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Btw-nothing speaks & spells like silence💀 Emptyness-starts everything off again
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•Feind for a Friend-No 1......

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What does it take?!?
When I'm so tired
When I'm so dog-tired
From being treated like your dog)
When I'm tired from trying
When I've tried to get through
When I'm wasting time-going nowhere
Time I need back for myself
Time to be labeled by society
Time to be controlled by friends
Time for friends to become enemys
Trying to turn me into shit
Turning on your defences
To grind me into dust & bones
To use the patriarchal-grinders
Treat me like a-stranger
Talk to me like-one of the guys
To justify your lying lines
Trying to twist everything around
Tortures to trial-others
Trialing them for nothing
Tendency to reject others-anyway
Temptations to misuse access
Turning into a bunch of loops
Turning into reasons for not trying💀
Tried to use it all before
Templates of false controls
Trying to turn friends into dust piles
Triumphs from deadend controls
Trained in messing with people
Trained to mess-up your mind
Turned from a friend into a liar
Tired from putting myself through shit
Going through the mangle
Going through past-trials
Being put through the wringer
Everything's repeating yourself💀
Being accused
Being accursed
Being attacked
Being blamed
Trying to justify-nothing
Nothing needs to be justified
From nothing & noone
Back into nowhere lands again
Back in my lonesome again
You can't care
So you can't be counted-on
You don't dare
To rethink the past💀
You don't care
So you don't count
Marked only as an enemy
An enemy of my mind frame
Want to feel good
Your there to make me feel bad
Want to feel good
Your braking it down
Those who care-care
Those who understand-understand
Impossible position
Always maladjusted
Always wrong footed
Always feeling shit
Your demands
Your excuses
That I cannot defend💔
From nowhere back into nowhere
From nothing back into nothing
From noone to nobody again
It's all exhausting
Strange twisted world
From your shit past
Nothing to do with me
Never was my problem
From nowhere back into nowhere
From nothing back into nothing
From a friend to an enemy
In the blink of an eye
There is no conceding
To your twisted-ideals
Your ideas of self-as supreme
You'll do whatever you like
Whatever I say
The wind snatches my words away
Trigger-points everywhere
Your empathys a big empty void💀
You trigger blindly
You get whatever you wanted
But you don't care
Because you don't understand
But I'm getting nowhere
But I'm going nowhere
But it's all just roadblock
But your just a-blind bastard
But I'm just too blind-to see
It's all just false-starts🤍
From your Deadend heart
Your heartless heart-is empty
Your deadend heart is locked-out
Don't want to be like you
All deadend eXcuses
All deadend inside
All denying friendship
Just a dead white solid-lump
Selfish-self
Selfishly-self
It's all for you
When you concede-you grind your teeth
The format is broken
It's falling-apart
You make yourself the priority
And you leave me behind
When you do that
I'll be gone soon
No more waiting for you💀
Just like thread spinning on a spool
Just a hidden spider-spinning away
But you just can't see me in this life
But you just can't bare me in this life
Or even in the next
You just can't care
Can't connect yourself-inside
Can't join up the-dots
So it's going nowhere
Couldn't see right through it👁️
You don't connect to care
You connect to control
You just don't care
Same old shit
Same old heartless race
Same old roadblocks
Same old dead faces
It's going nowhere
Need to get outside your mindless web
Need to get away from-your mindless mind
Need to leave you alone-with your sickness inside🧠
Need to leave you alone-outside to die
Necessary sacrifice-to leave you outside
You wasted all the chances-
Now there's nothing left to try💀
You wasted all your choices now
We have to say goodbye
Turned ghostly
Bad ghost house
Ghost of a chance
Soured friendship
Radio silence-is coming
No other options
But to turn back around
It's all a big-turn off 🤍
It's all turning ghastly
It's all turning negative & sour
It's all twisted-dangerous & nasty
It's all turning into horrors💀
It's all gone hideous
It's all taken horrid-turns
Aspects of blindness
What the hell happened?!?
