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Goodbye......







well.. this is it ... once again my plans have changed..



im getting on the bus for Mississippi tonight ... and getting off the bus and straight into a car headed for Bama.... where i wont have internet .. and its not a temporary thing .. it may be next year at income tax time before i can get internet again :(



to all my covenmates... i will miss you with ALL MY HEART....



to my friends here on VR... its been a hella ride huh? lol



to my Moonie and my CM ... i love you two beyond COMPARE.. and i promise to keep in touch ... please.. dont be upset with me for this "impersonal" goodbye lol but i am NOT taking this part very well lol



to those i have had my differences with and mended those fences... some great timing huh? lol



to those i havent mended the fences ... fuck you lmao



and to YOU .. and you KNOW who you are... i still hope you're happy with the decision you made..

oh .. and fuck you too :D







jebus ....

as much as i have bitched about this site, and the drama, and the twatwaffles and cunts... i sure am gonna miss it ..

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GypsyOfTheGreen
22:59 Sep 30 2008

::sighs the dirath box and the coven just wont be the same with out you.. gives you a big hug

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SeleneIncarnate
23:42 Sep 30 2008

who's gonna bounce me while you're gone?! [sob] I'LL MISS JOO!

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Teradin
02:05 Oct 01 2008

: sniffles: You will be missed, trust me.

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xMitsix
04:53 Oct 01 2008

I'm gonna miss you sooooooooo much my petal =(



who am I gonna hump until you get back? *sigh sigh sigh*



I love jooo x 1000000000000 + 1 and 1 more



*cries*

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i just left a goodbye thread in our coven forum ..

FUCK that was hard..

now ... its time to put the laptop away, and start moving my shit downstairs.. and hang out at the store til my ride gets here ... *sigh*



ima call Juan and make him come tell me bye ... i want a pic of me and him together ...



here i go folks ... on to another adventure lol ...

*sigh*

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queenmorbid
16:24 Sep 27 2008

Hell, get Juan to go with you, lmao

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KamarillaKaine
16:27 Sep 27 2008

*snorts* wonder how long it would take us to get thrown off the bus for indecent behavior >;)

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Sinora
17:24 Sep 27 2008

Safe journey my dear *hugs*...and here's to the next adventure !

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xMitsix
04:18 Sep 28 2008

Imma miss you my petal



LOVES YOU LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS!!!

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GypsyOfTheGreen
22:58 Sep 30 2008

you are going to be missed soo much

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so .. i said LOTS of goodbyes tonight .. hung out at the store a while .. and came up to my room to shower and such .. and i was sitting here... chattin muh Moonie ... when my cell fone rang ... i answered it, and it was the graveyard shift girls at the store...



"Can you come down here a minute?!?"



i thought something was wrong ... cuz one girl is REAL new and the other is pretty new... so I bounced down there....



and they had made pizzas ... muh fav kind ... and some of the water truck guys are there ... and they were giving me a lil going away party .... AWWW!!



you KNOW i cried like a baby ... randomly hugging folks and wiping tears lol...



more of my "kids" came in and i got more pics...



more regulars came in.. hugging and making me cry ...



I'm gonna miss everone so bad!!

i have so many numbers in my lil cell fone .. that im afraid its gonna explode lmfao





i've had moments since i have been here ... that i wished i had never COME here....



but i AM glad i did ... i hate the way some things have turned out .. losing a friend ..



but i gained so many NEW friends ... experienced things i never would have at home ... seen things i never would have at home ..



my life has truly been enriched by these people .. and this lil po-dunk town of Parachute Colorado ...



tomorrow starts a new adventure ... i wont have internet for a few days ... well.. sporadically at best .. then when i get to Mississippi, i will have it for a few days .. but when i get back to Bama... its gone ... and i may not have it back until income tax time ..



