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I fell asleep on my floor a couple of days ago,it must have been about 9 am,I was woken by the chick screaming at her boyfriend,not again my mind said and brushed it off and dozed back off,5 minutes later she started banging on the door screaming.."Let me in",I was like Fuck cant a chick get some sleep around here,somehow I dozed off again for the second damn time,and around 10 my woman woke up and was smoking out the door..(she won't smoke around me,lol I smoke and it really makes me feel like a shit piece when she does that),she said there is 4 cops outside,I jumped up and apparently this wench wouldn't leave her man alone and he shoved her off of him,I was dumbfounded when they handcuffed him and actually leaned his arse against my truck,she got away with nothing but the victim and she started it,he was only trying to get her off of him,well where I live you cant have domestic charges against you,so he isn't allowed here anymore for something she did,which in my opinion is not right but hey I am not the crooked cops.Well later that day my landlord came over and started screaming in my face,a grown man..I just say this he is lucky I restrained myself and am biding my time,I never felt so humiliated in my entire life and I could do nothing,I wanted to put my knee in his grill and ram his nose in the concrete,time awaits this day as this is far from over..No man will do this to me,piece of shit assholes who think they can do what they will to women,little do they know this is the wrong bitch.

I sit and wonder everyday about the things in my life,some days are better than others,especially when I think about my friends and what they mean to me,or when I smell the Orange Blossoms wafting through the air,I have never smelled a sweeter scent as nightfall in Florida.I live on a lake and I am always watching the sunset and moon rise,across the clear way it is breathtaking,it seems to take away all things that are negative,especially when I am lost and alone.



I am having a surgery Thursday of next week and I honestly am beyond terrified,I feel like I am all alone with noone to hold my hand,it is like I am trudging towards this long dark hell,I know it is for the best but I still can't ease my mind,even with thoughts of clearness I still fear this.I will cleanse myself and wish for all the best.



My head hurts like hell,all these damn thoughts giving me a headache.

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twoforme
04:25 Mar 15 2009

I shall be there with you not in body but in spirit Rayne. You will get through this and everything will be okay.



I am sure all of your friends feel the same.

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IcyRayne
15:56 Mar 15 2009

Thank you Jessica,hey I prescribed you my experimental meds and you came out just fine.



Your an awesome caring chick and I just simply adore you,plus you let me do pretty much what I want to you whether it's shock therapy or the like...:D

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Today I was nonchalantly driving myself back from the store,listening to my music which mind you,throws me out somewhere over the damn rainbow..Ha,click your heels wench.,Anyways where was I,oh yeah,this truck pulled off the interstate next to my woman's job and it IS a bad place for accidents,well he pulled in front of this other truck,this dude stopped his truck in the middle of the road and got out screaming at the one who pulled out cause he almost caused a crash,ok dumbass,slamming on your brakes in the middle of a busy intersection doesn't cause car crashes,he was a fucken idiot,I mean he did the same thing the other guy did,he almost caused a wreck himself all because he felt like starting a fight,The dude even whipped around and tried to catch the guy.Thank Goddess he didn't see the direction he went,I did and pulled over to watch and see this man try to kill someone over NOTHING,I do not understand this life and the people in it..One thing in your life and BAM,you are willing to die for it..I am willing to die for what is right,my family,friends,my rights but not a fucken TRUCK..Have a nice day and remember,you may get mad when people are idiots on the road,I know I do but it is your choice whether to pursue it or let it go,cause frankly it isn't worth your life.

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NocturnalMistress
22:30 Mar 06 2009

thats why a shot gun would be an easy asset to carry in your vehicle...



hahaha

*evil grin of doom*

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IcyRayne
23:10 Mar 07 2009

I'll leave the guns to you babydoll..:D

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I had a wonderful day,my girlfriend came to me and apologized for her behavior yesterday and held me as I slept on her lap,she made me feel so good.I love that woman more than anything.



I had to go again to the dentist,it hurt again but its for my own good as it is preparing me for my surgery.



Oh and I didn't kill a bunny today,I ish soo proud.



I was also thinking of you,you know who you are...:)



I am wearing your necklace,it is gonna bring me all the luck I need in this world,kinda like your never far..:)

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NocturnalMistress
01:17 Mar 04 2009

:)

I have yours still too.

you are and will always be one of my best friends.

:)

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IcyRayne
15:31 Mar 04 2009

Yeah same here.

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I failed the test again,no I am not embarassed either,I study so damn hard for that test,I thought for sure I had it this time,I am soo close and now I have to wait 30 more days,it is so beyond aggravating..My mission in life is to prove to myself I can pass this Acolyte test..



*stomps out and slams the damn door*

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NocturnalMistress
06:42 Mar 03 2009

I still have faith in you young Jedi....

you will pass it one day soon.

I shall pray for it.

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IcyRayne
22:29 Mar 03 2009

Wanna sword fight on that one wench?

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Know what I seriously can't stand,when I go and look at my last 10 and see everyone who has viewed my things and don't even say anything,IF you view it,say it,if not go away and leave it alone.Thanks you very much.





I killed a bunny rabbit today,it sucked :'(

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NocturnalMistress
20:44 Mar 02 2009

whatchu talking about?

I always reply and talk to you fool :P

aww poor bunny...

cook it and eat it Rayney Poo don't let the meat go to waste...



just kidding lovely =]

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LadyIsis
21:10 Mar 02 2009

oh so sorry. been dealing with drama crap on my end. i'll try to do better. lol



poor bunny rabbit.

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IcyRayne
05:24 Mar 03 2009

I wasn't talking about either of you wenches.

I am losing my sanity anyways..this bitch dun went off the deep end..Psychotherapist Rayne needs to take her own advice.Ker..I loves you and that is gross.Your so morbid...:P

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Sinora
18:09 Mar 03 2009

You think decent people will comment in the journal of a self confessed bunny killer ? lol

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IcyRayne
19:05 Mar 03 2009

Of course not,what was I thinking..lol

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^^Because I really have no idea at this moment.I allow myself to get attached so easily,I really need to stop this insanity,I mean drinking,why drinking? OOHH I know why,cause it made me laugh alot and not think so much of my selfish ass ways.I have to figure out what is best and here I don't think I can do that.I don't think,I really don't need to think,it fucks with you when you think,makes you go all whiny emo bitch on crack...

I have to go take this person to his job,I hate doing it,I just am way to nice for my own good..SOMETIMES.I wish to runaway and get lost in the world with nothing and noone to stand in my way.I wonder if I would be missed...see headlines..*Crazy bitch dun went and lost more of her mind,be careful her mind is a dangerous thing*

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NocturnalMistress
13:54 Mar 01 2009

of course you would be missed.

and I was just curious as to WHY you were drinking, not lecturing you about it sweetheart.

*hugs*

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IcyRayne
15:39 Mar 01 2009

You already know why and this wasnt in regards to you,it was me in particular and what I woke up feeling.

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