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the last few weeks have been hard on me... for the last almost a month ive been getting gradually deeper into the downward swing of my bipolar. Ive been trying hard to keep my head above the surface, and for the most part, i have been doing well, but i keep slowly sinking anyway. it may be due to the lack of sunlight, for which i am now taking some vitamins that Rene gave me, but im not sure thats all it is. Rene has gone home, and Ed wont be home till late sunday. this leaves me and Joe alone, which is good, but also a hell of a lot more lonely than i thought it would be. here i had been stressing for several weeks that we wouldnt get along and that it would be 2 weeks of hell for me while she was here, and it turns out the worst part was saying goodbye!!! also, i fucked up royally last night... i wont go into detail, but if she reads this she will know who im talking about... and im still so very sorry. the whole fucking situation has left me feeling like shit and i now have direct orders from 3 seperate people that i am not allowed to slip, but right now thats all i wanna do... hopefully when joe gets paid next friday i can go get inked... i want that dragonfly so damn bad! and that would create the pain i need so badly...