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So, this guy. Met up with him in person, then one thing led to another…He says we’re friends, but he isn’t talking to anyone else. I told him if he tries to ghost me, that would hurt my feelings. Fingers crossed. Easily the best *** I’ve ever had, either way.

I guess he’s not a great communicator over text, but niether am I. I’ll try not to always think the worst.

I stopped trying, and bam- texts and calls out the blue. Why must communication be so complex? I don't understand the rules. I still don't fully understand his intentions.

Continual improvements with my blood sugar. So, yay!

I must have did something right, my fasting sugar dipped under 200 for once. Now, I'll try not to screw it up. I'll get a workout in today.

He called me yesterday and said something to the effect of "I want you to open up. I don't think you're opening up to me." And I'm thinking: dude, I just met you. I say "Is there anything you want me to talk about specifically? What do you want me to open up about?" He says to say what you want to say. And at that point, I had nothing. Completely speechless. How does one "open up?" So the rest of the conversation went downhill from there. No more texts or calls since then. I guess I should move on.

So, the guy I'm chatting to said he liked me. And I said I liked him too. But now, I haven't heard anything from him in quite a while. So I texted him, and I'm waiting. And I can't help but to think, maybe I should not have texted him. Do I seem desperate now? Is this a game I didn't know I was playing? What is a realistic time expectation of communication? Am I wasting my time?

I guess I'm just insecure. I don't want to get my hopes up. I feel that because I don't know what I'm doing, I'm going to ruin something potentially good.

So, started chatting to this guy. I think I like him. Which makes me afraid. Because of the way my last relationship went down. It was a miserable situation.

The new guy- he wants to meet up. It's not a total stranger, we went to the same schools. But even then, I don't remember having a conversation with him before now.

My blood sugar is still running amok. But at least I'm not sick any more. The cold/flu resolved itself. I'm gonna get some exercise in this week- that's the goal.

I don't like salad. But I'm beginning to feel very wary about food in general. And I don't see the nutritionist for another 4 weeks. So I'm just guessing at what is okay, and what's not. Because insurance will only cover enough glucose test strips for once a testing. So, I've been eating salad to stay on the "safe" side. Which apparently isn't so safe according to my fasting blood sugars which are worst of all. Also, I have a minor cold- or something. Tested negative for covid. So there's that.

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CuRsEdToDaRkNeSs
02:17 Nov 10 2022

Carbs, stay away from things high in carbs and starchy foods.... potatoes, breads, pastas, corn.... Stay away from oranges as well. IF you bottom out however, a glass of OJ will do the trick for a quick fix. Drink water and stay away from soda and other sugary drinks. Obviously, stay away from sweets.... It's a lot about portion control as well.... It's ok to have a sandwich... but its not ok to have two and so forth... its ok to have pasta but not large portions... I may have told you what you already know though.

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FinnStone
12:50 Nov 14 2022

Wow I have been there on that diet dilemma thing. It is soooo hard. I was on a low carb one for a long time and now even looking at eggs makes me nauseous. Good luck with your diet and your health.

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Life updates: I had a wonderful vacation. Things are going well, now I'm back to work. My diabetes- a little out of control. But otherwise, I'm okay.