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💀Coven-Induction at 20.04

CULTURE• Bohemian-Hippy-Paganist Eclectical-Gothics Hermitage-home
CONTEXT•Hermit-lifestyle Smaller-city life Writers-lifestyle Urban-deprivations
CONTENT•Religious-persecutions Space-rape Religious-Isolation Faith V Destruction Forced-love/Forced-light Older-houses
Cold-weathers Social-deprivations
EMOTIVES•🤍Sadness Sorrow Greif Faith-emotives Coldness-retraction Isolation Pain(s) Determination Independence Silence

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WHITE MOURNING-SKYS}
The dawn comes in cold
Colder-dawn comes in older
Silent streaks of whiter-dawn
Wintery-skys hold their own
Nothing much ever changes
Harder dawn-turns back over
Holding-on another soldier
Harsh wars-now your holding-on
They say it's done-but it's never over📍
Try telling you lies-but your born a soldier
Nothing much-ever changes
Hard light outside the old window
Harsh skys-coming back outside
Harder skys-look white as chalk
Heartless white skys-cold as ice
Hellish-dawn seen from inside
Hard-lines of living-life
Hard day in hells-gotten back in
Harsh realitys-let down-too much
Too little-too late-too many times
Now it's just the boneyard-of life💀
Forced-into a funeral-life
Can't face the waiting world
Can't face the blinding-lights
Can't care about your whited-religions
Can't care if you live or go die
Following me around-to force on the faith
F*ck-off & leave me to my fate
Greif & grace through her 🤍
Colder goddess-face
Greif & grace-goddess fate
Great solice-through her
Great mercys-through her
Great beautys-through her
Always holding-even through disgrace
All agonys-seen through her
All her sympathys-you can ask🤍
Holding you-on💀
Holding you-up
Holy cross-of bones
Least you should fall
Cruel social shit
Still holding-on while the others race
Sink back-down to the bottom 📍
Not letting you go-far
Not going anywhere-that matters
Harsher houses-leave you in hell
Hard dawn-in a colder room
Harder times-suffering hours
Cold-hard isolations
Ghetto is all living hells
Slowley starving away-inside
Insideous-states
Live invisible all your life📍
Nothing much changes
No repreive & no remorse
Challenge the system & your out
It's cold outside with no recourse
No justice-without a sheild
Born objector-just can't help it
Born collector-now your gonna get-it
No systems & no law
Just hellhounds racing-onwards
No consolations-no controls📍
Here it comes in-turns back over
Hard dawn's of harder-sentence
Have to try to change-back over
Holding the night hours back
How the white dawn-has broken
Hard-life sentence
Held-in chains
Held in-hells kept inside
Having to remember-being held-back
Harder-ways to understand it💀
Hellish-without providers
Hellbound without advocates
Strange strongholds-inside hells
Stark-life you never got told 💀
Society's never cared-only there to judge
Society never gives-anything with meaning
Society's like vultures-just waiting for the fall
Who makes a sentence in hell feel worser?!?
