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This should have been my first entry but I am not one to do things in order otherwise I wouldn't be me....I have had my heart shattered into a million pieces,a heart that was so lost in love it really knew nothing other than her,always her,forevermore..It started over the fact that she was ashamed of what she was,we live in a redneck town so you can imagine the prejudice that was faced not only by her but by me a Wiccan Lesbian,and I wasn't always Lesbian,I just found her by chance,She always has to follow,Me I don't give a damn what anyone thinks of me,You either love me or not,either way I am still gonna be me..Well she felt I wasn't giving her enough attention,Gaia knows this is wrong but she felt she had to crush on someone which led me to kiss someone,and progressed to me meeting someone online in person and falling a little for her,but I repressed myself against that,all that time she was cheating on me and I didn't believe my intuition..Always trust it..well I got told this in a way that would make you crumble,I did crumble,I sliced my arm all up,pills,alcohol,sex with another trying to erase the pain,it didn't work out to well,I realized that the heart does heal,it hurts like hell but you do wake up the next day,and the next..except I was so lost without her,I made a decision to go get her back,it worked and we jumped back together,after a year we are finally moving past this hell,I love her like I have never loved before but she will never know this anymore for I have shielded myself against all possible hurt or pain from anyone,and my outlook has changed on life so much,you also find out who your true friends are..Sure..All that's gold doesn't glisten

A quote I was just reading stated"we hide behind walls not to hide but to see who cares enough to break them",Hmm nice depth,I am Alone,the way it should be I understand,which brings me to that specific word,I am not hard to understand,noone takes the time to understand much,just my exterior,nothing of my interior,which has alot to offer but doesnt really wanna offer,or do I?,I guess thats a loaded question.Lets start by my name...Rayne was given to me from the elements but I dont understand my element is fire yet my name is Rayne,cant have one without the other.I believe all things in this world were made from nature in one form or another,everyone surrounding me judges me for feeling this way,I am also in love with my soulmate,the one sent to me,and it happens to be a woman,so you can surely imagine how that works.When people ask me my beliefs they always run away very quickly,How can you believe in Vampires?,very simply put they exist all around us,yet you refuse to look beyond the typical sterotype.I could go on for hours but I wanna make more entries so ..Til Then,Blessed Be

I could tell you but it might take a very long time,all these thoughts to write down probably wouldnt make much sense anyway,but what am I to make sense,I just make alot of other things..To be Continued and maybe with intelligent words.