i found something earlier
i mean i KNEW i had it
its crossed my mind a LOT lately honestly
but i always said to myself
OH THATS TOO MUCH TROUBLE TO LOOK FOR
no telling where that is now.
and suddenly
and i SWEAR it wasnt there yesterday
there
in plain site
eye level
on the top of the fridge (yes its a short fridge)
was the bottle
small
brown
childproof cap
and full
a bottle of temptation
a bottle of PEACE
a bottle of no more pain
im getting a visual of the SNAKE OIL SALESMAN of the wild west days
LMFAO
but ya know....
i think this time
the snake oil might work
i swear
its like a magnet
i keep going back and looking at it
HOW DID it get there
i mean really it was NOT THERE yesterday
even earlier today
lol maybe someones trying to tell me something
stop wishing and do something ABOUT IT
YOU FUCKING PIECE OF WORTHLESS SHIT
you fucking piece of worthless shit
just when i think i have a moment of strength...
just when i am SURE that it WONT GET TO ME THIS TIME
*sigh*
i find out how wrong i am
of course.. why shouldnt i be wrong about that TOO
im wrong about so much
i thought ....
well
when has what i think ever really mattered?
i WISH
that since there always seems to be someone around that can make me HURT so bad... that there was someone around that could make that go away
I WISH....
you hadnt lied
I WISH....
i was as good as her
i wish
god forgive me but i REALLY wish something horrible would happen to both of you
i dont like being the only one hurt
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