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my date of birth quiz
21:27 May 25 2006
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Your Birthdate: May 19

You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested. You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them. Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others. You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself. Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence Your weakness: Suspicion of others Your power color: Eggplant Your power symbol: Spade Your power month: October

hows this for ironic
01:49 May 18 2006
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Current mood: confused



My once best friend / first bf added me to his myspace and was like just the same anyway i allowed him cause what else was i to do he was my like first kiss. Oh i forgot hes gay now so no chance in anything to blossom back guys. Anyway its my birthday on friday and i dont know what im going to do cause well i dont have hardly any friends anymore so i cant party with them. Yay to me for making it to 21. Well Candians are bad luck. Well with me the one i was with i cant get over i love him still but i cant get over the heartbreak or him wrecking my car. I cant stay mad at him or hate him. I mean im trying to move on but when i think of love i think of that Canadian. I dont know what im going to do. Maybe ill never find love again. I been broke up with this guy forever but he was my friend first. I think he needs to leave andrea and come back to me. anyway if you feel like reading this go ahead and if you dont thats fine to. leave a comment if you want its your life.

thoughs in my head
18:29 May 04 2006
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well i thought it about time i write something from my head in these pages of my very personal journal. I like this guy no scratch that i love this guy but he doesnt feel the same way i guess. I just know im crazy about him. I dont know what im going to do about it. I tried to keep something going between us but i dont know. It seems every time i get someone in my life i lose them. I guess im not worthy of friends or family or love. I feel so alone even when people are around me i can see that im not cared by any. in 15 Short days i turn 21 and yet have not a single friend to share my special day with. I have lost everything but my son who seems to want to spend more time with his grandparents then with me. I am trying to go on a diet to shock my ex if i ever see him again. I dont know if i cant move on because i still love him. It seems no matter what i do i cant get over him. I cant hate him or anything so i have no idea what this means. I know he still thinks of me from time to time. But lets get off that and back to how much of a loser i am. I am geting like no hours at work yet my boss says she needs me and adores me and doesnt want me to leave. I dont mean for this to be a woah is me thing just trying to get things out of my head and trying not to cry. I know im such a loser.



Anyway. I went to a old classmates house who wanted to become my friend like 2 days ago and when i was there i still felt like an out cast after chilling with her a bit she went to hang with two 17 year old chicks and flirt with this hot cop that lives here in town. And then when she finally came back and an hour later the girls came up they started to make out on the couch and made me feel like i was to ugly to make out with but the funny thing is that the chick that was my classmate is married and says she isnt a lesbo or bi. I dont know maybe i just want attention or maybe i just want to be loved but all i know is that im never going to get anywhere in this cornfeild. So as soon as i can save up enough money im so leaving.



I just want you all to know if you read this im not trying to make you feel sorry for me im just thinking of things that are going on and i dont know how im handleing it.