and keep gettin ip errors when I log in here. Ya I love you dear I'm just really. Feelin. Like hell and well if you don't know after a year that you mean the world to me wellthen I don't know what to. Tell ya. Because I love you very much

spent the day up in buffalo today had a lot of fun went to the superflea on walden ave and mmmm mighty taco !

the last few weeks have been hard and i really miss everyone most especially that mean ole man of mine im moved and out of that horrible place this isnt where i want to be though ={ but all in good time as the ole man says.... really gonna need some good vibes on the 24th of this month...



well hope everyone had a fantastic summer



and yes ya mean ole man i loves ya and misses ya as well i miss and loves the rest of our crazy family