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Even now that I'm well into my adult years, almost ready to knock on "30's door," I find myself always forgetting that I am grown up now.



I always see myself as a teenager. Stuck in the awkward time of learning to juggle responsibilities and being a "cool kid."



During an interview I had the other day, my possible future boss, she asked me regarding my "who I am as a person test" results, "Why was I so in the middle of everything?"



My answer was: Because now that I'm older, I'm realizing that choosing a side and being all for that doesn't matter anymore. There isn't a point of just finding the fence and picking a side based on the color of the grass that day. Not when the fence is comfortable and supportive.

Why does the cat sit at its perch on the fence to watch below?

Because its the best advantage point.



Age as taught me that its easier to be prepared for life when you keep an open mind and observe instead of letting my foolishness, or arrogance, or even my own opinions hinder me from being a better person.



As knowing that... it makes me feel older. Like a knowledge younger Fiver couldn't even fathom because I was so outspoken and in your face then.



Growing up is a hell of ride.

I absolutely love journals! They're the best places to just really get to vent out bullshit or ramble on about wonderful things. And they're that safe bubble you get to really be yourself in without having to worry about anything else. There is always that sense of trust when you just let go and ramble things in a place like this.



That unspoken rule between people. A place to respect each other or simply go the other way. The ability to learn more about the other.



Its pretty great.



I'm looking forward to really digging into this aspect of the site. ♥







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