All done and I coudn't be happier,I told you peeps it would be the end of the year but it is so much better.I get all these compliments,telling me how good I look..the pain was worth it.
I am a horrible friend I don't know any better but some just don't understand or see that.
Fine,maybe one day after they put me on my medication,manic or something I could be,who knows.I am in a state of regression about things long ago that keep haunting me,keeping me from the reality that is this world.Some say suicidal,I say not,I love the world,just cant help the way I was brought up,eventually it all catches up with you,it has took almost 29 yrs.It's all good I will get through this alone,and be the stronger for it.
What makes it right is I know their are a million other people wore than me.I am lucky.
It could be 20 times worse than it is at this point in time.
Other than that I am having a wonderful day.
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You don't have to get through it alone Rayne. I am here for you. I might not be able to answer my phone all of the time right now but I am here.
You are a strong woman and you can get through anything.
I love you and I am here for you.
the point is u need to learn to face your reality and demons to over come your fears and never regret any thing..it happens for a reason u know that..u can help the way u were brought up..u can change that.be a better person than the way u were brought be yourself deep inside..no suicide that..no nothing just work through it..trust me Hun.people care and give them a chance and give them one..somethings u do have to do on you own but now is the times to make peace with your demons and the ones u love
Who hurt me,damn you to hell..damn you,you cowards,write me messages and not let me reply you fucking piece of shit coward fakes.
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twoforme
17:55 Nov 25 2009
I am really happy that you don't have to go through surgeries any more Rayne.
ps. you do look really good. :)