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other than THANK YOU ....



i am so touched

and so SPEECHLESS...



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For Tracye

06:42:50 - Feb 20 2008

Times Read: 25





Drink from destinies cup, the waters of life

Give over to the notion it is no more than strife

Wormwood flavored sugar drops on the tongue

A smoking censer around your neck is ever hung



Weeping sores on the skin of unyielding time

Reminders of pain and sorrow tis no crime

Memories like smoke slowly drift and ebb

Caught in the silk threads of its woven web



Bright star shining so high to the eye

Visions of hope linger, released in a sigh

Self defeating history replete in the mind

Alone to walk this place, one of a kind



What pinpoint of white is there seen

What fine bit of bright beckons so keen

Tis a love carved out for you by Fate herself

She's not left you to collect dust on a shelf



Rejoice and make merry for a change is come

No more to heartache you need succumb

No more crying nights left to wonder why

Know your time is near, be happy and sigh



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ladygoddessaries
05:22 Feb 22 2008

How lovely..

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today probably isnt going to be good...

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Rictus
14:50 Feb 18 2008

Well do something about it girl :)

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KamarillaKaine
15:07 Feb 19 2008

*giggles* i jess luff you LOL !!!

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i find myself in a state of... what can only be called something akin to rapt confusion



and i am NOT really happy about it



how do i seem to get myself it these situations?

when i KNOW better



ack

i think i will go to bed

well the new year started off FUCKED and its just not getting any better.



Bunka was able to go back to school Monday, but poor Melody lol my next to youngest .. now has it ... AS DOES my lil cousin Ava.. i kept them both today, and we had a couch pile party as i am not feeling to good myself lol ... i woke up .wait lemme rephrase that .. i was AWAKENED by Bunka lol .. i was laying on my right side.. Ava was laying UP ON MY left side on top of me lol HER hair was all in my face, and Bunka was kneeling beside the couch.. going...

"mom...mom.... pppsssttt .. MOMMA !!!!!!!!!"

lmfao



my microwave died ... ugh

the money that was coming to me to get the website started... accidentally got sent to the wrong person and wont get out BACK in the mail to ME . until Thursday ...

im getting SO ANXIOUS !!!!

i miss making websites lol



other things that i thought were. over.... seem NOT to be .. i dunno ..



its a "heavy" night i suppose..

*sigh*

I want to thank all of you that kept my Jenni in your thoughts.. her fever finally broke and STAYED away...

and we arent going to have to go back to the DR tomorrow ... needless to say SHES thrilled, and so am I lol



thank you again ..

*hugs all around*

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ladygoddessaries
05:19 Feb 10 2008

Very good to hear dear..

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Silverbow
05:50 Feb 10 2008

I am glad to hear this news.

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Angelus
23:55 Feb 10 2008

I'm delighted, for you..

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folks.. please keep my bunka in your thoughts ..

i am a firm believer in the power of positive energies.. send her all you can spare.... call it prayer if you must...



her fever shot up to 104.6 today.. i called the DR and they doubled her dose of the tramaflu . AND called her in another med... if shes not showing improvement by Sunday, she goes back to the DR, and of course if she gets worse she goes back sooner...



three children have died of the strain of the flu within 150 miles of where i live

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ladygoddessaries
14:20 Feb 08 2008

Ohh dear.. nothing but the best of thoughts of wishes sent. May the healing powers of the white light surround and protect sweet little bunka in this time.

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Silverbow
02:31 Feb 09 2008

She is added to our prayers and thoughts and candle vigil.

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the weather is going apeshit

moonsong has lost internet and there are tornado warnings out for HER AREA... and i cant get her on the cellfone cuz she has CRAPPY SERVICE



UGH !!!

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Angelus
23:56 Feb 10 2008

bah.. hope she's okay.

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poor bunka :(

still feels like crap but her fever FINALLY broke today .. she sweated it out during a nap and woke up COATED in sweat...



shes still not eating good but i FINALLY got her drinking .. bought her some pedialyte and she liked the fruit flavor haha ... i was getting worried about her dehydrating earlier today . she wasnt drinking (said her throat hurt too bad :( ) ... and not goig to the bathroom either ....



i checked her skin turger like every 15 minutes lol she was so annoyed with me ...



her cough is still bad ... but she says .. "I dont feel as bad as i did yesserday .. just ALMOST as bad"

lol

poor bunka ....

her fever was 103 at the Drs office...

he said she was GETTING the flu she tested negative for it tonight but he said had we waited til tomorrow to bring her she would have tested positive.



she was NOT happy with the "horse pill" they made her swallow (motrin for the fever), but very happy with the NO SCHOOL ALL WEEK excuse she was given hahaha



i hate it when bunkas sick :(

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VeritaDiAmore
02:41 Feb 05 2008

I'll send my prayers her way

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KamarillaKaine
03:58 Feb 06 2008

awww *hugs*

thank you baby !!!

her fever broke today .. she sweated it out thank GAWD ....