*sigh*

i gotta stop before i start crying again ...

one of my regulars... found out tonight from the graveyard crew at the store... that ima be leaving on Saturday morning .. and he came up to see me ...

he pecked EVER SO SLIGHTLY on the door lol in case i was asleep ...

he said that when he asked Darla at the store... when iw as gona be working again .. she told him that tonight had been my last night and that i was leaving IN THE MORNING .... lmfao ... and that she was rather HUFFY about it ... truth be known .. Darla has a MAJOR case of the HAWTS for Cliff... and well... lol he DOESNT have them for HER :P



I've mentioned Cliff here before .. somewhere.. lol ...

he's a sweet guy ... he asked me wasnt there anything that would make me stay in Parachute at least a lil while longer ... and i told him NEWP .. that i had even been offered a good job tonight .. and i just wanna get home to muh babies .. and he said the same thing ... that he could get me a better paying job if i wanted it ..



WHERE WERE YOU GUYS when i NEEDED a better paying job lmfao ... sheesh!!



i took a few pics at work tonight .. of my "extra-curricular children"... tomorrow on day shift ima take pics of some more of my co-workers ... and i gotta pic of Cliff while he was here :D

SITTING ON MUH BED hahha ...



ima upload everything and make a website of muh Colorado Friends :)



it truly touches me ... how many people have hugged me and told me they wished i could stay longer... and tried to come up with something to KEEP me here... i have made GOOD FRIENDS here ... people who have shown me that as much as i hate the human race in general .. not EVERYONE is a fucktard-twatwaffle-douchebag-CUNTFACE :D



theres no one here... that i will ever forget :)

yup thats whut time it is and i cant sleep ..



last night at work was ruff...

starting to tell the regulars Goodbye ...



Juan ... while he was there... couldnt look at me without making the sad face :(



then .. in the process of helping Wayne (the owner)(who is a wuss)... move some heavy stuff around .. he (Juan)strained his back and hadda make up an accident report and go to the ER..

and of course.... didnt call the store or come by to let me know whut happened...



tonight .. ima take a buncha pics...

got one of Joseph and Kim tonight .. a high school couple. that are my adopted kids here lol .. they call me MOMS lololol...

gonna get Jose tomorrow .. young guy that is our COOLER GUY .. and .. just as scared of spiders as i am btw lmfao (remind me to tell that story sometime...)

and of course Sheila and Cindy...

already have Muh Sue :D :D :D :D



wish i could get a pic of Chris ...

and Cliff..



and my long haired man LMAO .. i dunno his name ... but he lets me touch his hair when he comes in LOLOLOL



and :(

im not gonna get to hang out with WC and PD again before i leave...

i was really looking forward to that .. but things just arent gonna work out :(





in some ways .. i dont wanna leave here...

if it werent for the babies ... i WOULDNT ...

i WOULD go live under the bridge lmao just to get to stay... haha



i have met so many wonderful people here.. and yes i know i have said that before ... its just that as the time grows nearer and nearer that ima be leaving them all behind .. its hitting my heart harder and harder....



i've LOST some things here that i never thought would go away ...



i stepped outta my comfort zone... and in some ways have paid dearly and in others gained SO MUCH ...





but in a few days ...

ima be with Melly and Bunka again !!!!

theres NO WAY to be sad about that part... :D



and Ava... and OMG i bet Audrey is HUGE by now !!





First.. ima be going to Jennifers in Tunica.... and i am hoping to do some work for Leland to make up a lil MORE cash before i go HOME home .. but only for a couple of days .. its the fucking bus ride that i dread so much ... gawd .. me.. going HOURS without a smoke ?!? ... someone may DIE before i make it to Tennessee lmfao





Dont know yet if ima be leaving on Friday or Saturday ... depends on what time our checks get here... might talk to Wayne and see if he can get me mine early..



GAWD...

im sitting here squawlin like a baby lol

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deadwhispers
12:58 Sep 24 2008

awww babe it will be ok .. *HUGS

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PhoenicianDream
15:51 Sep 25 2008

It would be hard to mail you goodies to... Kami Under the bridge..



lol I dont think the mail man would understand :P

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KamarillaKaine
17:22 Sep 25 2008

*perk*

goodies?!?

BLONDIES ?!????!?!?

WOOT! lol

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so .. this weekend ...

i am prolly going home ..

