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I have the worst trust issues...

I dont miss my ex. not even a bit. I realize he is a liar if he can just dump me and not even tell me. But i think that all guys will do that to me now.. and its the worse

I am interested in someone, from here no less whose name i wont mention due to privacy but i care about him so much. I would love to be his. But im so worried to go threw this again, someone leaving me. Its awful. I dont want to be put threw it again.

I am also trying to learn more about psi vamps. I relate to it alot. Sometimes i go to parks or sit on buses and close my eyes and i swear i can feel everything. Sometimes i close my eyes and just think what the people around me look like and i get the deiscription right. But i think i drain there energy without meaning to. People always say they feel tired around me or drugged. If i am, i need to learn how to control it.

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Oceanne
13:53 Dec 29 2011

Please remember something here when it comes to "meeting" online .

While yes,you might indeed find yourself attracted to and likeing someone here on VR,and yes,you might even get a little something going as far as an online type of relationship,building it with hours of conversation,online sex or whatever... in the end,until you MEET that person in real life and go through the motions that establish real relationships..learning about one another and how they react to certain situations,learning their ways,loves and dislikes..learning who they REALLY are...until there are real life commitments,vows and things of that nature,the bottom line is it is an online relationship and is not reality.So ,with that said,no one can really "dump" you online.Also keep in mind that in truth,you cannot trust anyone completely online. Trust online and trust in real life are two very different things.



I do wish you luck with all that is going on with you and hope that you can get a grip on your sensitivities.

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Yesterday was awful and just made me realize how i have noone. No family noone. I think thats my biggest draw to the Vampire culture. There so in love with there family. So caring and supportive. So Loyal. I wish I had that in my life more than anything. More than being immortal, more than the chance to be stronger or more beautiful than others, I wish I was surrounded by loyal people who loved me as I loved them.

I have someone to at least talk to. And although I have never had the pleasure of meeting him. Hes lovely to talk to.

Today my most beloved bf broke up with me. On Christmas no less. even though i dont really celebrate like i used to the fact is that he left me. he said i can do better because hes very ill and the drs do not know how to help him. He is worried because he has gained weight that ill leave him even though I have told him I would never do such a thing. I got upset I told him if he wants to leave to do it. I cant take it anymore I am so tired of haveing to prove to him I love him and I am supposed to just take his word. I am so confused and upset but mostly I am lost. We were supposed to do all this together. We had plans and now I am alone again

Thank God for wine

So im on this site. Me and my other half thought it be a good place to figure out were plp like us live. Since were both moving somewhere... anywhere...

Hopefully it works.

So far.. this site is a bit confusing.. but Im getting it. Im guessing i just need to stay on here a bit b4 i can really figure things out..