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[ mood | nervous ]

[ music | Fugazi. ]



This weekend was interesting. I'm going back to Green Bay and hopefully get a scholarship. I found out that Cat can't go this year but we're trying to get her over here this summer. (for those of you that don't know Cat was my "summer love" last year.) The end of the school year is this Friday so that's great. Friday I ended up driving 5 people over to a bar to get a deal on weed. That was a nice night. Then on Saturday I went to my freinds Graduation Party and I got both drunk and stoned so that was even better. It was fun trying to drive home. I was one of the last people to leave. I meet some new people. That was cool. I went and saw a friend from the past today that was cool. Taylor Crist. ... I just reseaved an e-mail from my ex Brianne. I'm kinda blaaa about reading it so it's just hiding behind this seb site at the moment. It'll be the last thing I'll check. I haven't heard or talked to her in months and now she trys to get a hold of me. wtf? I guess I'm kinda nervous.

Who (where ever you may be) here (via the info super highway) has ever seen the show: 'Bullshit' on cable tv's Showtime? I mean this fuck tard Stands there waving his right hand around as if it was some kind of magical wand, trying to pull his stupid magician jedi hand distraction bullshit techniques on us in order to distract us from the fact that he is reading some "bullshit" some intern wrote up after a hard night of sucking tellers obviously homosexual ass cheeks till they were red as polished cherries (nothing against homosexuality). They point out obvious shit and sell it as bullshit. Well to me that's just plain "Dog Shit." In all seriousness NOBODY really wants to listen to some dipshit asshole reading from a cue card sounding self righteous as a fresh fucked nun on Easter. Fuck you 'Penn & Teller' ! No one gives a fuck. Wasting money is what we do. Killing innocent people for gain is what we do. We are fucking Americans get a clue asshole! I mean fuck man... without shitting on third world countries we wouldn't get such great deals on cocaine and marijuana and other shit that you are to chicken shit to admit that you've done. You're obviously a fucking drunk. So get off your soap box you washed up dog turd of a magician gone wannabe talk show *slash* political *slash* not even funny *slash* comedian. SHUT THE FUCK UP!

In the heavens faces were drawn like straws from our chaotic home: the universe. We birthed and cried... oh it was so much of a journey wasn't it? Now, here we are. It is the year 2005. Am i the only one who finds this fascinating? The world is still spinning. Our governments still fighting. with every day another terrifying event to catch our attention so that we are more suggestable. it's not George Orwell's '83 anymore. it's george w bush's 2005. Coming to a town neaar you. If I ever by chance have another son. I will go to great lengths not to name him or have him named "george" just for those reasons. Presidents named George are sorry fucks.

On a lighter note. I am now convinced that this summer is going to be one of the best of my life. then i'm hanging up my hat and calling it wuits for life. i am going to change my life for good... oh wtf am i thinking. i am stoned. I'm not gonna change. fuck you. you change if it's so easy you fuckers...

weerdpsyince: i ate my first batch of mushrooms

weerdpsyince: last night

weerdpsyince: and they were good

gwismyhero: jesus christ - it's a chatfest

weerdpsyince: started trippin as soon as i swallowed them

gwismyhero: that's good

gwismyhero: Nutty: Sugar High!

weerdpsyince: What happened? I've been making a sandwich for the past 10 minutes?weerdpsyince: lol

weerdpsyince: i came to a staggering realization last night

gwismyhero: let me guess -- you're god

weerdpsyince: of the blanket of control the government puts on us

weerdpsyince: even in a "free" country

weerdpsyince: they limit our potential

weerdpsyince: as free thinkers

gwismyhero: yeah, it'll drive ya nuts if you think about it too heavy

weerdpsyince: by forcing complacency

weerdpsyince: and what's funny is

gwismyhero: keep the masses ignorant

gwismyhero: turn on fox news and throw up

weerdpsyince: they have these commercials with your local fuck face pig face fucker cop thinking he's doing the community a service

weerdpsyince: "buckle up"

weerdpsyince: "drive the speed limit"

weerdpsyince: "obey"

weerdpsyince: keep the masses scared so we buy more toothpaste

weerdpsyince: gotta keep scared and consuming... otherwise oour capitolist society won't work

weerdpsyince: and the powerful won't get more powerful

weerdpsyince: speed limits

weerdpsyince: it;s not about safety chad

weerdpsyince: it's about seeing how far they can control us

gwismyhero: no shit

weerdpsyince: like i know and you know

weerdpsyince: i can go 65 through downtown menomonie without mishap

gwismyhero: it's heavy shit

weerdpsyince: but the speed limit is 35

weerdpsyince: 25

weerdpsyince: why?

