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Whatever site I go on, wherever I go I am always the lowest. I cannot level up fast enough to catch up. I am bullied at school by most, some people are nice, but they're humans, nice humans, but humans. I'm an outcast everywhere I go, different and put down because of it. I am always at the bottom and I am used to it. Although I wish that just once, I'd be at the top of the pyramind (that was a bad metaphor) that I'd be the best. I'm tired of being over-shadowed when I KNOW I've worked harder than the other person.

I try not to let my anger get the best of me. Today, although, that emotion has almost won. It has almost clouded my judgement. I get angry easily. I blame my Dad. I got angry because it was too loud. Stupid? YES! But I can't help it! Than people started hitting me in the head when I tried to calm myself down. I almost shot up and actually snapped their necks. Although I'm pretty sure I'm not strong enough to do that. I need some help with my anger. This is why I don't go outside with people often, I am scared that I will hurt them. That anger will win, because I know that one day it will, that one day I will be too weak for it.

What if time is an illusion? What if the whole world is an illusion? What if we really are in a place that has nothing but white in it and the whole world is actually our imaginations? What if you, the person reading this, are actually my imagination? You might not be real! But if I were to believe that the world is my imagination I must be able to change it at will.