What is ones desire...
what is ones hopes an thoughts an dreams...
Had i thought to take the time to put them all down an think about them thoroughly she would think that
her thoughts werent too much of a matter.
as you go through life always having to prove oneself to everyone around you
you become use to jus bein by yourself not really caring or feeling like anything else
actually really matters.
she be the one who gave of herself completely
souly entirely to the one whom she loved
unconditionally without thought of jealousy or greed
or unkind feelings or words toward those who would or could might
come between them...
she be the one who spent hours countless nights waiting
an hoping wishin there would be jus that time for them
sometimes though that time it jus never came.
but jus like the days before she too would once again wait
an hope again..
she would hold onto the moments treasured an buried
deep within ones heart.. for time that passed that she
knew she couldnt feel. Only to dream one day things would change
an then things would make themself right.
Things never did however there were always somethin someone
who would always have to come before but with a soft smile
she would wait still..
falling deeper into her mind with the love she had created found
feelings of trust an loyalty ate at her heart for this Man
she gave all her loyalty too.. wasnt there.. only in her thoughts
her dreams... her heart.. not physical
as time grew on they grew more apart.. her heart become stronger more like
a bitter stone inside her chest without feeling without trust
she became a better soul with strength for herself
an she tole herself never again to let inside that
feeling again that made her soo cold soo alone on the inside
Never to let someone consume her in a way they could totally control her
as He once did then when she was giving Him her all
least learn here when One thinks they have nothing
They may have all thier heart could have ever desired
BUt failed to realize jus how important They truly were
or how much They really meant..
as she looks back now upon those days her heart heaves with a sigh
how much love was mistooken how many nights she tryed
The extent at which shed gone through to prove it all..
would she ever go that road again? remembering the tears
an countless nights without Him.. remembering with HIm she felt
as the whole world was thiers an endless.. Without Him she became
lost in her own world of deep solitude.. would she go back?
no she couldnt an would not..
She has learned for herself ... her passion He helped her to find again
her soul wept for Him to continue giving .. the need to feel
again an again in fear of losing again which she did..
Now she has became a better woman ... she has stood for somethin
for herself.. she has mended her own heart herself
an closed the wounds that bled her love through n through
an she has promised herself any to even hold her..
any who should try to embrace her in Thier arms an tell her of
thier love for her.. SHE will be thier only one an only truly
one to love forever...for this is her reward for all she gave
of herself.. this her gift ... her fight.. to be her victory..
without that she only let herself down.. an that she will
never do again...
desolation world gone wrong
The air it breathes lifes bitter song
The world in pieces lost an gone
No one knows Jus what went wrong
Bitter Souls intwined in ruins
Searchin an hoping to find the calm
Heavens shining down on thee
In hopes in change things will be
Fresh an new again an full of life
Not beaten down from Worlds hard strife
Built up an altered fall to Ruins again
Desolation once more begins
Loves devided Roots
Twirling an swirling
Intertwining to One
Soulmates Begin the process
The love combined creating the third
Older an growing thus creating
The tree of Life
The Family tree
N never giving grief
O only wanting whats best for all
R remembering me in all You do
M may the heavens bring us closer someday
S searching an found an happy to be there
K kind an loving an caring too
I imagining life without You unacceptable by far
Late of night with passers by
Your heart heaves a weary sigh
The night air chills a bitter cold
You sit silently all alone
All is peace the world is still
Your eyes gaze upon the window sill
the raindrops fall in the dew of the night
while Your head weaves an turns like somethings not right
the silence falls on deafened ears
Your shoulders feel as You drop silent tears
You miss them when they go away
Just once you wished One would stay..
Love travels by love comes an goes
but friends last forever heaven knows
My dearest Valentine
If I could whisper words to tell You
the way you make me feel
I would whisper of my wishes
To make all we have more real
A Whisper isnt to clever
It would never get me there
But this Valentine holds my love
An how much I really care.
I Give You this Rose
Which holds all i have inside
And a Love For You
Which I kno will never die..
As the tumphets of the Elephants roar on
My heart plays its sweetest swan song
On the plains where invisible angels play
The harp of antlered ears will ring
As the mellow sweet sound of invisible angels sing
Of all the love I feel inside the trumphets beat
like wild animals passing by
Of abundance happiness an carefree fun
Heaven only knows what thy heart hath done
keeping tune in sweet rythym an rhyme
In the deepest distance we still hear the chimes
Can You see the glory ring
as all Invisible angels may sing
I love You more then the Days of old
I love you more then the birds Sing in the trees
I love you more then the man growing old
I love you more then the windows eye can see
I love You more then the wind doth blow
I love you more then the squirrels take the chance
I love you more then the heavens an earth
I still love you more then the story was told
Magic hills of plenty
the windows to my world
take a look inside
there is so much there in store
the song birds will sing
the melody to my heart
of memories back home
tired an on the farm
the old barn on top
where gramps would
go an hide
an spend away his time
so many things in secret
keep hidden from those years
so many wonderful moments
the joy an the tears
If Someday i could go back
to the days of my youth
I would have enjoyed it more
then I had so many years before
MY Special Valentine
The most abnormal of Hearts Lead to the strangest of places
Becoming an learning together
Taking an finding what two share an do an feel with every
emotion one can possibly find.
Giving an taking to an from then back again to find
a Soul a begin a life force something much like oneself
an combining an merging in to Soul mates from the start.
Loving an caring unconditionally without fail or regret
happiness an strife beaten an healed from the same wound
bleeding an bruised yet fragile an whole
One heart two beats One perfect Soul
Your love Your heart an Everything
My Valentine my Love my completion
I surrender One heart eternal without out
despair or a sadden heart but with joy an bloom
free to fly into life's journey with You,=
When winter comes
as the summer fades
When all the Colors turn
to Grey
When the night has come
But with a bitter chill
No time for fun no time for thrill
When the moon peeks through
the clouds
The screaming noise begins to sound
The rustle of leaves the noise of the nite
another Screaming Banshee
Took another bite..
COMMENTS
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Lordpeace
15:02 Sep 27 2009
this is lovely dear
GeniveneWard
01:05 Nov 07 2009
beautiful