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Somedays i wake up and the world

is exactly as it was yesterday:



A black abyss with no friends

and no-one to talk to and help

me out of this pain.

All the men are the same and

cannot be trusted.

What friends i do have stab me

in the back.

And i am falling into a deeper,

darker abyss with



No way in.

No way out.

No escape.

No safe coven to shield me from

my pain.



All i see is a window of all my

friends and family living their

lives to the fullest.

Yet, here i am, still trapped in

my own little corner, deep inside of

my mind.

I hear voices, but they are not human.

I try to talk to the passing people,

but they walk right through me.



I was nothing.

I am nothing.

I will always be nothing.





Written By: Marissa C. Wilson

Dedicated To: The World I Live In



Nothing ever changes.

And it never will

Most people think my stories should have a happy ending.

Most people don't know me.



I am not like other people.



Sure, i can put on a mask,

but after a while, my mask breaks.

And i have to search for a new one to hide my pain.

I love to see my friends happy, even when i am not.

COMMENTS

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Angelus
00:09 Jan 04 2009

I read of a commonalitie or two here.

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When you look at me like that

I feel like I could die.

Your eyes full of tears

it makes me wanna cry.



The way you sag your shoulders.

The way your voice quivers when you talk.

When your eyes tear up half way through a sentence,

I couldn't even walk.



When you look at me like that

I feel like I could die.

I can feel my heart breaking

I don't even wanna try



You try to take calm, easy breaths

but that just makes it worse.

I don't know why i do this to people.

It feels just like a curse.



When you look at me like that

I feel like I could die.

I try to make my self think:

you are just another guy.



You think to yourself:

how many times must i blink b-4 these tears go away

But the answer is always the same:

They will be forever here to stay.



Written By: Marissa C. Wilson

Dedicated to: Francisco

I sit in class

waiting for the time to pass.

I look up to see

if you are here with me.



(Distant) Are you there?



You summoned all my fears.

They fell and turned to tears.

So, now I sit alone

calling on my own.



To come and rescue me.

So i could be free.

I try to run away,

but your eyes beg me to stay.



(speak)

How can i be strong when I'm missing you?

How can i do this alone?

How can I go on with out you by my side?



Once we were in love

and I felt soft as a dove.

But you were afraid

and then you went away.



My pain, it feels so real.

But i can see you don't want to deal

with my broken heart

as I'm waiting for it to start.



So it can bring me back to life

and there end my strife.

Waiting for you...

is the one thing i can do.



Pain. My pain,it feels so good.

but people never understood

why it felt so good to me,

I only wish you could see.



How good it felt

when you knelt

down on your knee

in front of me.



you say you love me,

but you don't really care!

He did too, you see,

that man over there.



Once you were with me

but you began to see

it wasn't supposed to be me.

I was all alone.



I'll never trust again!

because you remember when,

we were one,

but you said you were done.



So now you can abide

by the feeling I've set aside.

So just go home,

and leave me ALONE!!!



(speak)

Do you see me standing here before you?

Can you feel me in your arms sobbing?

(yell)

Begging yo to leave while screaming,

(scream)

'I want to stay!'



Just give mew the knife and go.

I don't want you to know

what i do to my self inside

when you don't abide.



by the rules I've set.

You're thinking you've never met

this side of me before.

Go! Walk out the door!



Leave me be

and just try to see

how i feel

when you try to steal



my heart away.

I don't want you to stay!

So just go...

I never wanted you to know...



Now I'm in love.

It's you turn.

Your turn to be alone...

to be left out in the rain.



Sobbing like a lost child

searching for her mother

all by her self

with no-one around to help.



Written By: Marissa C. Wilson

Dedicated To: all my ex's combined into one poem

We kiss your lips...

Our teeth dig deep

For only seconds

We are one



Your life flows through me

Life like hellfire



Sweet as candy

Delicate as roses

Precious as gold.



Soon, My Darling

You will be mine

Forever more

until the end of time itself



for we are forever:



The loved

The feared

The hated

The free



We are immortal



We are the hunters

And the hunted



in the end,

we are alone.

cursed to walk this world.

with no other to

share the burden.



We are alone.