Could you be any more callous
Could you be-any more cruel
Cluster-around feel strong in a mob-grip
Clumsy & blind starts to equal callous
Can't face me-alone cause I won't care
Asking for answers-you won't get
Repeating the same script-every time
You know I don't care for-it
Wasting everyone's time
We don't want-it here
Wasting everything-trying to force-it
Forcing on religion-when I'm already taken
Constantly needing to-track me
House is in silence
We don't answer-anymore
Don't bother pressing-me
You don't even know me
In this life or in the next
You don't even know me
This house is-in silence
House of the greiving
But your still forcing-on the light📍
Blindness is your sickness
But were already-taken
Bastards-disturbing the greiving
Blindness is your sickness
You know I won't answer
You know I don't care
Privacys-all been raped
Pushers-all the time
Pressures-to turn-back-over
Leave us alone-weve already chosen 📍
Over & over
It's all been done-before
Means less & less each-time around
Overkill goes into overkill yet-again
Same recorded-messages
Same disturbed-circles
Same saturation-realitys
Same pop-up friends
Pretending to know me
Holding an agenda
Over & over
Thinking you know-me
But it's just cold-calling 📍
Somewhere there's a list
We don't care-your all just strangers
Strangers to my house
Don't know you-you don't know me
Don't pretend that you can care
You have no fricking-clue
Trauma through religion📍
It's a love-crime
But your love I don't need
It's a love-crime
You need to love-strangers
Don't pretend that you care
But your love I don't need
It's a love-crime
But I don't have the time
Trying to change my alliances 📍
Trying to destroy my religion
Trying to push-on your policys
Trying to change-my choices
You know I won't care
Meaningless & mindless
Think this house is a push-over
Pushing & pushing
Pressing & pressing
But your all just strangers
Staying as outsiders
This house dosnt care now
Didn't care before either
Nothing-much ever changes
Hard life-just turned over
Have what's left of your life
Hold-on to what's left of your life💀
Hard as a bone-left out on black earth's
Hard remains-tell you nothing
Harsh hours-burning away
Tell you-nothing of this life
Keeps you in the dark
They like it-like that
Keeping you-with nothing
Holding you-back
Sewing deprivations-helping their causes
Can control & use all the cases
Cold-hearted causes
Cold hearted-ambitions
Cold as old-bones
Can't help-you to keep up
Callous rat-race of hardened-controllers
Callous-soliders marching-on
Bad-old times turning-slowley
Bad-old boneyards-leave you lonley
Silent threads-sad silence
Sour airs & bad memories 💀
Suck away your living hours
Suck away at your safety's
Suck away at your clean-airs
Silences being kept-controlled
Silences kept under-strain
Too much left-unstated
Silence kept-saturated
Space is-over used
Silence like a noose-getting too tight now
Silenced-because noone cares to listen
Uncaring lines-keeping lying controls
Hard lifer-white rose kept in bloom📍
Beautiful white rose-still blooms in the
glooms 🤍
Cold white bloom-of goddess
Strange-ethereal roses of promise
Gods of great-greifs in life
White rose of passions
Strange-tones
Strength comes in from graces
Graces bring forth strengths
Cool passions-houses of the dead
Blessed in her graces
Praying for cold-mercys
Cold weathers queens
Colder-mercys needed much in hells
But heartfelt to her children
She hears us-she bares us
Left alone in-hell
She is the mother-of all mercy's
All virtues are in her
And the holy-ghost
Hears-us in this life
White rose-of virtues
Held-inside her graces
Passions-for her held inside faces
Hearts holding-she has beautys
Beautys even in death-even in depts🤍
Prayer-drive pushes us through the cold-white hours
Prayer-passage pushes us through the long-cold day
Or give-in collapse around monsters
Blind-staring faces
Slow & steady-in her realm
Cold white faces-turning towards her 🤍
Can you bare it-all in them?!?
Through god's & goddesses of old
Trying to preserve your-sanitys
Lean towards the bone-cross
For you shall be-persecute
In this life & in the next
Most surely love & hate is blinding
By blind religious-pushers
By faceless-killers
Crawling like maggots
Can't care-have to carry yourself 📍
Can't control nonsense
Can't care-have to contain yourself📍
Avail yourself of the veil
Contain yourself-inside the circle
Outside the world-just falls into-all hells
Sick-mob of mad-animals
Pushing & pressing
Pretending to be someone
Pathetic-pretences
Where's the love of god-inside that?!?
Faking-in being interested
Sudden pop-ups as fake-friends
Can't calculate nothing-into nothing
Means less than nothing-to us
Who cares about outsiders?!?
When did they ever offer-us sh*t?!?
Can't bring themselves-to care
Could kill-them just to try!!!