Blind horrors-showing through now
Bastard liar-showing through now
Mask of kindness
Broken in so many places
Bastard-manipulater
Broken mask
Falling to peices💀
Monstrous factions
Mean manipulations
Man of mysterys
Mentalist-disaster
Man of Misery's
Mentalist-controller
Mindless-liar
Takes that mask over
Beast of ravage
Going crazy-raging & cursing
Over nothing 💀
Everything just spirals
Friendship devalued
Friendship destroyed
Social-abuses
Social-access
Taken for granted
Then trust fractures
Then the mind fractures
The moments fracture
Then time goes crumbling down
Time is counting-down
Time is running-out
Trust is running on-thin
Everything's turning to ice
Walking on egg-shells
You just can't see me👁️
Because you just don't want to
Because you just don't care
Because you don't care to care
Because your cold inside💀
There's deadness-stillness
Inside there-ghastly ghost house
Dead man's stare
Dead man's gone deaf
Your just self-eclipsed
Your just self-transfixed
Because those parts-are just missing
Your missing-vital parts inside
Your selfish-mission
Your slowley draining house
Your cold callous-house of deadly💀
Your blaming house-full of lies
Works of the liar
Persecuting your followers
Accusing your friends
Feindish-freak
For a f*cked-up friendship
Coming to it's end
The end-game
Seriously-disturbed
From genius
To generical-trash
From interesting topics
To strange-illness
To displaced realitys
To disturbed reactives
From interesting
To injurious
From eccentrical
To downright-mental
To downright-disturbing
To slowley-eclipse everything
Too busy working the scene
Too cold to ever understand
Taking time to see it
What was I thinking?!?
That anything could change
That anyone would see what matters
The precarious position
This emptyness state
State of barrenness
Stark empty death
Barren feilds of deserts
This life looks stark
This light is going dark
This life is going soured
I'll leave you-to your madness💔
Taken for granted
From the very beginning
That's not a real friend
That's just a dead mans-house
Cool operater
Weird calculated
Something was-off
Some sad kind of friend
Turned into a sick-feind💀
Turned tormentor
Turned back into cold
Turned repellant
Now I'm a ghost
Ghost ship will take me away
To a better place
Now I'm a ghost
Some silent partner
In my own friendship
Bring friends with myself
While you have some sick picnic
Sick party's
Didn't think you would
Destroy good things
Take it all away
Now we share nothing
Now we have nothing
For what?!?
For social status
For some grand sickness
For some greatly-conceited rage
For some pompous-greed
For some mentalist-sickness
Sick & sours spirits inside you
They congregate-to destroy you
Your reputation in ruination
Your own mind-is shredding💀
Why should I care?!?
