I need a career change. I am sick of being the only one in the house that I work at that really gives a shit about the work I am doing. Everyone else here just talking about the money they're making, not once mentioning how the in-and-out effects the individual, how the attitude of staff effects him. Rules are getting bent and broken, guests are coming in that shouldn't be coming in... but if I say anything then I am a target in the house and I don't want that type of hostility.
I need something else.
I can feel myself sinking again. I do really well for a few months, and then I am right back to where I started. Trying to climb out of a hole I can't keep from falling back into.
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Feels like youre drowning, asphyxiated and led into darkness simultaneously right? Yup. Totally get that.
Jake has bene home all week. They're paying him $125 a day stand by pay, which means that they're paying him to wait to go to work instead of going to another contractor. He's making more than me a week, and I get my ass beat at work. That's awesome. *sigh*
We did talk it out, though, and if they hire him permanently then I may take a few years off work to focus on getting my degree. One issue we are having now is trying to figure out what bills are getting paid off first, and how much money is going out on said bills a week. Not an issue for me, since I've been paying everything on my own for three years anyway. So, hah hah.
We have been looking at houses, for when we do get things paid off. According to the "affordability calculator" with our combined income we can afford up to 250k... but I don't wanna go up that high. I would like three bedrooms, two baths and a big enough fenced in back yard that we can get a pool and a trampoline like juniors wants. It's all coming together quicker than we imagined at first, but we are more than excited.
I finally got my project finished just to realise there was TWO SETS of instructions, and now I have to go back through and completely change some parts, and add some things to other parts. I am not a happy camper, but what can I do? I am doing absolutely fantastic in my other class, so much so, that I got to leave 15 minutes into class because I've already finished all of the assignments except the final exams. I have a 105% in it, and I'm pretty stoked about that. My other class, I believe it's computer information systems, starts monday, and I am a little intimidated, but hopefully I will be able to keep up with them.
Now, I have to go and finish my notes for work, which is not fun.
Someone send me messages. :'(
I don't know why my almost eleven year old is starting to be just a complete asshole. Yes, I said it. He's mine and I can. He isn't finishing his school work, which is all virtual now. He's been telling me that he does it and then on Monday I get an email from his teacher saying he is missing eight assignments. He's saying "they're stupid" when I ask about half finished pages. I am about to take his PS4 and just run it over in the drive way. He talks back, and I've had to catch myself a few times because I just want to back hand his ass. If I were to talk to my mom like he talks to me now, she would have murdered me, brought me back and made me do my work.
Kids these fucking days don't know. Mine is about to find out. You don't do your work, you get held back. I know for a fact all your "friends" won't be your friends next year when they're in sixth grade and you're still in fifth because you don't want to do your work. I'm just so fed the fuck up.
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This is why kids need to go to actual school instead of staying home.
We decided to keep him all virtual when they sent out the email because back then we thought it was safer for him. As soon as he gets the option to go all in face to face, he will be going back. I can't stand this with him trying to fly through his schoolwork because he thinks he's going to be able to jump right on the game. A lot of times I am already at work, and so is his dad, but the shit is NOT going to continue.
Its an unpopular opinion but kids are just assholes lol luckily we can teach em to be better...but I'm convinced they're born in a-hole mode.
My 14 year is starting the teanage talk backs..
If it wasn't going to get me into trouble, I swear I would pay someone to do this damned project for me.
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LORDMOGY, I swear. I have everything else done for this class ahead of it's due date EXCEPT this project. I've barely started and it's due tomorrow at midnight. :(
Finished. With an hour and a half til due. Lmao.
I just really can't focus on this project. I have read the directions, had someone else even give me advice on how to structure it and I still just can't do it... I don't know why but I just don't have it in me to even start on it.
... picked up a last minute shift last night for today. 7am to 7pm. I was asked last night to pick it up at 1030pm, 30 minutes before I was supposed to go home last night. I am not one of those people who can go home and go right to bed. I didn't fully fall asleep til like 3am. Luckily, I was able to catch a nap when my client did, because we are a 2:1 staffing.
I have been putting off my research paper for Psychology. I really need to get that done. It's due on Sunday. My other Staff majored in Psychology so he volunteered to help. It's not that I don't want to do it, it's that I don't know where to start or how to put my thoughts into words for it.
Guess I'll start on that in the 4 hours I have left of this shift.
My computer class starts on the 12th of this month... so I'll have 3 classes to worry about rather than 2... and I am pretty sure that is where I will fall behind.
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