Decadent & disqusting cultures 💀
This is the mob-outside of the mob
Enforced-socilisations
Always trying to force your way-in
Space-rape personas
Faked-love avatars
Faked-lights forced-on
Criminal-attitudes
Hidden behind befreinding
Meaingless-motions
Twisted-emotions
Ratrace-fanatics
Forcing-on religions
Couldn't care-less
Anyone can force anyone
To do anything-nowdays
It don't mean sh*t
Your powers are just blinded
The faked-lights are just blinding 📍
Criminal-mentalitys
Already taken-already chossen
Already pious-already private
Forcing-on the light
Blinding-lights forced onto us
Make you feel-sick
Sensory-overload
Space-rape
Dosnt mean-anything
Meaningless attacks
Being hunted like an animal
Can't except my choices
Space-rape morons
Strangers-pushing-on in
Mob of mad-morons
Cold-callous uncultured
Cold & blind-societys
Can't reach-out to you
Callous inside-callous & clumsy inside
Cruel-circus of tides
Get tired of-being alive
Need prayer-circles to cut-it down
Hail the sign of the white-cross 🤍
White cross of bones-lean towards it
Hold out your hands-pray just to know it
Reach out-least you go die
Cold callous-dawns
Cold faceless-hours
Clock-face has no pity
Circle of-blank controls
Pagan-practices of patience
Old-wheels of the world
Pagan-patrons of older-hells
Powers-below the earth unseen
Earthworks-kept hidden
Far from the mob-far from the obscene
Heartless nature-faceless sky's
Helpless animals-hoping to survive
Harsh lifer-dawn bringing-in colder💀
Taxing-on your spirit
Trying to drain-out your will to live
Fear of death-spreads like spores
Sinking into everything-living
Brushing over-your still-living flesh
Hoping the pale white-wont be taken over
Left blinking-in the light
Cold white-turnover
Find yourself feeling naked-to the dawn's approaches
Cold wretched humans- still trying
Cold hard dawn-cry all you want
Cold harshness of dawn-cannot see you
Cool hard whites-dont know you
Calling out-to find some control
Crawling-aganist forces too powerful
Counting on determinations-to carry on
Continous odds-stacked aganist you
Carrying-crosses to heavy to bare
Nature twists & turns
Now helpless-humans
Have to face-these trials of nature
Hard weathers & sometimes softer
Now the nights-cover is taken-off
Slight-shock every time
Sure dawn's going to hurt
Seen it so many times before
Streaking-in through harder sky's
Cold whites-like crumbled chalks
Like cold white cheese-sitting on the counter-top
Exposed & waiting
Cold as a white-witches-heart 🤍
Cold & harsh as a mountain wind
Suddenly look towards the window
Suddenly cold black night gone
It's harsh & fearfull in the nights
But it's hidden away from prying-eyes
It's lonley duri g the dawn-hours
Feeling frightful
Exposed by the cold-lights
Cold pale flesh-praying to survive
Empty heartless hours
Starting the day
Uncertain-right from birth
Unsure-of ones place in life
Unseen-faces
Kept denied-left hanging on
Trying to untangle-a life controlled
Many many strings-pulling on the heart
A life controlled
Faceless-strangers
Sticking in pibs-finding where it hurts
Night sky's were melting away slowley
Turning from black-over into blues
As the hours blend & fade away
Privacys-held in privations
Covered-up
A troubled-soul
Left lurking alone
Kept unsure of this life
Cold embrace of fearfull hours
Cold shadows of death
Melting in the dark spaces
Fears through the hours
Precious-left too near to predators
Now it's coming-in
Cold faceless-dawn of dearh
Cold heartless-night has gone & vanished
Black shadows that held-us in
Has all been vanquished
Left alone to be fearfull of the day
Like naked-mole rats
Left blinking-blind
Feel fears-of the outside
Cruel worlds-full of strangers
Lives left-unkind
Suddenly exposed to the lights
Cold-hard lights of life
Play down-upon your empty flesh
Unloved-face
Left cold & pale
Left pale & scarred
Left
Lonley down to the bone
Sucked away by the now waking hours
Cold sky's streaking-in
Hard white-tones
Cold harsh dawn
Cold hard dawn of empty-flesh
Feel even colder in this life

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Can you bare it one more day
Can you try one more time
Can you go one more round?!?
Can you take all this sh*t one more time
One more day of grueling changes
When you know it don't mean sh*t
When your given-pride has torn-out strips
When you might not make-it through
When it dosnt mean what it should
You would change it-if you could
Why can't it just be someone else & not me
Destroy someone else's life
Why do it to me?!?
Why take mine
All we did was love God
In our own kinda-ways
Not like a criminal
This life is just blind
Born to just be the loving folks
Don't need a life-thats like a bad joke
Not trying to live-like a criminal
Always told them-no deal📍
Just desperate to get-it put right
Not getting that chance
It's going wrong-all over
In this desperate struggle-in life
Life's just a challenger
Life's just a bad-circle
Life's a sour-joke when you can't take-it
Life's like a thriller where your the target
Life is like icey-cold killers
When your buried in the snows
When your off of the market
You could go slip-through the cracks
Don't take-much to be all outta wacks
How long can you last-out
How long can you stand-it?!?
