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I just found out from one of my oldest childhood friends something terrible...... Another friend's sister past away on March 15 2012.



We were all so close, we went to the same Elementary school as children. They were like brothers and sisters I always wanted...... I just thought that no one I actually knew so close in my life would die.



She died by an asthma attack on her way to the hospital right before her 19th birthday. We both always had a love and hate relationship.... but I never wished her ill. I only wish that I kept in touch after we moved away..... so that in the end, I could tell her that she was always my friend.



I'm starting to wish that there was no such thing as death and dieing. I'm scared, down to my core of dieing..... I'm scared of growing old and closing my eyes to nothing. Only blackness.... be aware of my mind while I'm buried or burned, rotting to death..... I'm so scared that I don't want to go through that. Can anyone promise me there's happiness at the end of my life.... or is there only darkness waiting for me.