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I stand by your bed.

I watch you sleep.

I think of the words.

That cut so deep.

I think of what you say.

How much it takes away.

You've taken away a peace of me.

A peace you hold in your hand.

You grasp it so tight.

You won't give it back.

I want it.

It's making me all that I lack.

So stop this foolish game.

We're a team. We're supposed to be.

Stop this sadist.

I beg of thee.

Stop this torture.

This torture in me.

I wish for a time.

WHen you loved what I was like.

Bitch seems to be me.

You see.

The me you see.

Not the me that's me.

How I feel is nothing but nothing to YOU .

Even though you say you love me.

Do you even know what love is my dear

Or is the love you feel for me what you fear?

In this depth of lonliness I reach out to you. empty and frail with my lungs ripped out I scream to you. Everything's left to unvail. If we live this life of horror films will be captivated. Or just captive in our own wrong doing. This promise we're promoting of forever does it mean any thing. Maybe You're just my illusion.Im seeking a trip in your wire. I tick in your brain something to tell me your not just numb to everything. Im wishing for an answer in the air that we intoxicate, But nothing ever comes my way. As the carbon fills my body. Im left here to wait. These days are telling tales of empty sarrows and broken words forever we're left here in denial of what we thought was once. We're both imagining this place we have. This place away from the blood and the drugs. Or image is dying. The reality of this life is multiplying. and slowly im falling away once more. Slowly Im breaking. You're walking away. Am I dreaming once more?





-Kelsie declue

There are time's when love fails.



When thing's just fall apart and everything just breaks.



There are days when love over comes the hate that is felt.



Night's that the hate seeps through.



It's all just a answer love or hate..



The question is what????????



I really don't know because nothing can ever be said.



Nothing can ever be truly felt.



People think im such a horrid person,



That im so cold so heartless.



That's far from the truth.



If some actually took the TIME to figure me out.



It might be worth it.



That's just it tho.



YOU DON'T HAVE THE TIME RIGHT?



I quote YOU



So don't call me a liar.



You know I'm right,



but how to you expect me to act like lovc



When you don't show it either.



Alls you think I feel is hate.



The only HATE i FEEL is the hate that you don't know me and all..



That we've been thriving on nothing.



Are we really this empty?



YOU DON'T HAVE TIME FOR ROMANCE RIGHT?



Well think about it what's love with out romance.



The person that I met the person I FELL IN LOVE WITH..



Is no more.



Is it beacuse you have me now?



Was I a mistake.



This is how I feel like it or not it is.



It's true.



But im just two faced right?



I speak your words so if you think im bashing you remember you said this not me.



I WANTED IT.



I WANTED LOVE.



I WANTED ROMANCE.



I WANTED TO SHOW YOU.



BUT WE JUST DON'T HAVE THE TIME OR THE CAPASITY FOR IT because our lives are so busy and so wasted.



Just take a day to talk to me. To get to know me. So i can get to know you.



Bc after over a year.



We're so oblivious

"I'M SO BROKEN" SHE SAYS "SO COLD IN SIDE, THIS PLACE IS EMPTY AND NOTHING IS LEFT FOR ME HERE. I'LL DIE ALONE IN VAINITY. I'LL NEVER MAKE OF ANYTHING. FOR NO ONE WANTS ME NOR DOES ANY ONE CARE. I'M LOST. I'M SO ALONE HERE" I SCREAM BACK AT HER. "LOOK WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO YOURSELF. THE HAIR THE NAILS THE CLOTHES. WHAT ELSE? WHAT WILL BECOME OF YOU AS YOU FADE INTO THIS ABISS OF GLAMOUR AND PAIN. WHAT WILL PEOPLE SEE IN YOU. NOTHING BUT YOUR SHAME. YET YOU HIDE BE HIND THE CLOTHES AND HAIR RUNNING FROM EVERY THING. JUST LIKE THE BLOOD FROM MY WRIST THAT DRIPPED. YOU CAN CONTROLL JUST THIS ONE THING BUT FORGET IT. IT'S NOT WHAT THEY SEE. THESE PEOPLE YOU LOVE THESE FRIENDS YOU HAVE. THEY DOJN'T SEE ANYTHING. BUT A MANNIQUIN. THEY DON'T SEE ANYTHING BUT A CLAY BEING. THEY SEE NOTHING OF A SOUL. THEY SEE NOTHING OF LOVE. YET YOU WONDER STILL HOW CAN THIS BE. BEAUTY IS ME. AND YOU PONDER AND YOU PONDER AND YOU SEEK AND YOU SEEK BLINDED BY THE MASSCARA YOU APLY SO THICK YOU CAN'T SEE.. THE RING'S ON YOUR FINGERS YOU BOUGHT THEM YOURSELF. WHO GAVE THEM. YOU. NO ONE ELSE BUT YOU STILL SAY NO MATTER WHAT I HAVE LOVE WILL NEVER COME TO ME WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME IM SO PRETTY. LOOK IN THE MIRROR THEN YOU'LL SEE. LOOK INSIDE YOU . YOU'LL FIND ALL THE LOVE YOU NEED"