Offered some understandings
A chance to know yourself better
You just wasted-on it
Threw everything away
The gift of mentoring
The powers of discussion
Sharing powers-of the mind
Everything we had
Everything-in common
Just thrown to the dogs
Now everything we created
Has just gone-like a magick trick
Just dissapeared-like poof
Was well-calibrated
Now my friend is an enemy
Now my friend is just another stranger
Now your just another blinded-danger💀
Now it's all disrespected
Now it's all left hanging-open
Like a broken-door
With the hinges hanging
Now it's all left ruined
Your brutal triumph
Your manic-wires of maniac
Your genius-turned into sickness🧠
Your just making a disgrace of yourself
Your just destroying what you made
Your own mind-turned aganist yourself🔥
Maniac-behaviours
Strangled-brain signals
Focusing on trivia
Feeling mentalist-manias
Fracturing human-bonds
While you talk about numbers
Others are leaving you
Getting out-while they can😬
Leave you-unworthy
Leave you untrusted
Leave you-unwanted💔
Will leave you with nothing
Walls building around you
Doors to the mind closing everywhere
Social issues-echoeing
Didn't think you'd go
And f*ck everything all-up
For f*cks sake
This protest-vote is wasted
My better-self unseen
Left outside-by your blindness
But I did try
Put myself through trials
Because I'm like that
Because I'm not dead-inside
But your just another-victim
Conduct-disorder
Couldn't control yourself
Can't ever be trusted-again
With anything that matters
Or anyone-atall 🔥
So I can try again
Your going-anyway
You'd already left in the first place
Contract means nothing now
It's gone-too far
Too far down the line
It's all just broken
Corrupted by powers
Corrupted by a ghostly hand
Dead end controls
Incredulous
Incredible
Invisible
Divided
Because you weren't caring anyway
Too slow to smell the mustard
Getting to be old
Getting towards over
Gonna be bold-have to brake free
Going downhill
Going towards-a fatal end
Nothing speaks-like silence💀
Some bridges just need burning
All these months
What a waste
Taste of the sun
Now here comes the rainstorm
So full of life
But you had the ghostly hand
Waiting till you were ready
Lucid & with reason
While you were plotting treason
Or other insanity's
God doesn't want your bad-realitys
Looking for a friend
But there's no waY through
Enemy lines
Enemy wires
Enemy's for hire
Enemy prisons
Energy prisms
Enemy entanglements
Energy impairments
Trying to find the lines
To find a friend
Who isn't there now
To find a friend
Who's now gone
To find some kind of feindish evil
Some kind of friend
Who's gone over
Gone to the dogs
Gone over to hell
He's not coming-back
Now the doors are closing
Some kind of friend
Turned into a freaky-ass liar
Some kinda stranger
Luring you into danger🔥
Who's taken over everything
Who's now some kind of feind
Who's now a massive source of danger
Who's now some kind of stranger
Stranger than fiction
Stronger than the devil's tune🔥
When avatars take actions
They can't take back
When enemy-avatars attack
When avatars-grow crazy
When avatars from the back
Whove been watching
Suddenly pushing to the front
Suddenly taking over
Suddenly pushing-on agendas
Suddenly friends are talking shit
Strange avatars distorting realitys
Braking out in travestys
Ripping out-soliditys
Tripping over their own tongues
Trying to outwit friends
Taking trust & tipping it down the drains
Rain-all over me
Faking-out on facts
Enemy-self inside the wheel
Covering the wheel
Controlling all the deals
Sense-of enemy sick inside
Sense of control
Friends must die
Knife in your eye
Heart full of lies
Insideous
Horrible friend
Hidden-evils
Harsh-ass feind
Hideous
Horrendous
Hideous
Insideous
Horror storys
Hidden in your lurking brain
Your deadend heart♥️
Pulling us apart
Rottenness lurking
From the start
Pull the plug-out
Your numbers-up
Your name-is out
F*ck you man
Your plot is seen
Your vile is out
Ridiculous
Ridicule of realitys
Rotten worms in sanitys
Worms inside someone's head
Finding strange-solutions
Born enemys
You've sensed-it
Raising-up the evil dead
Pushing on some plot
Destroying everything
Friendship going down the toilet
Total shit-festival
Someone's got a coachroach conscience
Someone's lost the plot
Plotting & planning
Sick lines of shit
Sad lines of lies
Sad sinking bullshit
Ruins the whole outline
Now the whole story is ruined
Now the whole scene is queered
You can't take back anything
From all this evil
You've ruined everything
Your twisted mirrors
Your deadend heart 💔
Bad spirit-lines getting in
Bad spirit-houses
Everything's switching over
Unkind spirits
Unclean spirits
Unclear mind
Sick lines of sink
Trying to sink your soul
Trying to drag you down
With suckers-shit
With sinking-plots
Hook line & sinker
That's what you figured
But it just didn't take
Bad faces
Some ugly old heart
What a disgrace
But it just didn't take
Changing into a stranger
You just cannot fake
Can see your a liar
It's just not working
Just don't beleive-you.....