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00:57 Feb 25 2009
Times Read: 818

I got a phone call today from work. James, my boss, got a complaint from one of the parents. Apparently, I was harsh and abrasive with a child. They object to the "Mom tone" of my voice.



I was told that I was to have a sit down meeting with James and my other boss, to discuss how I was going to recetify my attitude when it comes to dealing with children. They are attempting to be politically correct in dealing with children. In one of the most dangerous places, a swimming pool.



Get this. They want me to come in, so I can write out how I can correct my attitude.



They want me to write out, how I will rectify the situations.



They want me to write out, what I am going to think of, every time I come to work, to make me happy and sunny and cheerful person.



Right. Here is my attitude, dealing with children, in a swimmming pool.



SAFETY FIRST!!!!!



I don't care if my "mom tone" comes out. When I see a child doing something dangerous, that is going to cause them to injure themselves or another, I will make sure they stop. If I can't reach them, all I have is my voice.



So they want me to have the nice sweet smiling cheerful sing song tone of voice..."Oh Johnny, you don't want to do that." As Johnny is about to jump on top of another swimmer.



Instead of, "Johnny STOP!". When he stops, "Can you tell me the rules on jumping in the pool?" I then point out what he was about to do. I usually get a striken face and a quick, "Gosh I'm sorry, Ms Jayme."



Nope, sorry. I'm told that is harsh and abrasive.



They want me to tell the kids only when they do something right. So, when teaching them how to do a front glide, they are suppose to put their hands together over their head, their face in the water and push off the wall and glide. This is a skill that leads into several other skills, such as streamline and pullouts. When they do it, I am to act excited about the fact that they let go of the wall.



I am not suppose to tell them, "That's Great! Your getting there...but if you kept your hands together when you put your head down, you would fly through the water."



Nope sorry that is harsh and abrasive, as I am criticizing the child.



I began swimming at 5. Swam competitively for 10 years. Took the lifeguarding course at 15. Began lifeguarding. First thing they teach you in lifeguarding is, Safety, Safety, Safety.



I became a firefighter and EMT, when I turned 20. Guess what was drilled into my head. Safety, Safety, Safety.



So, with being a swimmer for 32 year, teaching for 20 years and being a EMT that saves lives for 15 years. Yes, my life revolves around the safety issues of my job.



If they are more concerned about being politically correct in how to handle children, than they are in the safety of their patrons, then I pity them.



The other issue, is that I refuse to kiss anyone's ass. The "successful" instructors, are ones that have a friendship with the boss'. That go to their homes, that bring them gifts and call them on the phone every day. Sorry but I am not in high school anymore. I hated high school and the clicks. I want to be sure that a person likes me for myself, not what I brought them.



Right now, the way I see this job, its a popularity contest. They are more concerned about the PR than the safety and whether the kids are learning anything.



I am told that they are disappointed in the amount of kids that I fail. This comes back around to safety. If a child cannot do something in level 2, putting them up in Level 3, causes a safety issue for the instructor and the child. Level 3 is in the deep end and When they are asked to do something, they don't have the muscle or coordination to do yet, its a dangerous situation to put them in.



I have never been late to teach a class. I have always taken classes when someone else was sick. If I have been sick, I have found my own replacement to cover my class and made sure I had a class lesson ready for them. All the kids that I pass can do the skills and are more than comfortable with them. Yet, I am not being talked to about any of these. I am being told, that this is a business and that they have to look at my the income of money and how I represent them.



I cannot work for a company that is asking me to disregard my moral code and my code of ethics, for their precious registration and PR. There is more to life than a paycheck. I don't need this paycheck...I did it for the fun of it. Its not fun anymore. Hard to enjoy the kids, when I know I am being watched on how I interact with them.



I quit.

00:41 Feb 22 2009
Times Read: 849

It was a good morning. LordV and I snuggled. I made Cinnamon Rolls. We watched a couple movies. LordV decided to go to the store, to get the makings for dinner. Roast Lamb.



LordV returns, acting angry.



"What's wrong?" I ask.



"I was mugged."



