Today I did the unthinkable! I wrote two new poems today in a matter of an hour and I finished EVERY SINGLE ONE that I had in the works. I don't even know how to act. I know this may not seem like much to most but to me, I've always had at least ONE in the works. One at the very least has always been unfinished and not completed. This is the FIRST TIME EVER that I've done all of them and not had a single one unfinished. I'm proud of myself. I finished all SEVEN of them without much trouble. I'll be honest though, I'll probably go back and edit them but for the most part they're done. YAY ME! :D
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Yay you! Now, if only I could do the same with the six or seven pieces I have yet to finish..
congrats
How do you show appreciation? How do you show that something means something for you? Isn't it the act of hugging? Of kissing the person who gave you something? Isn't it the actual words "thank you" that show that it has vaule? What about saying it half a dozen times or typing it in BIG LETTERS like that 7 times? Isn't it saying "Thank you, it was perfect in every way!" and "It was everything I dreamed it would be!" isn't that showing thanks? How can someone sit there and say you don't show appreciation or how much something means to you when you do and say all those things I've listed? I meant every word, every action with all of my heart and all of my soul. Can anyone please tell me what appreciation is and how to show it if what I did and said didn't show it? Was I wrong to think that I showed it by doing and saying those things? Please, comment and tell me what I did wrong...
Sleep. Sometimes it seems there's not enough hours in the day to sleep as much as we'd like or need. Then there's times when there's nothing to do BUT sleep. And when you have insomnia there's many days where the two of them mingle and morph into something not many people know what to call. Today is one of those days. :(
Bella.... What can we really say about her? Bella... Really? Really Bella? REALLY? I mean come on, a broomsitck is more actractive then she is and a broomstick won't make out with the dust! REALLY? Come on, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!?
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Thannnnkyou, point proven! And Edward looks like he's been hit in te face with a pan, the films dont reflect the books, the books dont reflect the real thing. Glad someone agrees. x
lol, oh so true
If I hear one more thing about Edward Cullen I'm going to rip my eyes out. He's not a cool guy, he's not down to earth and just because he's a "vampire" does not mean he's a very good one. He's a self centered prick just like the queer who plays him. When I heard Robert Patterson was playing him, I wished Voldemort would kill me to. Ladies, come on, He'd rather snog Cho Chang then be with any of you and she's not even that pretty! I'm not a weather man or anything, but it seems to me that when it comes to the twilight series? It's raining PUSSIES!
If I hear one more thing about Jacob Black I think I'm going to vomit. He's not cool, he's not awesome, he won't marry you and he won't fucking be a knight in shiney armor. Ladies, lets be real, he'd rather lick his own balls then be with any of you. So HA! In your fucking faces FUCKWADS!
........................ When is someone going to love me? When am I going to get the love I give? When is someone going to prove to ME that I'm loved? When do I get to sit back and let others prove things? Why do I have to prove everything? What's wrong with me that no one can find it in their heart of hearts to love me? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!??!?!?
"youll just fuck us up even more and ill go away"
*~*~*~*~That was because I told her I'd do the same things she does. I'll act and say the same things she does. And she'll leave if I act like her. How can that happen when she expects me to stay? How does that work when you wont' stay with someone acting like you but you say they should stay? Is that not a hipocrite? Is it? Wow. At least I know where I stand now and how all my staying through all your shit was really all in vain. Well now I know. And knowing is the first step.*~*~*~*~
All men are the same? Rubbish. I'm better then all of them. What else can anyone ask for? I listen to her problems, I help her with advice, I comfort her when she's sad maybe not right when she wants me to but people need space. I know I'm not perfect I know I'm not grand but I know no one will put up with your emo shit like I have. You come home bitching about work yet you're all friendly with the people who you bitch about? How's that work? I listen to it all, I help you with ideas on how to make the stress less. I've been here and stuck with you through your precious daddy and mommy and your brother. Through your work and your self hate. I've dealt with more with you then I ever have a single person on this planet. Yet I'm the one who's a liar? You promised you'd move here yet you lied about that. You promised you'd do your part to make this relationship work yet you only do that when you see fit. You say "I wont' assume, I'll ask before I do that" yet you repeativly ignore that. You're mean, you take your bad days at work out on me, you sit there and call me names, say hurtful things, make a man who is proud and confident question anything and everything about himself and you say I'm not doing my part! Make a proud man who has no problem doing his part to cry in pain and suffering? Fuck that, you will never find anyone who puts up with your goddamned self centered "I have to be number one priority or nothing" attitude. No one will! No one will and I think I deserve a little more then youre stupid journal comments saying I'm like all the other assholes out there. You're an asshole. If I'm like all the other men out there then you're just like all the other preppy, narcisstic, "I can do better then him" when really you can't women. Go ahead, tell them how bad I am, it makes me feel so good!
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You take me for granted, you insult me, you condemn me for wanting more time with you. How sad are you? To spit on my enjoying when I'm in your presense. How sad are you to fight me and complain when all I want is to talk to you, to love you and hold you in my arms? I can't do it anymore. I won't follow my stupid heart anylonger. All it causes is pain. I'll expect nothing out of you. Nothing. And when you want less and less time while you claim your love is pure, I'll fucking let it pass because I can't spend my life waiting on you to love me the way I love you. I can't spend every second wondering if you're thinking of me, if I even fucking matter. I'm words on a screen. That shows me how much I matter. That shows me my place and it's sad that my place is nothing close to your place with me. Say what you want, believe what you want, think and bitch and moan about whatever you want. I am a slave no longer. Love is more my friend then my soul. After all, my soul has little importance to you. My body holds your interest far more and that's sad. It's more then sad. Truth be told though? I am pretty goddamned hot. I am pretty fucking acttractive, I am fucking sexy. xD
Little did I know, I'm just words on a moniter. Hmm. Small letters that form a language and make fancy words. I'm all talk, huh? Lovely. It's weird how words on a moniter have more feeling and emotion in them then you could even imagine.
Apparently I'm a bum. Did you guys know that? The economy sucks, no one is hiring and I'm a bum for not having a job. How sad is that? I'm a loser because the whole goddamned united states is still in a recession. Wow. I had better get out there then huh? I should get to work on getting a job when no one is hiring. Well guys, guess my bum ass wont' be on here much. I've got work to find. Now I know why girls prostitute. It's the only fucking way.
If I had 1 cent for every hour I've waited, I could buy you a fucking car! An suv or truck or some junk, just like you wanted! =D
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of you could have moved here already
I think with your words today, you'd rather have the car. Having ways to enhance conversation seems to be something you're not willing to do. =(
If I'd give anything to see you happy, why can't you do what you said you would and help me become what you say I can be? I'll tell you why. Bitterness, anger, vengance, and spite keep you from it. Your ego won't let you do the right thing. Well lets hope you don't wait much longer...
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gothicvampirelover69
05:39 Dec 26 2009
i love this.cause u speak the truth
JustinDupree
05:44 Dec 26 2009
Yeah, this is one of my favorite songs by HIM. :)