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BlackTea
18:38 Sep 23 2008

It was a good run, with both its ups and downs. You cannot say though that you never had any adventures...lol. Be well and I hope the return is pleasant.

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MysticMoon
18:59 Sep 23 2008

you gave it your best shot hun, just think how happy your babies will be to have you home again :)

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KamarillaKaine
19:05 Sep 23 2008

i cant WAIT to get ahold of those babies !!!!!!!!!!!!

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almost time to start getting ready for work ..

i already know its gonna be a BUNGLE DAY ... ugh

the delivery truck is at LEAST five hours late... which means Sheila will either have to stay over... or come BACK to check it in .. thats never fun lol



not sure who i am working with tonight .. the new girl or Juan ... HOPEFULLY Juan...



when i went to pay the rent.. the HEAD MAID (lol) .. Karen, stopped me for a chit chat ... and finally asked ... "Not to be nosey but why did your friend make you move outta that room, and HOW ON EARTH are you keeping that rent payed dear?!?"



well... i folded like a wet kotex lol ... and told her ...

now shes also on the hunt for me somewhere to live.. and as with ANYone .. the hardest part is finding somewhere close enough to the store .. that i can walk to work ...



*sigh*

shower time

again .. i am on my last leg..gotta go pay for last night ... and tonight ... and then ... i dunno what ima do ...

Mary, four the FOURTH TIME ... flaked out on me.. and i am NOT moving into the house with her..

Sandy, bless her ... lives in a tiny lil trailer, and i gots LOTSA crap .. and cant afford to send any of it home just yet...



its starting to look like .. im NOT gonna be able to make it home for Bunkas birthday ...



i swear to GOD i wish i could get ahold of *HIM* .. i'd gut him with my bare hands, rip off his pathetic lil dick and shove it up his ASS...



sorry .. hadda get that outta my system :)



im out of options and out of whatever LUCK has kept me going for so long already ...



i dunno what ima do .. its Monday .. i can pay for tonight.. and then im FUCKED ... its too far til payday to just let it ride til i get payed ... and even though my next check is gonna be pretty good cuz i worked a day for Juan .. im still fucked ...



btw .. i fucking hate both of you right now ...

just saying

one of my favorite sayings has always been ..

"I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE!!"



I'm a cynic I totally admit it .. its my personal belief that there just isnt much good left in the world.. and i never give anyone the "benefit of the doubt" ... i dislike right off the bat, and a person has to PROVE THEMSELVES WORTHY lol ... of any kind of friendship from me... in my defense... its my relationships with other people that has made me this way, too many people.... friends, family, and strangers.... have shown me its just not worth it, to give out trust blindly.



And on a separate note along those lines, when someone does break thru my self imposed barriers, the friendship i feel and give in return, is FIERCE..



But here in Parachute... i have to admit, I have been quite astounded as of late, by the generosity and kindness of some people, granted it hasnt totally made me rethink my opinion of the human race... but its made me not look at the WHOLE as harshly...



Last night .. after i got off work .. i went back down to the store for some chocolate :) ... and one of my regulars was in there... a lil hispanic man .. in his late 40's i suppose... i dont know his name .. but he is a very sweet lil man, and bless his heart was thrilled that i wasnt working and could just chit chat a minute lol...

We stood outside the store, and he was asking me where i was from and how i ended up here, and the conversation eventually turned to the fact that i am trying to get home, and how i have been living out of the motel and having NO extra money to save for my bus ticket, and am about to move out into a room rented in a house .. yadda yadda yadda.... and this man ... PULLS OUT HIS WALLET



"You need money?? I have money you can have Trrrrrrracye (he rolls his R's so funny haha).. here..." and pulls out SEVERAL 50 dollar bills...

I convinced him that i was ok with money at the moment lol as i had just a few hours before cashed my check, and eventually he put the money away .. but not before saying "You let me know if you ever need some .. i have plenty, and it would make me happy inside to help you"



Happy inside... what a nice way of putting it huh?



Maybe its this town in general ..

theres Juan, and Sue, and Cherry, and Cindy R, and Cindy O, and Sheila, and Shelley .. there was Debbie, and theres Sandy and Mary that are helping me now with letting me get the room...

