Man I'm tired...
Change is so hard for me.
It really sucks cuz if I could get past that it would make my life that much easier. :-(
I need to do a lot of things to get where I need but for some reason I wont do them....
Why?
I want/need the outcomes so why wont I do what I need to do to get them?
I love Jenny and I want to have a family with her but I cant even begin to start on that until I can take care of myself and find a job. Well a real full time job anyway.
I need to move out and get away from my roommates/"friends" but again that requires a job...money...
I guess I have been taking a few steps forward lately by taking some classes at TEEM and getting all my SSI "ducks" in a row. Lol
Ho-hum.
Well today my uncle quit his job. Whch is good cuz his old one was sucking more and more so he finley quit. But this also means that he wont be able to help me out with my rent/cell/bill payments any more. I was working for him under the table but not any more. So looks like I'll be writing articles a lot more. I do like writing just when I have to do it, like a job, it just doesnt seem fun any more. Oh well. :-/
I say we do not have true freedom on the basis that there are repercussions to our “basic rights and liberties”.
For example: I have the freedom to choose whatever religion I want and believe in it whole-heartedly. I can go to mass, church, meetings, powwows, or what ever I want and be with people that believe the same as me.
Now if my religion says that I must punch you in the face every time you mention your religion to me, because in my belief yours is false, there are repercussions to my actions. You would have the right to call the cops. I could be put in jail for assault for example. Even though I was only practicing my religious beliefs, using my “freedom of religion”.
So with this we are free as long as we understand that there are/can/will be repercussions to our actions.
But with that being said does that mean we have no true freedom?
Would not true freedom be without reproductions?
Then if that is true, freedom could only exist in a “repercussionsless” society, a state of complete chaos.
So, I ask you, is total chaos total freedom?
I understand and except step 6 of the "Getting Started" page.
Know this.
I know Karma. Karma protects and disciplines me. It flows through me as it does you. Know this.
I may be taken against my will or traded without warning but Karma will always be with me. Its shine can warm me... or burn you. Know this.
Know this.
This is me.
All you get is what you see.
My real name is Michael Gillman.
I know what it's like to be different, hated and rejected.
My path has crossed V.R. through one of your own, my new friend, " miloshkeat " and I like what I see.
I shall stay awhile. And listen...
Always keeping an ear to the ground...
Can you hear it?
Can you hear the beat?
Rumbling closer?
Sounds like thunder...
Only this kind of thunder breaks walls and windowpane... This kind of thunder...
Sounds like freedom.
Have you seen Transformers 2? You know the part when LaBeouf gets all wacked out on the cube shard? Thats what i feel like right now. all jittery and shit. No caffeine, no drugs, but im all jittery.... weird...
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