"What do you mean, you were mugged?"



"Outside of the store, 3- 8 year old girls. They got me for $20."



I grin wildly, "GIRL SCOUT COOKIES!!!!"

Our Valentine's Day
02:05 Feb 16 2009
Times Read: 892






My Valentine's Day started off as any other Saturday. I got up early, to go to work. I was distracted thinking about the day ahead, but I got through it. After the swim lessons, I took a good long shower to get the chlorine smell off of myself. I got dressed and went home.



I was hit with an overwhelming fatigue and I was shaky as I walked through the door. I didn't sleep well the night before, Aunt Flo decided to come and visit, add in nervous about the Valentine's Day I had planned, I was frustrated because this wasn't how I wanted to feel today of all days.



LordV was up and we cuddled and exchanged a kiss with our "Happy Valentine's Day." We had time to spare...as we couldn't check into the hotel that I had gotten for us, until 3 o'clock. We were going to the Oxford suites. They were having a Valentine's special that I decided to take advantage of. I upgraded our room to the honeymoon suite that had a jacuzzi in the corner. It included a $50 gift certificate to the local steakhouse, a movie and popcorn to watch in the suite, breakfast the next morning.



So, I got myself something to eat and LordV and I exchanged the first of our presents. I gave him three cards, silk boxers and his favorite milk chocolate dipped pretzels, in both white and milk chocolate.



I got, a red velvet heart filled with candy and a card. On the front of the card, was this picture:







Under it, it states, "I love you."



You open the card and it states:



"Its the quick kiss we make time for

on the way out the door.

Its the hug that says,

"I believe in us."

Its all the little things you do

that make me love you more each day.



With all my love and more each day.....LordV.



That is how the day started. I cried a bit, as it touched my heart.



We got up and started packing. Getting Maddie ready to go to the kennel. I had gotten her a suite also, a room with a bed and a tV, at a local kennel. We dropped her off and checked into our suite. We had two hours to kill before our dinner reservations, so I put on some of the love songs that I downloaded onto my cell phone and we laid on the bed, holding each other, talking. LordV has this incredible way of making you feel like a princess to his Shining Knight. How he cups your face, as he leans in to kiss you, how he caresses of your face, stroking your cheek or simply the look in his eyes, as he lifts your hand, to kiss it. It makes you believe that romance is not dead.



As we sat there talking, he handed me my second gift. It came wrapped in a gold package. As I pulled the package away, it was a book. I tried to figure out, which book LordV had gotten me, as I had just ordered a bunch, when I read the title.







It is a romance novel, with LordV and I starring as the main characters. He put in our characteristics, our hair color, our eye color and the most distinguishing feature of mine...my smile. A romance novel, with LordV as the vampire and I as his prey. Even Silverbow has a starring role as my best friend.



I sat and read out loud for a bit, with LordV cuddling against my side and listening. It was fun to read how we were described, to see little things, like my favorite drink added. It added to the depth of the story.



As the reservation for our dinner came up, I started getting dressed. I explained to LordV that this was another one of his presents. I had been in a skirt only a few times, since we had met and decided to go all out. I ordered a red corset top, that tied up the back and hooked in the front. It was suppose to come with garters, but they didn't arrive. So, I ran out and got a combo, garter belt with stockings. I covered the corset with a sweater and a skirt, both bought by LordV previously. I slipped into some high heel stilettos and presented myself to him. I could see that I did pretty good, as he immediately sat on the bed in front of me, to take me in his arms, smiling ear to ear.



I explained about the stilettos. I was looking for some heels and I saw these and thought they looked sexy. But I forgot one little problem. I haven't worn heels in over 10 years and never have I worn stilettos. I did try to practice using them, around the condo, but anything other than carpet defeated me. I worried about falling, hurting myself. I explained that I wanted him to see them, but it would probably only be in the room. He smiled, kissed me and said he understood, as he wouldn't want to see me hurt either. He helped me out of the shoes, caressing my foot, ankle and calf, gently, seductively. Although he did promise to allow me to dance with him, in the shoes, in the room, to our song, after dinner.