A list of deprivations 💀
Ain't getting no reperations
A life of sudden-depressions
Society's death-knot
It gets tied back-in
Whatever you've tried
They don't come round to caring
Nothing lasting-is going changing
A list of accusations
Agonys-in silence
Agonys-in stations
Agonys-of status
Overpowering-situations
Creating stressful-constitutions
Aganist-all the odds 💀
Trying to stand-up to life itself📍
But it ain't really hearing
Trying to stand up to life itself
But it ain't really caring much
You think that your moving-on through
But your just turning-in circles
Live like lifes-just a circus
Keeping the morons-amused📍
Same challenges-just repeat themselves
Old pains-seem to come back the same
Older deaths-go around the same
One more fearfull night
One more dragging-day
Can you twist it around-one more way?!?
Can you justify carrying-on
Carry on-carrying on
Carrying-on with endless sh*t
Still trying-again
Struggling for control
Dignitys meeting with a cold-hard chopper
Chopping block of steel-takes that out
Not the life you've chosen
Now they have everything they've taken
You can't take back-what was yours already
You can't go prove-sh*t
Your life ain't so steady
You can't take back-time
You can't go back & intervene
Release yourself from a bad-dream
Got caught by surprise
Taken-over from trusting-the wrong folks
Always fly's in the ointment
Always chokers in the alley-ways
Always more bills on the table
Even on a better-day
Salt stains on your shoes
Poison via the chalice
Lies around the circle
People treated like hot potatoes
Some hearts as cold as the morning frosts
And twice as bitter
Without the whited-beautys 🤍
Cold as the frost-points
But twice as bitter
Bitter-beautys like crystal-frosts
Bitting coldness-leaving crystal patterns
While you were sleeping
Cold water-ice was creeping
Frostlike slivers of silver
Making beautiful frosty swirls
Great cold giants-leaving silver patches
Where the waters were keeping numb
Tiny ground diamonds of frost
Ground into patterns of icey beautys
Glaring-shineing in the weak-sun
Sparkling diamonds ground down into tiny pinpoints
Pinpricks of diamond-dust
Breathed on by ice-giants
While you were sleeping
Outside the world-was even colder
Turned into swirling patterns
Crystal-ice as diamond frost patches
Sparkling so cold in the mornings
Weakened-sun shines over the morning
Sparkles of diamonds dancing aganist the weak light
Melting away back to just water
When the cold-is done with it
Beautiful time-bursts just melt
Hidden patches of crystals-you never saw
Didn't take the time to wonder
Blind to the smaller-points 🤍
Just busy ploughing-on📍
Try to find a reason
When all roads are just roadblocks
One way system
Controlled by social-degenerates
Cancerous lies-carved into flesh
Reasoning has-no reason
Listening-isnt heard-out
Understanding-isnt understood
Underhand-isnt over yet
Will to survive
When sometimes there are moments
You can hold onto
Blinding flashes of reason
Trying to hold onto-that
Trying desperately to keep-track
When your mind is overloaded
Trying to understand-multiple angles
Too many angles on hell
Life is pulling hard-from too many directions
Not enough energy-to stop the inventions
Trying all the shit again
Dragging yourself-along
Through all kinda crap-again
Got things going
Till it just got stuck-again
Like is just one evil-hall of hells
Like a snarl-up
Like a twisted-tale
All torn-apart
A rolling wheel of chaos
About to go-tip you up
Going-on one more round
Is it worth it-even to go on?!?