ALL of whom have seemed to rally around me in what very well SHOULD have been ... one of my darkest hours... having the type of personality that i have .. i have to admit it amazes ME that i havent spiraled off into some suicidal binge after some of the things that have happened here..



im still a cynic, but im not quite as hardcore .. as i used to be...

i've made friends here, that i already dread leaving...

i've learned lessons here, that i never would have learned at home....

i've had heartbreak that i wouldnt have had to experience, had i stayed home.. and i have made connections and bonds that i never would have made, had i stayed home...

i've lost the person that i SHOULD be thanking for all this... and gained SO MUCH MORE... that it quite honestly.. humbles me to think about it ..



I miss my babies .. so much that i almost wish i hadnt WROTE that just now lol ... it makes my heart hurt, and i cant wait to get home to them ...



But I am gonna miss Parachute, and its people, and even Colorado in general ... it holds some people VERY DEAR to my heart...



and yesh PD... you and the big guy are two of them :)

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misterstikki
17:59 Sep 20 2008

I hate people in general also and its always humbling when someone does something from the kindness of their heart, just because they can.

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KamarillaKaine
19:14 Sep 20 2008

very true StikkiDood..

nice to know it can still happen huh?

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PhoenicianDream
17:18 Sep 22 2008

aaaaaw ♥ we luff you too hun =)

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the following entry ...

is NOT for my dear constant readers, though you are welcome to read it lol..

just wanted you to know that its not AIMED at any of you ... i luffs joo guys :)



NOW... on to bidness >;)



Of course you know ... that *I* know you were on my profile today, and roaming about in my journal ..

find anything there... or here... that interested you?

did it cross your mind at any time to leave me a message??.. if so .. DONT let it cross your mind again, because not ONLY do i not wanna hear ANYTHING you might have to say... i wont respond to anything either .. this is the closest you

are ever gonna get to SOMETHING PERSONAL from me, ever again ...



you chewed me a new asshole once for what you viewed as me "trashing" you in my journal ...

Hunny... if i wanted to do that... i coulda plastered ALOT of shit here and there and YONDER .. that woulda TOTALLY trashed BOTH of you ... i chose to keep all that to myself... AND STILL DO... keep thatin mind ...



and as bitter as i am .. as FUCKING HURT as i am ..

i still hold a small degree of ... well.. i dunno what to call it ... certainly not LOYALTY .. you fucked that ALL UP .. friendship?? OH HELL NAW... misguided emotion?? thats close...



with all sincerity, and no sarcasm ... i wish you the best as you travel down the path you have chosen... i HONESTLY hope he doesnt turn into what i think he is going to, and i REALLY HOPE he doesnt turn you any further into what he has started turning you into ..



i wish for you happiness, though i dont hold out much hope for it ... as i know you better than most and i dont see you being happy with the situation he demands from you ... at least not for very long ..



again .. i thank you for what you have done for me...



but baby ... i choose to wipe my slate CLEAN of you for what you did TO me, and let him do ..



blood is thicker than water...

and friendship is supposed to be more important than a fuck... and whether you wanna believe it or not ... thats all he is EVER gonna be ... he doesnt have a heart to love with ...

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Kontradiction
05:16 Sep 20 2008

nice!



i so wish i knew "who" you were talking about.



wonder if it's the same "couple" i'mma talking 'bout.



(hi hi's, btw....:)

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KamarillaKaine
17:30 Sep 20 2008

hi hi !! lol

and no .. i doubt its the couple you are thinking about ...

as this is someone i have known all my life.. long before the internet was even INVENTED LOL... and i dont think the two of you were acquainted ... lol

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pooor Juan

i dunno how much more this guy can take...



another cousin dead... a ten year old ...



how hard did it break my heart to answer my door and see him standing there crying??



im working for him, til nine tonight ...



he took me to cash my check and bought me some of my favorite candy :)



poor guy ...

i wanna just wrap him up and protect him from all this shit ...

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Kontradiction
00:30 Sep 20 2008

i know....hard life.





my condolences to him.