We went to dinner and was immediately sat down. We ordered our drinks and our dinner. Most the night was just staring at each other, talking about mundane things. Between courses, we held hands across the table and smiled at each other. He would often bring my hands up to kiss, staring at me with his wonderfully sexy blue eyes as he did so.



As we were waiting for our dessert to show up, we started talking about how we came to meet and our analysis of our relationship. He started asking me questions...



"Do I take you for granted?"



"No, I don't think so."



"Do I give you anything you need?"



"Yes, of course."



"Do I make you feel loved and desired?"



"Yes."



"How much do you love me?"



"Lots n' Lots, bunches and bunches" (A game we play...)



"How much do you love me?"



I put my hands apart and said grinning, "This much."



Looking exasperated, he asked one last time. "How much do you love me?"



I cocked my head and looked him in the eye, as my eyes filled with tears and said seriously, "Forever and a day."



He smiled and asked, "You promise?"



I nodded, as I watched his hand go back and fumble at his pocket. He stopped and then looked at me again. "Do you promise?"



"Yes, of course."



"I promise too." As he smoothly placed a ring on the left ring finger. It is gold, with two hearts interconnected. A ruby in one, an emerald in another, our birthstones.









I wasn't sure what it meant at first, but I know what it signified to me. To me, a boyfriend/girlfriend is a temporary arrangement, where no real committment was ever really made. I know from experience that even in marriage, it can end quickly and you can find yourself homeless. My biggest fear, was that something would happen between LordV and myself and I would find myself in the same situation.



This promise, this promise ring, helped my heart to realize, I wasn't just dreaming how good it is between LordV and I. It is real. It is a wonderfully simple relationship, as we both meet each other wants, needs and desires.



We went to Target, to get some drinks and snacks for the night and when we got in the room, we settled in. He pointed out yet another present, that seemed to appear out of no where. A bottle of wine, two champange glasses, another box of candy and a couple of candles, were placed right next to the sink. He again, cupped my face, kissed me tenderly and caressed my face with his hand, as he stepped back to use the bathroom. I put the stilettos back on and tuned my phone to our song. He had been told that his last present, was unwrapping me.



LordV is about a foot taller than myself, so with the heels, we could at least dance cheek to cheek. We started out with the traditional way of dancing, my arms over his shoulders, his on my hips. He brought his hands up to my face, cupping it as he kissed me deeply. The dancing became more and more erotic, as his hands roamed over my body. He began to unbutton the sweater over the corset, one at a time, pushing the sweater off my shoulders and throwing it to the side. He smiled at the corset, but did inform me that it was going to have to be tightened a bit, to truly be filled out, to his standards. Little by little, pieces of my wardrobe disappeared and well....



All I was say, is it was very satisfying for both of us.



After this, we filled up the tub in the room and snuggled there together in the bubbles, still listening to different love songs from my phone. I eventually got out and allowed him some time to relax in the tub by himself, as with two of us it was kinda cramped. I turned on the jets and as he relaxed and sang along with the love songs, I sat down to begin reading our Vampire love story.



Unfortunately, the wine didn't come with a corkscrew, so we didn't get a chance to enjoy it. We got some of our drinks out of the little fridge, the chocolates that we wanted and snuggled down with each other to watch a movie. I remember falling asleep on his chest, listening to his beating heart, knowing that I finally got my dream come true. A romantic Valentines with a person as romantic at heart as I was....



And that was my Valentine's Day.

23:09 Feb 11 2009
Times Read: 938

Geee this is just so.....appropriate right now. Hits on my beliefs, what I am trying to do with my life......





“To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.”~~Ralph Waldo Emerson

23:35 Feb 07 2009
Times Read: 1,049






This is the last entry regarding Hellsguardian69, Mathiaus and xTheDarkKnightx, after posting this, I will be done kicking myself, for believing in this person. After speaking to several people on here, we have put together a type of time line, to show how he works. He generally will target women that are in an abusive situation, a health crisis or simply in a bad situation at home or simply already taken by someone else.