Getting so tempted to go can-it
Somewhere away & just go fade-it 💀
Just go & dissipear-to be liberated
Notike it ever-mattered
Life was taken-over by others
Ain't how you planned-it
Life of stupid-agonys
Didn't even want-it
Just wanting it over-with
Injustice is a bloody-knife
Ball & chain of greifs
Growing more heavy-over the years
Life ain't lightening-up none
Enemy's welding weapons to go dig-up on the bastard past
Like they don't have a life
Nothing else to make them last
Years of shit just goes dragging-on
Exhausted systems
Damaged-mind
Broken-heart
Too much agonys-dragging down your soul
Pain is this life
Taking it all-everywhich way
It's coming-in from all sides
It's yaring you all-apart
It's just on overload
Not much time-out
From the shit that gets hurled-out again
Trying to have a sheild
But it's buckling with the might
So much evil trying to push-on in
So much darkness-trying to blot out the lights
So much pain-overloading the life
Can you hold one more night
When the night is so intimidating
Do you even care what's right?!?
Can you know what lasts?!?
What God wanted you for
When he asked you to last-out
What's worth holding-on for
Why are you still living-on?!?
When you could've died before
It don't take so much nowdays
To go tip-the balance
Good & evil
Dark & light
Edging towards each other

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You think you have a friend
Knowing societal ropes
One day you know them
Having hopes for society
Hopes for the future
Holding on to-something
Holdings in life
We go-seeking
We go-sourcing
Sense of realitys
The next it feels like their just strangers
Back down to the bones-again
Back to nothing again
Barely moved-on the wheel
Barely went-anywhere far
Going not very far-fast
Progress like a-mirage
What can we see?!?
What can we feel
What can we seek
In this life & the next 💀
The wheel always feels stuck
Washed-away everything
All efforts are they in vain?!?
Everything erased-so easily
Life seems to go down-the drain💀
Wondering what they were
Why where they anything?!?
Wondering if the time was wasted
Wondering where your life went 💀
Trying to live-out your life
Turns out-your just tied
Tied into wires-mindless controls
Mindless attitudes
Meaningless systems
Cold-wire systems
Cold as the icey-frosts sparkling 📍
Burning like crystals in the light
Everything is just pain-when your blind
Cold as the winds on the mountain tops
Blind to the waiting-world
Endless-elements
Restless cold & icey
Ruthless & relentless
Quickly moving on
Everyone's in a hurry
Blowing faceless-icey blasts
Skimming across the cold rocks
Flickering-faceless
As faceless as death
As cold as ice sheets
Across the landscape📍
Ask but you won't get answers
Noone answers
Noone questions
Cold as death yet again
Nature goes-on
Blasting away again
Barriers between people's
Serving what sustems?!?
Walls & wires
Rules & authoritys
Turns out it's just empty
Justify social-systems
Justify being human
Justify feelings
Justify being alive
Justify feeling all-dead already
Justify already feeling-wrong
Your on a losing-streak already
If you can't see-it
You can feel-it already
Seep-inside you know life's just a fiX
It's all fu*ked from the start
Can't make anything-right again
When it was just already-all wrong
Think it's your-life
But it's alreaDy taken
Can never do-it
Can't ever make-it work
Can't ever make it match
Can't ever really understand
Being forced into seperations
Only in him-love from the gods📍
All-mother
All-father
Everything in them
Returning us back into union
There before all the others
There always
When the others-who were just liars
Have crumbled all-away
Only way to carry-on
Shouldn't need to crucify your self
Sense of vital-self being denied
Flower that could bloom💀🤍
But lack of love-it can die
Go beleive in yourself-before it's over
much too soon
Go make a stand-or they'll take it all away
Gods & goddess stand-by you
Through the shadows📍
They see through their own eyes
Can't see through anyone elses
Never even think to try-it
Never really cared about others
No other reason ever really lasts
He never asks you to justify existing
Made the structures-solid
Made for humanitys
Made for humilitys
For you to try living-life
Gave you the keys
Powers of realitys
Didn't say you couldnt
Through the love of the creators
Life can be lived
One way-system
Turns out it's just heartless
People using people
A vacuum inside
You think you have a friend
Someone's who's born up
Man on a mountain
Someone who's keeping you down
Trying to rise-up
Reaching for yourself
Seeing the love of god
Trying to reach-out
While you still can
While you still live
But you just get your hands slapped-down
Patriarchy's not done with you yet
Grinding on your bones
Authoritys & ashes
Tripwires & nooses
Elders seeking for the marrow
Entitled-entrys
Heart-life denied
Why be there?!?
Trying to live some life
Get detailed by a lie
Denied through-humanitys
Denied through realitys.....💀