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Now I saw it written as Paralyzer somewhere else....but I just really love the song I have on my profile. It's so fucking sexy. I get turned on everytime I hear it. And it plays in my head hours after I hear it....even plays as soon as I wake up. Jeez.....I have to actually avoid hearing it sometimes. haha.....

Yes, I turn the big 38 on Tuesday. Someone already wished me happy birthday on here. Wow, nice of them. =)



Danny asked me today if I thought that if we didn't celebrate it every year, marking it, then would we feel younger? I think yes, we would just...be. Understand? Calenders age us.



Today at the mall in Wichita (my first out of town trip since my panic attacks hit me again and stomach issues in March), a group of 17 year old guys came up to us and said, "I have a kinda weird question to ask you. It's pretty weird".



I said, "I don't know...".



He replied, "Oh, it's not that weird.".



Me finishing, "No, I mean, I have heard some crazy stuff, so you probably won't shock me.".



Ha....



Anyway, they wanted to know if I would go with them to Claire's and pretend to be their mom, to get their ears pierced. I thought that was hilarious but thought, "Jeez, how old do I look to them?!". I said, "Well, what, would I have had you when I was 14?", and then realized Harmony is 17. *sigh* Yea, it's doable. Damn. So now 17 year olds don't want to fuck me? I am just mom to them? Damn.



So I said yes, but I had to memorize their names and bdays and had to reset one of their birth years since I couldn't have had them both the same year. haha......different months, that is. They obviously weren't twins. So we got it worked out, and I was a bit nervous about freezing if asked a question. I am not a good liar.



We get there, and we get it set up. I have to fill out all this paperwork to get it done for them. It's a lot of red tape just for minors to get their ears pierced! I pulled them aside to make sure I got the name spelled right for one of them and I had a letter off. hahaha.....So I told them they are now from Oklahoma. Actually they were in town for basketball games. They now have my last name too.



They pick out their ear rings, and I pretend to approve and all that, and pay. I threw in that their friends were having theirs pierced and they wanted theirs too but that they needed me to come too to have it done.



The girl placed the dot on the ear and had me check the placement. Yep, looks good. I think one of them mentioned how dad was going to react to it, and they threw in some "moms". It was fun.



Meanwhile Danny was waiting on me outside, as his hip was hurting and didn't want to walk down the mall again. And luckily my panic attacks didn't pop up while I was doing that, or away from him. He is my security blanket you see.



After we finished up, they offered to buy me lunch or a drink or something and I politely said no, but I wanted a picture with "my boys"! haha......so one of their friends took it. I will try to get it loaded and put in here. I just loved the whole thing. So funny.



I have been thinking of that all night, and all the way home from Wichita, a 2 hour trip.



I told Danny that 17 year olds don't want to fuck me anymore. He said, "Aww, I am sure they wanted to. They probably said later, 'Damn, she was hot.". I said, "Yea, maybe. You know what I mean. Woman age differently than men. On men, wrinkles and grey hair is sexy, but not on a woman. Men don't want that.". He said, "Men go for the younger ones...", and I said, "That's what I mean!". Not all men. I know this.



I can't stand the empty headed, bleach blonde, perfect body, yelling, boozing chicks......like we watched in some tan show tonight on E!. It's mildly entertaining, but there were chicks on there that were in Las Vegas and were partying, and they just kept yelling and laughing obnoxiously, showing off, rolling around, biting on this guy that didn't want them on him, and just being annoying. And that's why I never really liked being around chicks. That and they always stabbed me in the back.



Got home from Wichita tonight just in time to see The Sopranos. One show left now. I can't believe they killed Bobby. Wasn't that his name? He was so sweet and wasn't really in that shit. Although, he did kill that one guy recently. But didn't want to.



By the way, how the fuck are you?

The other night when all those storms were going through, I think the twister touched briefly at our house. One of the storm windows flew in the air and hit the porch, shattering all over the place, right in front of the door. Harmony and I were right there after it hit, trying to figure out what that was. The wind was blowing hard but I don't see straight line wind ripping trees out of the ground....big trees, with big roots. People heard the train sound, and roofs were torn off, tons of limbs ripped from the trees.



On my doppler that night, and all the time, actually, I was watching the storms and there was severe storms and major rotation in them, with a few twisters around the area. The sirens did not go off and the meteorologist missed the one that came through, but you can see where it hit and it's trail of damage. It seems to have bounced a bit, staying on the ground awhile and back into the clouds, and back down again. It hit on 2nd street and we are 5th. Danny thinks it hit him on 10th too briefly. It wasn't a huge tornado, but maybe F1 or 2. Not sure. I really wanted to be a storm chaser. Intense weather facinates me and scares me because we don't have a storm shelter if the shit hits the fan.