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PhoenicianDream
01:10 Sep 20 2008

Aaaaw poor Juan! =(



That's horrible.

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yesterday and last night .. were *odd* to say the least .. at work ..



of course working with Juan was a treat :D ...

but at the beginning of the night .. he was in a rather strange mood... kinda standoffish ... aloof even ... but not PISSY or anything .. just quiet.. i dunno .. but just not his normal Juanito self...

and i have to admit .. i let myself take it personally



and then .... (OMFG) Chris came in the store... all smiles and "Missed Ya" 's and "How ya been" 's and "Whatcha doin this weekend" 's .... (all the while, Juan is talking to some chick..)



I motioned to Juan that i was gonna go smoke, and walked out with Chris ... who was btw... thrilled to learn that i have my own room with NO ROOMIES :) ... and we made plans to talk later and see each other for one of my off days.... if not both nights :P



so i walk back in the store... and Juan SO has on his pissy face... chick is gone ... and Juan starts with the third degree...

whos that guy

whats his name

are you seeing him

how long have you known him



i was totally honest, and answered him .. explaining the whole deal about Chris, and how things went before .. and how Chris has just explained that he and his crew had gone and done a small job back in Utah and he was back here now, and he has room-mates and i have always had room mates and now i dont and we were planning on getting together this weekend, but that i wouldnt call it SEEING him.. yadda yadda yadda..



"OH"



WTF ?!?!?!??!



UGH MEN !!





so a lil later... he seemed to slip back into Normal Juan .... we talked about when i am going home .. and he asked how i was getting to the bus station . and then said .. "Hey ... lets hang out your last day here... i wanna see you off... we'll go early .. eat at Red Lobster... and I will take you to the bus station ... wanna?!?"



like i would tell tell man no lol



i dunno what to think about Juan ... or this whole situation ...



but one thing i DO know .. is after what lil time i got to spend with Chris ... i wanna see where it goes if we get to spend some more time together ...



so Juan left work early .. and i stayed til ten.. as a favor for him .. when i got back to my room, the internet was down ... so i went on to bed .. and the fone rings at like 12:30 ..it was Cherry. she works graveyard at the store... she had gotten a callfrom her grandson who lives with her (on her cell) and couldnt get the fone answered in time cuz she was busy ... when she called back .. he dint answer the fone.. and she was worried... wondered if i would come watch the store for few minutes so she could run home and check on him .... so i redressed really fast and ran down there..



she leaves, and is back in ten minutes ... with the FUNNIEST look on her face.. and she says..



"IMA cut my grandsons pecker off i swear!!"



LMAO



so i asked wtf ...



her grandson was on the fone with his girlfriend, and not answering the beeps ... and erm .. she TOTALLY BUSTED him doing the fone sex thing ! o.O



hahahahahahaha!!!



poor kid lmfao (he's 15 lmao)



*shakes head*



yeah ...

it was an odd night ...





SOOOOoooo.. i've been back up a while .. cleaned up my room and let the maids vaccuum ...



oh and ... dont worry PD.. i will totally keep you posted LOL !!!

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PhoenicianDream
01:09 Sep 20 2008

hahahaha Yayness!



I love reading up on the adventures of Kami! =)

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KamarillaKaine
04:27 Sep 20 2008

LMAO !!

i fucking luff joo wommin LOL !!

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laundry is done ...

bed is made...

gonna be getting ina shower soon ..

i work with Juan tonight i think :)



my living arrangements problem was solved several times over last night while at work ... what started out with me and Juan getting a trailer together, ended with me renting a room from Mary in a real house .. with a real kitchen ... for 125 a week lol .. MUCHO bettern the 525/week i am paying here at the motel ..



tomorrow and saturday are my off days ... ima stay here in the motel those two nights .. mostly to get my shit all packed and decide what i want to throw away .. and, well *sheepish grin* to have the internet a couple more nights lol



sue still isnt doing much better.. but she ISNT in the hospital any more .. she told Sheila she was gonna be at work today ... *EEPS* .. i hope she dint do it ...



