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I've been having night terrors about my past. These are things I don't remember. It's all old information, but different times. I don't remember these things happening like this, and it scares me. I remember all of the abuse and being raped, but I don't remember it happening like this.

My boyfriend does not know about what I've been having night terrors about. I've told him about what's happened to me, and he knows that not what's been going on lately. He sleeps beside me at night, but he doesn't really sleep. He just lays there, waiting until I start thrashing to wake me up.

I feel really bad about what's been going on. I've hurt him a few times, and, even though he says it doesn't bother him, I can tell it does. I don't know how I can get him to tell me how he really feels. He finally told me this morning that it's beginning to bother him, but he won't tell me the extent of how he feels. I don't know what to do.

I want to talk to him about it, but everytime I do, he brushes it off saying it doesn't bother him, and that he loves me. I'm going to start keeping a journal about what happens in my night terrors, and hopefully I can piece together what is happening and what did happen.

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xRobin3x
05:54 Feb 11 2015

good luck.

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