Apparently, I only knew of one minor, but there are others. Trust me, I feel like a fool, for making him an ACM where he would have access to all of the minors, he was sworn to protect. *sighs* He likes to make himself out bigger than he is. He did nothing in my coven, but post every once in awhile and attempt to bring his women in. I know there are other women out there, that can add to this list, but these are the ones that came forward.



Please know that this is what we have all been told by these women. I don't claim these as truth, but simply hearsay. Only Ric truly knows the truth of these charges.



Chiyo -

Feb. 2004 – Ric picked her and her 3 month old daughter, up from abusive situation.

Feb. 2008 - had Ric's son

April 2008 - left at Ric's recommendation, due to money trouble. Heat was off. She went to New Jersey, got a job and working on getting a place. Ric told her that once he paid off his fines, that they would be back together.



LadyChordewa-

July 2005 - Was introduced to Ric through Chiyo, to do their profiles. She was in a failing marriage.

Nov 2006 - Met Ric, Chiyo, Cerebros and Matt when I was driving down to Florida.

Jan 2009 - Found out the truth about Ric's lies.



Girl 1-

Dec 2006 - Met Ric and stayed for about 2 months. He told her, that he was leaving Chiyo for her.



Anne-

Jan 7th – March 9th 2007 - She also sent him money and gifts.



Girl 2-

End of Feb. to June 5th, 2007 - She said she went to see him during that time. And he had said they would be married at that time.



Girl 3-

May 19th thru end of July 2007 - She met him on May 19th.



Girl 4-

July 4th until Nov 16th, 2007 - She is married, to abusive husband and has children. She sent him money.



NocturnisOrchid-

May 2007 to Jan 8th, 2009 - Involved with someone online when she met Ric. Ric and her planned to marry. Picked out rings and tartans for the wedding. Exchanged rings, he sent her flowers. She sent him money to help pay for bills and he used it to buy another phone to talk to other women.



xPsychex-

Dec 21, 2007 to April, 2008 - Abusive marriage and had an online boyfriend. Planned a life together, to grow old together. They spoke of suing for custody of his son, from Chiyo. Ric was upset when he felt HE was betrayed, when xPsychex found another man.



Girl 5-

Approx. Jan, 2008 to May, 2008 – Unknown information. Unable to contact.



Girl 6-

Feb to June 2008 - Sent her flowers and a ring. Came to see here after she paid for the bus fair.



Girl 7-

Feb 2008 to May of 2008 – 23 years old. The day after Ric left this girl, to be with HER BEST FRIEND (Girl 8)!



Girl 8-

May 2008 from October 2008 – Lived in Italy, 20 years old with a son. Ric called him, “My son.” He used to call her "my wife, my love". She was

dealing with Cancer when they met online.



Girl 9-

May to July 2008 - She found out about NocturnalOrchid in some way and then Ric went to her and said they broke up. So they were together again until Sept. when she said she found out about two minors he was with.



Girl 10-

Aug. to Dec. 2008 - He sent her a ring also and said after the first of the year he would

come and get her. Another abusive husband situation. She also sent him money for a bus ticket. She too found out about other girls and left him.



Thequeenakasha-

Aug 2008 to October 2008- They planned to meet...she is 21. When she discovered him talking dirty to her best friend, she dumped him.



Girl 11-

Oct. to Dec 2008 - He again said he would come and get this girl and they would get married. She said they broke up around the 18th.



MINOR-

End of October - Beginning of November. He supposively cybered a 14 year old member of LadyChordewa's coven.



3 weeks later-

He admitted to LadyChordewa, on the phone, that he cybered a 14 year old minor and she promptly kicked him from the Guardians of Darkness. The Minor did not have logs of the incident. When talking to NocturnisOrchid that night, drunk, he stated he was kicked out for "cybering a minor and her friend."



Laurell-

Nov. 24th, 2008 - Jan 12, 2009 - First met Dec 18th...met also on Dec 31 - Jan 2nd. Was told he broke up with NocturnisOrchid in Nov. He didn’t, until NO broke up with him in Jan, 2008. Found out about the truth, when LadyChordewa, walked into some of his lies that he told her.