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her fever is now 102.

thats up two degrees since this morning ...

my mom is gonna take her to the DR after school...

i fucking hate not having a car and not being able to take her MYSELF...



poor poor bunka... she looks so little laying over there snoozin lol

i have SO MUCH to do !!!!!!

but bunka is more important today.

while shes sleeping i can do a little bit of the "legwork" ... poor baby ... she was just whimpering in her sleep :(

my bunka is sick :(

she ran a fever all night and her throat hurts :(

i hate it when ANY of my babies get sick, but it always seems to be a little worse on The Bunka.. she doesnt get sick often but when she does its bad . her throat has eased enuff that shes sleeping right now. poor poor bunka :(

plans are in the making ...

partnerships have been struck ..

and investors actually found ...

my dream of my own website .. is on the verge of coming true!!!



and the people i will be working with !!!

how EFFIN COOL !!!!

me, moonie, and cm. are gonna ROCK the WWW :)

just you wait and see.. it might take a while.. in fact i know it will ... but its coming ...



what could be better .... than finding a way to make money .. doing what you love??



having someone special to share it with ...

*sigh*

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CountessMoon
00:11 Feb 04 2008

I totally agree!



I love you 2's ! xoxoxox

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damn . another *sigh* entry ...lol



i wish we could have talked longer tonight .. but i DO understand ... thanks for the time you could share!



*sigh*



lol



OH !!

one more thing

Cherrios Snack Mix KICKS ASS!!



i'm done now :)

OMG NO!!!!

what am i gonna do ?!??!?!

THE WORLD is coming to an end and the SKY IS FALLING !!!

why me??

oh GAWD WHY ME??

how can i go on??

my profile rating has dropped

i ....

i .......

OMG.... i cant breath!!!!

*pant pant heave choke*



THATS IT

I'm going out to kill kittens and shove firecrackers up old ladies asses!!!

RIGHT NOW !!!!







dear GAWD *rolls eyes and giggles*

mehbeh i will pass :)

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Morrigon
01:10 Feb 02 2008

NO FAIR!



All of this time...not a SINGLE 1 for me.



Not a SINGLE 1!!!! which is kind of redundant...saying not one 1...AAAAH MY BRAIN!





BUT OMG look, she DIDN'T tell you it was a test, she just rated you a one, how cruel.

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CountessMoon
01:10 Feb 02 2008

Can I be the old lady you shove a firecracker in?



Hot.. Sparkey Butt Secks

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KamarillaKaine
01:18 Feb 02 2008

this just SUCKS !!! .. Morri .. wanna go kitten killin with me? .... and afterwards.. we can go visit Moonie !!!



don't let me forget to stop off for firecrackers [weg]





lol that answer yer question Moonie bayyyyyyyyyyybe?? *giggle*

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Liebe
01:51 Feb 02 2008

You are now in good company ;)



Too bad you all passed :P

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i wonder how many of my journal entries are titled *sigh* lmao



well..

can i just say ...

FUCK!!



yes .. again the old adage "Just when you think it cant get any worse, its always does." has held true for me.



My water pipes froze a while back , and I still havent been able to get it fixed. Folks just dont wanna do stuff for free anymore... cant say i blame them. So, my daughter hauls water here for the animals, or we turn the water on just long enough to fill buckets and bowls for them, and flush the toilet. I have fucking BOUGHT water to cook with and drink. Most of my cooking is done in the microwave so that i can throw away the lil nuker boxes and not have to deal with dishes to wash, but theres still cups and silverware.. need to buy plastic for that i suppose .. if i had MONEY at least...

I have to go to my moms to bathe and wash clothes..



SO ... you ask .. HOW COULD it get any worse than that?



I just ran out of propane..

so now. ... . i have no heat.



i have one little electric heater, that is usually in my bathroom cuz the one gas wall heater i have DOESNT keep the bathroom warm. i have it sitting right in front of me and quite honestly . i can still see my breath lmao





oh FUCK

and the dog just puked on the couch....



god damn

i hate life today



who am i kidding

i always hate life.



almost as much as i hate her :)









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HOLY SHIT !!!!!

i mean just HOLY FUCKING SHIT !!!!!



i know yer not gonna believe this ..

but THE MINUTE AFTER i clicked to post this entry the first time... i heard "something" pulling up into my driveway... the dogs are running around acting like idiots and i am trying to clean up the DOG PUKE mind you .... and i (cursing loudly) look out my window .. to see THE PROPANE DUDE!!!!!

COMING TO FILL MY TANK !!!!!

YAYNESS !!!



i almost cried lmfao

i walked out onto the porch and told him

"YOU ARE FUCKING AMAZING YOU KNOW THAT??"

and he fell out laffin lolol



i think the Goddess was watching today ..

for once lol

good grief

it about to be 3:00 am

hahahaha



okay

yeah

i need sleep



*sigh*

ppsstt...

thank you :)

and sshhhh dont worry lol

i wont tell :)