im out of minutes on my lil fone ... which means no talking to the babies until i can either get to walmart and get a card.... or find someone with a debit card willing to let me give them money and them put a few on there for me ..



i have decided NOT to tell Bunka and Melly when i am gona be home .. and just surprise them :D



i cant wait to get ahold of those two :)

i just love going back and re-reading that last entry :)

feels good to let some of it out :)

oh theres more

and i am sure i will write more about it later XD

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RazaelRiezen
19:30 Sep 17 2008

hahaha :P

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i hadda WEIRD dream this morning .. that lol i m NOT gonna share :: lol ... but i told what i could remember of it to muh Moonie ... and she says one possible meaning is that theres someone againest me... the reason she couldnt be more specific is she couldnt find a dream that described exactly what i had seen .. in her books ... leave it to me right ?? lmao ...



im wondering if it might be *you know who* and *you know WHAT* ... even though they are gone ..



AND SPEAKING OF THAT ... she didnt come tell me they were leaving ... didnt come say HI BYE KISS MY ASS... nothing ...



she was still talking to me there before dicklick got back .. but once he reurned .. she stopped... im assuming he forbade it .. and she minded like a good lil lemming ....



trust me .. this is something i will NEVER forget ...

this makes SEVERAL THINGS i will never forget ....



i used to tell her .. that if things went sour with the two of them .. she'd always have a place to go .. she could come live with me ...



WELL ... that offer no longer stands ...



in fact.. as far as i am concerned... they are BOTH on the list of folks that need to be CUNTPUNTED.. and lol .. i have already had MORE than one offer to handle that for me lol.. by CP members and non-CP members .. all of which i know in RT not just online lol



Some things are better left unsaid .. and those close enough to have HEARD those things from me .. know what some SHIT i put up with .. in the name of friendship .. only to be thrown away when i wouldnt .... well.... to put it quite bluntly .. PUT OUT lol



all thats left to say is ...

i hope you're happy ..

i hope when it all falls down around you, and it will i hope you have somewhere to go.. because *I* aint there no more babe ... you showed me on one hand what a good friend you could be .. then you SLAPPED me with the other hand and fucked me over ...

i may be submissive... but i am NOT a fucking doormat ... and i do NOT FORGET betrayal like this ..

so waller in yer "happiness" with your retarded man that fucks any and everything ... make regular drs appts for check ups cuz i have SEEN some of this SHIT he stuck that thing into ..



thank you .. for the good things you did for me .. and i WHOLE HEARTEDLY mean that .. for there were LOTS of good things you did ... but the bad.. totally negates it .. so for those things .. FUCK YOU



WOW ... that felt good ...

lemme say it again ...





FUUUUCK YOUUUUU !!!!



heh

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LadyDarkRayne
19:10 Sep 17 2008

I had some pretty strange dreams last night too... to strange t even put in my journal

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misterstikki
19:31 Sep 17 2008

whoa....

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PhoenicianDream
19:32 Sep 18 2008

wow... why does this sound familiar?



leaving without saying goodbye *check*

someone forbidden to talk to you *check*

person who left will fuck anything that moves *check*

being taken advantage of *check*



Daaaamn Kami seems you and I have quite a bit in common! hahaha



I think you and I should kill a bottle or two before you find your way back home... and just yell as loud as we can to get it all out..



FUUUUUCK YOUUUUU

FUUUUUCK YOUUUUU!

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my friend Sue has a bad heart ...

she looked AWFUL when she came in the store last night ...

and i just found out .. she got put in the hospital last night ..



say a prayer...

light a candle ...

what ever it is you might do ...

please...

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LadyDarkRayne
19:26 Sep 16 2008

It is done for you my dear=}

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Kontradiction
20:03 Sep 16 2008

wow!



my prayers for her.

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Sinora
21:06 Sep 16 2008

*Hugs*

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KamarillaKaine
22:02 Sep 16 2008

thank you my sweeties :)

im on a smoke break .. and as of right now.. i have no new news

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it should be just that easy .. right??

if you can think it .. you can do it ... right ?

so .. if i let myself think that im not gonna lust after Juan any more ... it will happen .. right ?? lol



He's at work right now ...

he will be there when i go in at 1.. then he leaves ...