00:16 Feb 02 2009
Times Read: 1,132

The more I talk to people about Ric, aka Mathiaus, aka TheDarkKnight, aka Hellsguardian69, the more I find out about him.



Just to clear something up. I only knew what he would tell me. Please do not blame me, or believe that I knew and condoned any of his actions. I did not.



Ok with that said....here are some facts, that I know the truth of.



Fact is what has been verified, as truth via at least, two people. Fiction is what Ric has told people.

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FICTION --- Ric made everyone believe that he ended it with Chiyo, didn't tell anyone about her or the son that she gave him.





FACT --- Feb 2004, Chiyo and her 3 month old daughter, came to live with Ric in Alabama. Feb 2008, she gave birth to a son, Ric's son. She left to go home, to New Jersey, at his request, in April 2008, due to money issues. Chiyo was to get a place and a job, so when Ric paid off his fines, they would reunite. Per Alabama standards, RIc and Chiyo ARE common law married.

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FICTION --- States he doesn't have any other children, or neglects to tell you about them.





FACT --- Ric has other children. Chiyo's daughter, only knows him as "Daddy", although she is not his biological daughter. He has a son with Chiyo, who is about to celebrate his first birthday. He has 4 grown children, ages 34, 29, 25 and 21. Another daughter, who is 13 now. He is paying child support only her.

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FICTION --- To gain sympathy, he would make statements, such as that he was homeless and living in the back of the store. He has told some that he is working at Quiznos.



FACT --- Ric is living with his friend Matt and is now working at firehouse subs.

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FICTION --- He claims to be loyal to one woman at a time.



FACT --- I checked his cell phone bill, considering the cell phone that he used for the past year or so, was on my bill. I have looked back, only 4 months, I have over 40 unidentified numbers, from different states. A time line is in the process of being made, to see where people were overlapped. If you are part of his victims, please send me the time period you were involved. Your name is optional.

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FICTION --- "I won't take money from a woman."



FACT --- Nocturnis Orchid sent him $50 every month, between July and Jan, for Ric to put towards my cell bill. Instead he used it to put minutes down on another phone where he could call other women. Since Ric liked to talk to women...He would often use up all of my minutes in a day or two. He used 2000 minutes in 2 days at one time. We paid for over $1500 in overages, before we started putting his cell phone on the teenage plan, where you could set what hours and what numbers were allowed.

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FICTION --- "LadyChordewa wouldn't let me do anything in her coven, she is too controlling."





FACT --- The decision was made that the three of us would be the three heads equally, in the Guardians of Darkness. LordV was in charge of Forums and graphic designs, HG in charge of defense, I was in charge of recruitment. We made decisions together. LordV and I were frustrated that Ric wouldn't DO anything. He would not post in the forums, except as batman. He wouldn't take control of a defense team, I had to push him to decide on the team and how it would be run. We wanted him to do things...

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FICTION --- "LadyChordewa wanted me for herself and destroys my relationships because of this."



FACT --- NOT. If anyone has read my journals regarding LordV, you will know that I am truly and completely in love with him. In Fact, I stopped posting about my feelings for him, when Ric complained that it made him feel so terribly alone and miserable to see me so happy.

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FICTION --- "I left the Guardians of Darkness because of politics and I just don't have time anymore."



FACT --- Ric admitted to me, on the phone that he had cybered a 14 year old member of my coven,, with one of his alter nicks on VR. When he told me this, I personally kicked him out of my coven for this betrayal. I asked the 14 year old for the logs, but she claimed to have deleted them already.

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These are what I know of, truth and fiction. I urge the other women to write something similar. Please feel free to ask me questions, I will do my best to answer them, or find something regarding your question.



I know that Ric has said so much about me, in a derogatory sense. Much worse than what I listed above. I ask you to simply ask me, get to know me. I am truly shattered by this man, but I needed to post some ongoing beliefs, that he told different women.



I am simply trying to come to terms, with someone who I considered my best friend for 3 years. To come to terms with the pain for betrayal so massive, so huge to me....