I came out to my husband.
He now knows and understands that I have been watching a lot of Yaoi dramas and movies. He understands and supports me.
I think gushing about my favorite stories might have been a bit much but I feel so much better!
That feeling of hopelessness.
Not being understood at all.
Wanting to explain and knowing I can't.
I am so frustrated.
To top it off the person keeps saying they love me and it feels like an absolute lie.
I can't trust it at all.
It is lip service meant to beat me down again and put me in my place.
It is the definition of suck.
So I turn around and walk away because there really is nothing I can say.
Laws do not stop people from doing what they want to do.
If we want something bad enough there is always a way to obtain it.
Silence does not always indicate complicity, sometimes it is a means to an end.
I did it again. I stepped into a conversation with a person who assumes.
I wish those people wore warning signs or maybe there are topics I should go back to avoiding. They are always in these conversations to win, to belittle, to batter another person.
I only have a perspective formed over 30 or so years of watchfulness and unbiased view.
I was sitting here thinking about hypocrisy and getting really depressed.. again.
I have been really depressed this week. I try to avoid media as much as possible because it is all just so much hate. People who are so opposed to hate that they commit acts of violence and assault against people they hate for being haters.
It's shit! It is so much shit!
So anyway thinking about hypocrisy and feeling blue.
Is this going to be another sad shitty day?
Then I go to drama website because what I really want is episode 8 of Hwarang and I see...
Episode 3 of The Absolute Economist is uploaded!
I am saved! Blues be gone bring on cute Teddy and his ship Pascal.
I might as well share this since I wrote it down somewhere.
My ramen soup recipe
I throw away the packet if I use instant noodles. For the soup I mince about an 8th cup of leeks, drop them into a 1 quart pot with heated oil, add 2 chicken drumsticks and about 2 cups water, bring to a boil lower to a simmer, cover and simmer about 10 minutes. Remove chicken legs to bowl, turn broth back to high, add noodles. When the noodles are soft enough pour into bowl, the broth is pretty hearty.
I usually top the dish with steamed broccoli, stir fried green beans(leftover) or my quickie version of kimchi(brine cabbage tossed with sriracha, crushed red pepper seeds and vinegar).
Extremely distracted by every living thing I come into contact with. I'm starting to get pretty mad.
I think this day is going to be just great.
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Distractions suck, people say that I've got a short attention span but I..... Awwww PUPPIES!!!
I was ok. I was doing my Korean lesson review; which I do every day, and my daughter woke up. She is 19. She started talking before 6am. My concentration was broken and my serenity vanished.
I am an infuriatingly serene person too.
Everyone should have at least one person who constantly answers their cries for attention, no matter what they might be.
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