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Dear Journal,

Well it is the same shit, just a different day. I am at school, and have nothing to do or think about than how much my life sucks. I admit that being at school makes me somewhat happy cause my friends are here, and I am always happy to see them of course. Especially my sister, but they don't help fill the emptiness in my heart that needs to be filled with love of a different kind. I do not deny their love, I just want a different kind. Well, I shall go now... Maybe I shall write more later when I have more time and am not moping around and I dont feel as depressed...

Dear Journal,

Why is it that I feel as if I need someone, and as if I have been dependant on someone my whole life? I feel as though I have already given up on myself being independant, without letting myself know. Why am I so confused? Why am I so lonely? I guess Fate will play it's part whether I shall be alone, or if I shall have someone to spend my life with. God will play his hand however it shall be, and that is that...