My partner's account is negative 150 bucks. She says she doesn't know how. I don't even know how .
I don't know what to do.
going to try to figure out what happened.
My mind .
You know how fucked my mind is??
I'm sitting home alone and feel I'm unwanted.
I know that I am wanted, just things have a way running wild in my mind.
I just want to be held and loved. Told that I'm beautiful and sexy and felt that I'm wanted.
Shoulder in pain. It's a knot, I'm unable to get it out.
Week 2 of Voice Therapy
Went really fast. Like we were making progress and I just wanted to keep going.
I honestly don't feel like my ADHD meds are doing me any good.
Other than making me sleepy. I still can't keep focused on the tasks I want to do.
I'm also trying to fix whatever is going on with OBS studio so I can resume making my youtube videos.
Just seems to stop every 10 or 15 mins
Going to try to do an uninstall and reinstall.
hopefully will be able to focus long enough to get my videos releasing on a normal basis ..
Well more than 1 every blue moon then.
I'm now with a voice therapist and I am working on my fem voice. Right now we are just starting and she's saying I'm doing quite well for a first timer.
The thing is I alter my voice to do impressions so it's not like it's a big change for me.
However, I think this will allow me to be comfy with myself as I sound and not have sounded like in my past.
I also lost my train of thought cuz someone knocked on my door.
Anyhoot.
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Wow that seems like it would be hard but also maybe fun. Much luck with that. I know even voice training just for singing can take a lot of time and effort. I was in chorus exc. throughout school and was hard getting out of comfort zone with different things.
Wishing you the best.
You will do just fine and will achieve the voice you are wanting.
I've made mistakes, some I can never make up for no matter what I do.
I've moved on and so should you.
I'm not that person anymore.
That person died
So someone told me that a friend on me had passed away. I never thought that I'd log on and find out the person I was talking to for years and years had health issues. I kinda always expected them to be here.
Sadly ,
She isn't anymore.
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Yes, it is shocking. I came back to find three members had passed. :(
About 3 days ago my driver was driving me home. He almost caused an accident. It totally pushed my anxiety through the roof. The next day after that I slept almost the whole day. Got some new adhd meds coming tomorrow, and hopefully that will help things.
Why?
Why is it so hard to find a decent person that wants a relationship, and not a plaything to top me ?
It's fucking impossible.
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Look at them as competitors.
The world is pathetic we both know this we have been friends for a long time.
Sit back and relax and watch the world fall apart with me.
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