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I remember those nights

where we sat up all night

talking to each other



Months have passed and

I have changed over

and over again



You said I was the

one to show you love

and what it had meant



I'm not even sure what

love is or what it means

everyone has their own definition



But how did I show you

when did I tell you what

it meant maybe you figured it out



The sun rises and falls

upon this body and I

ponder to myself about everything



I've heard from many

that your passion

for me still burns



The only problem is

my candle for you

burned out long ago



Now tears may fall

but that's the way

things are today



My mind has been

made up, my decision

has been made...



Don't try to change

my mind because it

won't be for another 3 months



Another 3 months till I can

be friends with you once

again that's just who I am



It may seem friendly now

but there are still some things

that I'm trying to erase from my past



I'm one who wants to

forget the past and

leave it forgotten



my memories are

small and most are

bad but I don't want...



I don't want these

memories of us together

it's only going to lead to pain



Pain on my part

upon myself alone

I wish not to do so



I may be sorry

later but for now

I need to get those memories away



Away from my mind

my soul and

my very heart



I have only a few

minutes left to contemplate

upon this written piece



I wish not to

suffer any more

pain staking memories



Tears may fall on

your part but to

me nothing will fall



Not me and no

tears will collapse

upon the floor before you



I know you still

love me and think

your never going to have another chance



But only God will

be able to figure

that one out



Many nights I pray

for God to take

my memories away



And many times

he has answered

my prayers



My decision is

final don't try

to change it



I know the way

you feel but I know

what I want and feel right now



And that is to forget

and never remember

those days I want gone



I'm one who wants

to forget the past

and leave it forgotten

A withering flower lays

upon the stone ground



A rose it once was

turned to ash and dust



Though you just have

to wonder where it came from



Was it a love that

wasn't meant to be?



Or was it cut from

the vine and tossed away?



No matter where it

came from beauty

still lays within it



As the sky turns purple

and the soft blue fades

away, darkened shadows

begin to rise again



Though it may not be

known what beauty

is for



No matter where you

are beauty follows

Glancing over the

pond under an

old willow tree

the full moon

stares at me

reflecting in the

water



A clear night the

full moon and

the stars shine

brightly in the

atmosphere



My body moon to

rest from the

escape of you



My mind wonders

into fantasy

of vampires and

darkness



Hoping you don't

find me for I

do not want to

return to you



Lost in thought

gone from mind

away from you



My enemy looks

for me every day



And every day

I must run

away because

each time I

awake you

are there next

to me staring

me blindly in

my brown eyes



Reality I don't

want to be around

you so I'll run

away every day

till your gone

and my dreams

are real

Soft brown

eyes seem

to stare at

me through

my bedroom

window



The darkness

hides him

well as the

snow falls all

around him



A cool winter

it has been

full of soft

white flakes

of crystallized

water falling

from the

atmosphere above



Street lights

and colorful

Christmas

lights are

lit around town



Your hair falls

in front of

your face

hiding your scars



I can see the

whites of your

soulless brown

eyes glaring

upon my sleeping body



I see your eyes

tear up and

the tears

begin to fall

softly down your cheeks



My body surrounded

by black and red

candles and rose petals



My body motionless

and my heart no

longer beating along

side your own



With a razor in one

hand and blood stained

upon the other



You watched me

die upon this Christmas

night and you saw

me take my life away

never to be awaken again

Let it rain

Let it rain



Take all my furry

and all my might



Let it rain

Let it thunder



Destroy whats

left to wonder



Kill destroy

turn out my lights



Take my furry

Take my pain



Take it all

and let it rain

Tell me that

you hate me



And let me

carve it into

my flesh



Tell me that

you lied to me



So I can lie

right back



Tell me that

you want me dead



So I can finally

wrap that noose

around my neck



Tell me how

you feel if

it was your

fault



So it can truly

hurt you for

the first time



Let me bleed

let me lie

let me die



So that one

day you'll

know my pain



So you won't

criticize me

any more



Just let me

slit my wrists



Just let me

lie to you



Just let me

die before

your eyes



Tell me you

love me



So I don't

have to care

this time



Tell me you

truly care



So I can just

shun you away



Tell me that

you don't want

me to die tonight



So I can take

that last step

off the cliff



Because I want

to...



Want to bleed

want to lie

want to die



So there will

be an end



An end to me



So I can get

rid of you



Tell me that

you want me to



So I can just

get it done with



Tell me that

you want to

let go



And let me fall



To bleed

To lie

To die



To not be loved

to not be cared for

to not be held



Drop me from

your world and

let my suffering

finally end



Realize finally

that you don't

need me around

any more



Let me pass



Pass away and

let me go



To rid this world

of one less bad seed



To drop me

from the

highest cliff



And let me

perish at

the bottom



Leave my corpse

there to be

digested slowly

by the forest floors



So they will never

know of my

existence of my life



So just tell me

that you hate me



So just tell me

that you lied to me



So just tell me

that you want me dead



So just let me bleed

So just let me lie

So just let me die



So just tell me

that you loved me



So just tell me

that you cared



So just tell me

that you wanted

to hold me



So I don't have to

So just let me shun you away

So just let me push you far



So I can take me,

the seed, myself

away from this place

we called Earth



That we called home.

I was the

one who

would watch

you sleep



The only one

who'd stand

in you're

doorway



Little girl

Little girl

come out

come out

and play



And maybe

just maybe

I'll show

my face



You stood

up in the

darkness

of you're room



Walking down

the stairs

following

my lead



The night sky

clear and the

moon full



Leading you

into the

darkness



The night had

opened its arms

as you were

swallowed by

the twilight



Before you awoke

I always said

one thing...



Before you opened

your eyes a voice

would speak to you



My voice saying...



"Little girl, Little girl

until tomorrow night

come out come out

and play with me."