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Well yeah just letting you know they new bits on my life..



I still miss Donut. I cried the other week parents want to fill the hole that was left by him.. I thought they were trying to replace him by talking about getting a new puppy. But they assured me they weren't and no matter what happened nothing would replace him.



Yeah puppy talks.. Not going ahead with that one for a few months because of my random crying outburst because i missed him. They said they won't get one till i am ready and my brother.. My mum can't watch anything with dogs in it makes her sad.



I recorded my drum piece finally and it was right and i didn't cry XD

Dad's getting my prom dress soon ;D And easter break starts next week so i'm all good for now :D

I went for IT interview. didn't go to bad actually just now i was so sure i wanted to do electronics and now im not sure. The guy said i was perfect the kind of student he wanted on his course and my maths skills weren't great and i'd need them a lot in eletronics i was like D:! I wanna be a hardware technician..... But i dunno if i wanna take IT or Electronics D: Decisions decisions i have a few weeks before i get the letter to make up my mind as to wether or not i want to accept a place on the course.

I had to record my solo today for my GCSE music piece...



I'ma playing a grade piece for the drums. I can play it perfect. Put me with the CD im slightly out of time.. Put my music teacher in the room recording it and im even worse. What should of take 20 minutes tops took nearly the entire hour!



I got so frustrated in the end because i know i can do it! My drum teacher knows i can do it because he's been teaching me. And my music teachhers heard me playing it. So why couldn't i do it? It was incredibly annoying theni felt like a muppet because i burst into tears because i was so frustrated that it wasn't going right. And my leg went all twitchy trust me it is so hard to play the drums when the leg thats on the bass drum is twitchy XD



But he said we'll try again in a few weeks i just need to practise more with the CD...

Well i can't believe that Donuts been gone nearly a week now :(



I'm ok though im getting better no tears today and no tears yesterday. I can talk about the memories without welling up and balling my eyes out. Mum said we won;t get another dog for a few years but thats ok im not ready for another just yet. But the house is so empty i dropped food on the floor and walked away theni came back and picked it up because the dog's not gonna come and eat it up. And its small things like that that i have to get used to.



Dads gonna make a plaque for the grave and mums gonna plant a tree. And i go out to his little grave each day. I miss him really bad. I just about dealed with burying him im glad a got the chance to carry him with my dad i got a chance to see him before he was buried i was so happy even thouygh it was 9am.



But overall im doing much better i miss him and it's still sore that he's gonne but im making progress :)