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And I walk to the mirror just to fix myself

Yeah, life gets harder when you love nothing else

So I pick my pills from the counter drawer

Pick my self esteem up off the fuckin' floor

I guess I'm woman of no recourse

'Cause I cracked another bottle, got no remorse

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Ketea
01:07 Apr 30 2011

Well regardless of what someone thinks of themselves, I still like you. :)

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As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

I wear my crown of thorns and pull the knife out my chest.

I keep searching for something that I never seem to find.

But maybe I won't, because I left it all behind.

Now I'm stuck with this, and that'll never change

Always a part of me, until the very last day.

Where to go from here? What road to travel on?

I spent my whole life choosing, and I always chose wrong.

Will I try to have the will to be alive?

Will I try because I've never seen the light?

Blow it to the ground and it's now you see,

You spent your whole life taking the best of me

Where'd you go? Where's your home?

How'd you end up all alone?

Can you hear me now?

There's no light, there's no sound.

Hard to breathe, when you're underground.

Can you hear me now? Hear me now

How low can I keep pretending to be?

That all the stars in the sky could mean something to me.

Heaven will open up if I live on my knees.

A woman of many words, but of few deeds.

Walking these streets, so absent of hope.

A pillow of concrete, a man with no home.

Lend him a hand, then we're walking the way.

Leave the virtue of pity, but we live with the shame.

So scared to dream in a world with no sunlight.

When you wake up, you know it's darker than last night.

Quickly we forget, sacrifice gone by.

Born to walk away, been walking my whole life.

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Ketea
01:09 Apr 30 2011

Life is what WE CHOOSE to make it. :)

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Oh you are my crystal queen

You bring me high

You bring me low

You take me places I'd never go

You whisper things inside my head

You never let me go to bed

I forget the days

I forget the hours

Life is a raincloud

With no flowers

You destroy my body

And control my mind

When you call me

Than you I find

Why can't I beat you Devilish queen

The addiction too strong,

too tough, too mean

I go without you for days and even weeks

But you call so often to me

That in your arms I long to be

But than I hate what it is I do

I'd give anything to be rid of you

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licentious
00:08 Jan 18 2012

I love this, I remember feeling like this when I was younger.

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Teardrops on my notepad

Dope sick feels so bad

Everything seems so fucked up

I'm about to go mad



My life tried to live right

This night hope will end right

Hell's doors open wide

Inside here's your invite



One breath should I use it?

Life/Death should I choose it?

These thoughts, collective

Im trying to alter my perspective

I'm coming to a halt

But to stop is my objective

Time is running out

My luck is running thin

I've struggled too long not to win or die trying

I see the clock ticking buying time time is flying

I smile at defeat still inside Im crying

Look into the sky asking why I cant live a simple life

Its a lie to try an say the grass isnt greener on the other side

A poor excuse for Heavens set

Cause I cant climb the fench no matter how hard I try

Im wrapped in bared wire wondering whose on my side

Rusty knives in back

Theres no where left for me to hid

Im wrapped up in sins so Im in for a ride

I'd commit suicide but I dont wanna die

Im sick of getting high

An Im sick of these games

There's not enough drugs to take

To take away the pain

I loved you, you made me, hate me. You gave me, hate, see?. It saved me and these tears are deadly. You feel that? I rip back, every time you tried to steal that. You feel bad? you feel sad? I'm sorry, hell no fuck that! It was my heart, it was my life, it was my start, it was your knife. This strife it dies, this life and these lies. And these lungs have sung this song for too long, and its true I hurt too, remember I loved you!

Why do I want to blot out everything? Why do I want to kill off the person that I am? Why do I always want to become this unfeeling monster, fueled by whatever chemicals I can find to put in my body?

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aneishka
11:58 Apr 19 2011

Pain. Unbelievable pain usually causes that. How do I know? Because I want the same you do right now.

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I fear being like everyone I hate, I fear failure, I fear losing control. I love balancing between chaos and control with everything I do. I always have a fear of going one way or another, getting lost in something, or losing everything to get lost in. And I fear being a completely acceptable sheep in society.

what people think about me is none of my business

People don't make sense to me...I have no comfort zone I don't know how to live. I feel like an alien. 

May the bridges I burn light the way.