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I am getting intwined in things that hurt the most but I dont mind .

why do I keep hitting walls and closed door like I am blind ?

why dont the horrors that hide under my skin come to my aid ?

why does this pain always tear me apart ?

why cant I run away and make a new start ?

why do your eyes allways show me what I cant have ? why do my fears seem to get the best of me ?why does this razor blade feel so good cutting my skin ?why do the voices make me scream and and beat in my face ?

will I ever be a better disgrace ?

why does it hurt when I cant see you ?