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could this week get any worse i mean seriously if one more person tells me how to live my lifr im gonna scream ---- key word --- MY LIFE
so ya my doctor calls me like an hour ago.... i must have turned white because my friends like rach whats wrong .............
doc left a v mail that i was to afraid to listen to
its one thing when they suspect something but when blood tests confirm it well idk know anymore
i dont want to be on pain anymore and i dont want to be here ---- all by my self anymore--- i dont want to be around these fake selfish people who claim to be my family.............
Trying to convince my brother that he wants a Husky and a cat....Hes convinced but she is not...
I refuse to bring any animal to a shelter they will kill them.. let me tell ya this has to be the hardest thing for me to do. My gracie and silver i have had fro 10 yrs ... they are not just pets they are like kids..
Trying to find perfectr homes for them.. ist kisy not working I dont want to gives them away.......
I dont want to move to this place and i dont want to stay here .......... why cant sometyhing just go right ? I miss my mom I knew I should have just tookover her lease up there .. even with as much as i hate livin in the city..... I just dont know ... I think I am gonna head up to see my best friend tammi here this week up in Niagara falls.. Im just sooooooooooooo stressed out...
Yes I misses all of my friends and i miss all my coven family as that is the only family i really care about these days the real family or whet evr i would call them at this point are just DEAD to me..... ya i know cheesy remark but that is how i feel and i dont see that changing anytime soon
If you try and message me on yahoo and i dont reply or if you text me and i dont reply i may not have gotten the message my cell is really messed up...
Sitting here in the living room watching out the window I can still see the cheshire moon as its slowly fading out and the sky a beautiful light blue background with orange and pink as the sun is starting to rise up over the horizon. Thnis will be the last time that I look out this window as the sun comes up. There are some major decisions that have to be made in the next month while I am away. And I must say they are going to be some of the hardest choices that I have to make. I am going to be spending alot of time up in the hills at my spot, debating on the right choices.And doing what is best. Seeking out guidance where before I was not able to.
Sometimes just clearing your mind and detoxifing yourself from all the chaos is the best way to find the answers that you seek they may not make sense sometimes, and you may not understand what they mean at first but if you look and i mean really look, just not with your eyes but with your heart and deep within your souls you will see the signs that you need to see. And that my friends is what I am hoping to do.
In closing
When you look within your heart you always find the answers. my ♥ is always yours that will not change.
I think some people fail to understand .....so let's have a little lesson in math if your a level 57 and you rate a sire with a status of 128, when they return the 1 that you continue to give them over and over again, everytime they reach another level of sire their rate is going to knock your status rate lower everytime. So it is really pointless for you to continue to give me a 1 over and over again. This shit is getting old really fast we dont bother you but you want to continue to the bullshit with myself and my coven and its not like we don't know it you xdeathxriderx you have already admitted that it is. Get a freakin life.
As another chapter ends a new one is about to begin. The plus side to moving where I am moving to I will be closer to my sister and my brother there is more room and lots more storage space. But i am going to miss being in the middle of horse country and being able to walk down to see the herd when ever i want. Its part of my favor thing to do early in the morning. The new place needs some work, nothing thata paint job and adding the touch of makin it home wont fix.... still kinda sad though...
Well i feel mok so far today, i think putting the ac in is helping alot so its not so humid in the house. Im still not done packing but I have got a lot done so far.. Gonna start taking things over tomarrow . Of course I just got off the phone with the school that my son goes to and of course I am right on the line between the two school districts so I dont know this is just getting hectic .. Im trying to do this so alex is only going to have to switch schools once but being the school year starts in 3 weeks I just dont know. It used to be that you could just drive him to the school lines or drop i him off if your on the line. but saddly its all about the money and because he is in special education because of his disabilities the school distrtict that I am moving to is telling me no, he has to go to that school. I will be painting at the new place this weekend ... Everything is due to be switched over by friday this week and i have my brothers to help me move they are easy to plpease a few cases of beers and a cook out after we are moved , cant complain about that lol.
Im just happy to be getting out of this house and hopefully i will feel better. Of course i am still reporting the owner of this house to the health department because of the mold, and he has just informed that he got as 8000 grant to redo the house, wtf for 9 months i have been after him to fix this and he wouldnt now that I am moving he is going to... aggrivation. this move is supposed to be temperary ** gives someone a look **
Its amazing how many things you can accumilate and then when you start packing wondering where the hell it all came from lol
I have all my collectibles and important stuff already packed and moved .... but geezes i didnt realize how much cloths i actually have lol
Many changes going on in life and on here, as of late last night I turned over my coven to AtYourWindow as I trust him 100 % and back up all of his descions. I am gonna be gone form here for a bit but I will be back after some things are taken care of. I have some very dear friends on here and will try and stay in contact as much as possible, if you'd like to stay in contact and dont have my contact email send me a message its gonna be kinda lonely not having any one to talk to, of course the ole man will be sure to keep me on my toes so I dont lose my mind with no real contact from people. bUt it would be nice to hear from others as well.
