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This is a site my sister made a video an i jus wanted to share with You all ... yes you will see alots of her in my journal or port or prof shes a special important angel my niece..

Make an on-line slide show at www.OneTrueMedia.com

Well as most of You who kno me kno that I have a very special angel in my life she is my niece whom is battling Cancer.. she makes all our lives a very sometimes chaotic not sure what the next news will be or is she goin to be high enough to get the next treatment or will she have to wait longer .. well i was on my sisters page she has for my niece today This was July 7 the one Year anniversary of her diagnosis

well i must say i read an i wept then my daughter ask me mom can i please go an read well she read an she returns to my room bawling ,, an in that moment i had realized we can all feel the pain an maybe if we all jus took in a lil each then that would be a lil less my Sister would have to feeel or take in .. this is a pretty well personal thing but i kno that prayers do get answered I kno someone is always there an i Kno people support You in the good times an the bad an i kno my family my sister an this precious lil angel is goin to beat what trial she is facing ,, I do ask If you read futher You too may want to grab a kleenex or two ,,,



This was posted in a Journal by my SIster an Im sharing it here with You ..





One year ago today….Our lives were changed forever in a matter of an instant…thrown into a strange world that was frozen- while everyone else went about their usual business…Why wasn’t anyone else stopping to help me…wake us up from this nightmare….this couldn’t be happening to our baby…..Leukemia-Cancer the very evil disease that knows no boundaries and sets no limits...

Why???????







In this one year-I have cried an ocean



And learned to hug tighter



In this one year-I have prayed more & begged to god, more than I ever have in my whole life.



And learned not to take the little things for granted



In this one year-I’ve came to enjoy the craziness and loudness of having a house full of kids.



And discovered; that our children are our teachers in this life.



In this one year I have loved so much stronger



And tried to make sure my children know that I care and I love them.



In this one year I have spent 90% mostly in the security of the 4 walls of our home or at the hospital & clinic.



And have somehow come to terms with it



In this one year I’ve wanted nothing more than to be with Madison to comfort & love her



And let her know she will never be alone in this.



In this one year I have prayed to god to please let me switch places with her



And let her have her life back.



In this one year, I have never been blessed and supported by so many people



And figured out that there are still beautiful people out there.



In this one year, I realized that it is all out of my hands and not up to me



And it hurts to not be able to fix this.



In this year I have not achieved taking it day by day, who says this is easy when your child has cancer??????



And I continue hoping, and speaking with god, but I always worry; I love her so very much.



















Maddie has the following in the past year:







17 Blood Transfusions



6 Platelet transfusions



18 Lumbar Punctures (Spinal procedures w/chemo)



3 Bone Marrow Aspirations



Approx. 45 Clinic Visits



Approx. 75 Hospital Inpatient Stays







GOD DOES ANSWER PRAYERS...

EVEN FOR LULU...

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Lordpeace
15:06 Sep 27 2009

my heart goes out to her and to you the serious illness of a child is the worse thing a parent or relative can cope with

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Well someone said maybe I should do somethin with this journal.. I thought about it long an hard.... Thank You Julie ... Many here who kno me kno I am pretty outgoin an friendly yet a very private person.. BUt here goes.. Life growin up for me wasnt easy but then it isnt for most of us... I had a father who left when i come home cause i was a girl imagine that.. but then began life for me growin up with a stepdad never knowing that He wasnt my real father..So to me My Daddy He always was God Rest His soul for Hes in heaven now with the Angels Another great inspiration in my life to watch over me in all i do daily...I have threee wonderful children whom i dont get to see alot ... past divorces well yeah you guessed right jus simply love gone wrong... as for that I believe in love but i dont... Knowing that someone can really touch Your soul in a very significant way bein it in real or online Yes that has happen a time or two... I hold my friends very close to me an some of the greatest i have are here online.. Some of the dearest people to my heart are here In VR.. I do what i can day to day jus to get by I work hard an i dont ask no one for nothin... Granted I have a very wonderful an supportive Mother who has always been my motivator an soul Inspired Mentor through my whole life.. Without Her i dont kno what really would happen to me And i dont ever want to think about jus what i would do without her in my life.. I have alot of friends Im Happy to an extint Yes i get lonely anyone can With or without someone we all have a lonely part inside us all time to time .. BUt knowing someone is always there to catch us when we fall Makes life easier to cope with .. For we all are never truly alone.. I have been to the deepest darkest sides of my inner soul I have faught demons an fears of plenty ... Children remind me that life is jus what we make it an if we want the sun to shine daily for it will ... It is all in the positive .. however the Devil tend to rear his wicked head sometimes but even He cant win if we choose not to let him inside:P I guess for now i have said a plenty i will write some more soon .. Again Julie thank You .. for this now i will come here more often as need to vent or to jus tell my story as it may be... Until next time xoxo HS

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LIFEBLOOD
18:44 Jul 01 2009

I'm gonna enjoy reading 'bout you ;-)

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