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Perhaps a Demon

Perhaps a New Spirit

Or a new Obsession

My what a Question

Strange how it is

My mind so Dark

My spirit of Light

How can this be?

In the Dark

Listen close

Dearest friend you be

You will hear the laugh,

The laugh of Insanity

Now this is what you've become

There is no light

No rays of sun.

Darkness consumes

You no longer feel the same

Dark, angry, and no pain of emotion

Just the nothingness you've become

Impacients is the way

For ever now and how it stay.

I am not there, I did not betray.

I am who I am.

I am that way.

I am myself.

I am me.

I am battle hardend

I am cold

I say things I do not mean

I am an ass

I am me.

I am lost

Im not who I was

I am not the same

And I will never be

I am lost

I am no longer me

I am this

I am an ass

Im not the one I saw

In the looking glass

A mersenary no more

No friends to admire or adore

I am the ass

I am the one who is not right

I no longer can try

To make things right

It pains me to be kind

But why?

Why can I not be who I use to be?

Where has that kind heart gone?

Lost in time?

I can not do this...

I can not love

Be kind

Or stop this evil inside

I would call for help

But I am in fear

No one will hear my plea

Will I be weak if I call upon the word they say is friend?

Will my sanity come to an end?

I want an answer, answer me now! How can I change how can I break this spell?

Im falling apart

This battle I fail

Retched life of childhood ripped from my hands!

Oh waring state!

Darkness

Evil Fate!

Shall I feel sorry?

Shall I stop being "Mean"?

Shall I curl into a ball

Never to speak again?

Tell me please, what can I do?

What can I do to be better?

How can I become what I was, who I use to be?

Do you have any clue how much I miss being so loved

To now be so hated?

You can not. No one can.

Once was strong

That strength now gone.....