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Second session....



All guitars done, keyboards done, and vocals done... :)



Time: A killer 4 hrs



What sounded cool before.... now sound kick-ass!!!!!!



All I need to do is the lead guitar tracks.... and they are being done play guest players.....



But I did amazing.... for one guys to do four tunes on a total of seven hours..... that's a painful fiet!



God, I love my music!!!!!!

Last nite, after the Poker game.....



I had to drive thru a blizzard to get home.



The roads were horrible and not plowed.....



the snow was falling like bricks....



and my car was ice-skating on the parkway!



I spun-out not once but twice!



The first time it happened...... I spun two full 360 degrees.



My heart was pounding.... my blood was pumping.... and my mind was clear..... I was happy again for the first time in months!



I remembered how great it was to be alive!



:)



and not even twenty minutes of driving later.... I did it again!



This time only 1 and a half spins..... but again.....

I felt alive!!!!!!



I hate snow, but I feel wonderful!!!!!



:P

My poker group played our second game.....



And we all played like pros....



I came in third place and won $80!



Not bad a bad profit for a $20 buy-in.



I thought I played extremely well, and had some really good take downs..... but of course the big winner of the night... was the ROOKIE!



She never played the game before and had most of the chips at the end......



It goes to show...... it's not skill....it's luck!



:)

OK......



I lost a dear friend to my stupidity.



and got bounced from house to house, until my returned to a place I belonged.



Maybe all the shit in my life happened for a reason..... and I will figure it out eventually.



But until the answers are clear..... I'm gonna focus on my life for a bit... and try to get my life back on track.



First step..... update my profile! DONE!



Second step..... record my album! DONE!



third step..... start laughing again! DONE!





I do those things... everything else that is important will follow along quickly.



:)

Lately, when I look into the mirror….. I don’t recognize the face that stares back.



In the past year, all my experiences have changed the man I was into the man I am…. But at what cost.



I learned love… only to also learn hate.

I learned strength….. only to also learn pain.



But all the new acquired wisdom cost me much more then maybe it was worth paying.



I sit here without the purpose, focus, or hope that I had a year ago.

But mostly I am without the knowledge of who I am.



I used to know who I am…..



I was clear of my worth, and future.

I knew where I was going and how to get there.

I knew who my friends were and where I belonged.



But now…. I don’t know.



I only know that I need to find myself again…. and I think I’ll start with what makes me happy.



The only happiness I’ve had, was when I was playing my music. I’m going to focus on that for a bit…. and then, maybe I’ll begin to recognize the face in the mirror again.

First session....



All drums, clean guitars, and bass done....



Time: 3 hrs



the songs sound fucking awesome so far.....





I was worried that my lack of any sleep and mental state would screw up my session tonite.....

and it almost did......



but I was able to channel my aggressions into my music..... and even with the songs unfinished, I feel the emotion in them.



For the first time in a long while I feel happy again.......

I head into the recording studio tomorrow....



I've practiced....



I've make my fingers bleed!



I'm ready!



I hope I don't suck!