Well I have come to accept with the news i got that there is going to be days that I just dont even want to get out of bed , but I have to there are gonna be days that Im gonna be really snappy until they get the meds the way they need to be so I dont hurt all the time and that will take a few weeks. I dont want pity I want understanding, which I wouldnt think is too much to ask.
I'm really confused about alot of things and have taken alot of things under question the last week.
Well today has been a trying day. How sad is it that you find out you have something that there is no cure for, yet you are relieved when you are tolkd what it is. After a few years of being in pain alot and thinking that I was literally losing my mind as the drs kept telling me there was nothing wrong yet I kept getting sick and kept being in pain all the time. Going from being on 12 presciptions down to 1 and a shot is such a blessing, even though I really dont like needles.
Its going to take some time getting used to the meds, but that is to be expected.
Chronic pain wtf its 90 degrees out not 20 what gives ?
09:20 Aug 14 2009 Times Read: 1,001
I dont know about any one else byut the last 6 days I have been in such horrible amounts of pain normally I only get like this when its really cold out or when the seasons change but its been in the high 80-90 here with the humidity just as high...I cant even walk up the stairs with out my knees cracking and my joints are just swollen and painful...now my Best friend has Fibrio and she has been in just as much pain along witha few other people that I know.. So is any one else experiencing this ?
Washington, DC Metro Station on a cold January morning in 2007. The man with a violin played six Bach pieces for about 45 minutes. During that time approx. 2 thousand people went through the station, most of them on their way to work. After 3 minutes a middle aged man noticed there was a musician playing. He slowed his pace and stopped for a few seconds and then hurried to meet his schedule.
4 minutes later:
the violinist received his first dollar: a woman threw the money in the hat and, without stopping, continued to walk.
6 minutes:
A young man leaned against the wall to listen to him, then looked at his watch and started to walk again.
10 minutes:
A 3-year old boy stopped but his mother tugged him along hurriedly. The kid stopped to look at the violinist again, but the mother pushed hard and the child continued to walk, turning his head all the time. This action was repeated by several other children. Every parent, without exception, forced their children to move on quickly.
45 minutes:
The musician played continuously. Only 6 people stopped and listened for a short while. About 20 gave money but continued to walk at their normal pace. The man collected a total of $32.
1 hour:
He finished playing and silence took over. No one noticed. No one applauded, nor was there any recognition.
No one knew this, but the violinist was Joshua Bell, one of the greatest musicians in the world. He played one of the most intricate pieces ever written, with a violin worth $3.5 million dollars. Two days before Joshua Bell sold out a theater in Boston where the seats averaged $100.
This is a true story. Joshua Bell playing incognito in the metro station was organized by the Washington Post as part of a social experiment about perception, taste and people's priorities. The questions raised: in a common place environment at an inappropriate hour, do we perceive beauty? Do we stop to appreciate it? Do we recognize talent in an unexpected context?
One possible conclusion reached from this experiment could be this: If we do not have a moment to stop and listen to one of the best musicians in the world, playing some of the finest music ever written, with one of the most beautiful instruments ever made.... How many other things are we missing?
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Scary clowns! Though it sounds strange, the fear of clowns is one of the top 10 most common phobias. Clowns are just plain creepy and never really funny. As a kid they frightened the hell out of us. Symptoms of coulrophobia can include high anxiety to outright panic attacks when around those floppy-shoed fools.
I have been terrified of them since I was a kid, I went with my son to a circus about 3 weeks ago and had such a massive panick attack I got sick. I dont know why I am so terrified of them but I am. So how amny others of you are afraid of Clowns ?
I think that there is a time at some point people actually question their sanity. And it is not about,"where did I leave my keys?" I mean that over whelming feeling of being swallowed whole with out even considering on taking a smaller bit out of that turkey swiss on rye out of life. Then there are those days, that you feel that if your head was not securily attached it may roll off your shoulders on to the busy sidewalk of everyday life and just get lost in the crowd of the same drone people doing the everyday tasts never with out hestitation to look on the other side of the street to see whats going on, afraid to take that jump and do something out of the ordinary.
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