UGH





okay so .. lets think about something else ...



winning 50 on a scratch off ticket.. gave me enough money for ONE MORE NIGHT in the motel .. i talked to April and Jeremy last night .. and even though they are moving pretty far away tomorrow, Jeremy said to me "DONT let yourself get without a room, woman ... we might not be able to get you back and forth to work .. but we ca DAMN WELL keep a roof over your head" ..



i dont wanna quit the job ... i dont wanna leave Parachute .. cuz i just dont (see above. but we arent thinking about that for a moment ..*shifty eyes* ) if i have to do all that .. theni wanna just go home ...



oh fuck who am i kidding .. i cant stop thinkin about it .. and him ... i layed back down earlier and DREAMED about him ... nothing outlandish ... just .. we were sitting on a couch .. somewhere.. i dunno where... watching a movie .. he got up and went to get something to drink .. and when he came back .. he kissed me before he sat back down .. then he put his arm around me and we kept watching the movie ...

thats all i remember of the dream .. but it may very well have been one of the best dreams i have had in years ...



FUCK !!!!!!

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Nista
19:10 Sep 14 2008

Make plans to take him home with you:)

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KamarillaKaine
21:57 Sep 14 2008

i fucking LUFF the way you think Nista lol

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LadyDarkRayne
19:29 Sep 16 2008

I second that motion ... =}



All votes are in we just need the other Dirtah Girl to Cast Her Vote =}

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MysticMoon
19:29 Sep 16 2008

omfg you have to do this before you go insane



" hey fancy a fuck " aint a hard thing to say DO IT

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KamarillaKaine
22:03 Sep 16 2008

ROFLMMFAO @ "HEY fancy a fuck" hahhahahah

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look out folks .. its a full on rant coming atcha.. courtesy of KK :)



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fucking motel phones

fucking PEOPLE

FUCKITY FUCK!



im trying to dial a 1-800 from this stupid FUCKING phone cuz i need to save the few minutes i have on my STUPID cell phone ..



and the motel phone is being a TAD CUNTISH ... and wont let me ... so i call the front office... and CHICKA in the office doesnt know what to do about it (at least she spoke enough english to understand wtf i SAID)... and

and



i just wanna call the FUCKING Greyhound Station and see if i can get a ticket to go FUCKING HOME...



of course my secondary plan of a place to stay while i am here.. fell thru just like the first one ..

why DO i bother?... theres a perfectly good overpass near by .. lol guess ima be living there soon *eep*



and so much other shit going on .. GAWD ...

the whole JUAN thing ..

and now fucking CLIFF (yes .. one i haven't mentioned cuz i dint think there was a reason to until this morning...)..



im really not ready to go home ...

but i want to .. if that makes any sense ..

i guess i wanted it to be by CHOICE when i went home .... and not because circumstances forced it .. yanno??



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later edit ..

FINALLY got a fone line out and talked to the Greyhound folks ... i can afford a ticket... going into Memphis Tennessee, and the ride isnt TOO bad long ... but .. how the FUCK ima get to the bus station to BUY the gawddamned ticket??

UGH



i really really shoulda stayed in Bama ...



guess i need start deciding what im going to throw away .. i cant afford to take home everything i have bought since i have been here..



and what i really wanna do is just lay down here and hibernate .... til it all goes aawy



ugh

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MysticMoon
18:37 Sep 12 2008

things will sort themselves out sweetie u know that ,

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KamarillaKaine
18:59 Sep 12 2008

i hope your right dear .. :)

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Futureman
19:44 Sep 12 2008

*hugs* hope it works out. :)

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Oceanne
20:01 Sep 12 2008

It will work out,it all comes in cycles.Hang in there

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Sinora
20:24 Sep 12 2008

*Wonders what the hell a bycycle has to do with anything*....*hugs*x

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RazaelRiezen
20:50 Sep 12 2008

awww sounds like some day hehe nenernener :P



nah seriously hope it works better for you XD

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