weerdpsyince: because the more rules

weerdpsyince: the more control

weerdpsyince: the easier it is for them to "sift" through and find the radicals... the ones who move people to change

weerdpsyince: the "criminals"

weerdpsyince: rebels

weerdpsyince: whatever

weerdpsyince: because in a society without rebelion

weerdpsyince: you will find

gwismyhero: I'm not disagreeing with you, though it would seem that 'some' rules are necessary

weerdpsyince: powerful conquerers of human will

weerdpsyince: i'm just giving you the run down

weerdpsyince: i know you aren 't

weerdpsyince: i think some rules "seem" necessary

weerdpsyince: and they make you believe they are necessary

weerdpsyince: but really

weerdpsyince: common human consciousness provides all the rules we need

gwismyhero: you may have a point

weerdpsyince: i want to start a community

weerdpsyince: i think all we really need to do to hae a great working society

weerdpsyince: is be a good neighbor

gwismyhero: but that also implies some kind of rule -- whether it be 'natural' or 'made by humans'(in which case one has to consider whether that which is created by humans is also 'natural'

weerdpsyince: no

weerdpsyince: actually no rule

weerdpsyince: i guess if you must label it

weerdpsyince: you can call it a rule

weerdpsyince: but a rule is something designed by a human for other humans to follow

weerdpsyince: and scientifically

gwismyhero: sure -- I understand the distinction

weerdpsyince: everything we know as common fact

weerdpsyince: will eventually be disproved and laughed at

weerdpsyince: like ouor understanding of quantum physics right now

weerdpsyince: 200 years from now

weerdpsyince: scientists will be laughing at it as if we thought the world was flat

gwismyhero: I would agree with that

weerdpsyince: the rules always change

gwismyhero: of course

weerdpsyince: so are there rules?

weerdpsyince: even on the most logical scientific level

weerdpsyince: there are no rules

weerdpsyince: rules are for assholes

weerdpsyince: here

weerdpsyince: lemme write a new rule

weerdpsyince: from now on assholes are no longer allowed to smell like shit

weerdpsyince: if you have an asshole that farts or smells like shit

gwismyhero: I still want to say that there is some kind of natural law -- a rule of the cosmos -- if you want to call it that

weerdpsyince: you are guilty of a class A misdemeanor

gwismyhero: Nutty: Sugar High!

weerdpsyince: punishable by a fine not exceeding 600 dollars and imprisonment of up to 6 months

weerdpsyince: ignorance is no excuse for breaking the law

weerdpsyince: so you better scrub that asshole till it shines.... and no farting fcker

gwismyhero: right...

weerdpsyince: hey it's the rule

weerdpsyince: you better follow it

weerdpsyince: asshole

weerdpsyince: lol

weerdpsyince: i'm putting our conversation on my blog

gwismyhero: how do you know that we aren't governed by certain "rules" that are beyond our comprehension

weerdpsyince: there was some good shit in this one i wanna keep

weerdpsyince: because

weerdpsyince: rules are made because we can't comprehend reality

weerdpsyince: rules keep the stupid people in check i guess

weerdpsyince: or thats what they want the stupid people to think

weerdpsyince: i choose to believe that there are no stupid people

weerdpsyince: just un enlightened

weerdpsyince: people

weerdpsyince: the truth shall set us free

weerdpsyince: some of those who are enlightened take advantage of those who aren't

gwismyhero: the truth is no truth -- I heart huckabees fucker

weerdpsyince: so i guess there are good and bad people that think alike and use their knowledge and understanding of the cosmos to their own gain and manipulation

weerdpsyince: oh yes there is a truth

weerdpsyince: and i am the truth

weerdpsyince: let me set you free chad

weerdpsyince: come on vacation with me this summer for a week

weerdpsyince: i heart huckabees is nothing but comical junk food for philosophy students.

weerdpsyince: fuck that movie

weerdpsyince: it's a comedy

weerdpsyince: and it does't bring up shit that we haven't discussed since the age of fuking 15

weerdpsyince: nothing new

gwismyhero: you're a comedy

weerdpsyince: all it does is bring to light

weerdpsyince: you're a fucking comedy

gwismyhero: I didn't say it really brought anything new

weerdpsyince: I'm the white face clow and you're the hobo clown

weerdpsyince: clown

weerdpsyince: OH YEAHHHHH!

gwismyhero: I just thought it was damn funny -- and a movie that most people don't like. You know why people don't like it? because they can't handle the idea that there is no truth.

weerdpsyince: no because they never ate LSD

weerdpsyince: or thought past their white picket fencews

weerdpsyince: fences

weerdpsyince: but for people like us chad

weerdpsyince: it's nothing more than common knowledge... with a comical twist

gwismyhero: right... I didn't say it was anything more than that

weerdpsyince: like the dude rubbing dirt on his boddy and fucking the chic doggy style in the woods while marky mark was left hanging

weerdpsyince: lolweerdpsyince: that was fucking hilarious

weerdpsyince: just to experience her school of thought

weerdpsyince: lmfao

weerdpsyince: "crossed over "

weerdpsyince: lol

gwismyhero: on the special edition dvd there is an interview with the chair of physics at UCLA and the chair of religion from columbia. Not common knowledge -- they bring up all kinds of interesting stuff

weerdpsyince: what a fucking intelligent moron this guy was

weerdpsyince: religion is bogus

weerdpsyince: and so is physics

weerdpsyince: the earth is flat chad

gwismyhero: okay...

gwismyhero: hmmmm

gwismyhero: maybe bogus in some sense -- but I think the possibility of 10 dimensions is pretty interesting

weerdpsyince: try infinite

gwismyhero: pokerwithoutcards.com I the book on this site pretty much jives with your views

gwismyhero: I'll go with infinite

weerdpsyince: i'm working ont he blog

weerdpsyince: the title of this post

weerdpsyince: isweerdpsyince: "conversations with a philosophy major

gwismyhero: thanks -- douche

weerdpsyince: i think i'm going to make this a regular posting

weerdpsyince: lol

gwismyhero: I'm not a philosophy major - I'm just someone with a desire for scrutiny

weerdpsyince: fuck face

gwismyhero: If I hadn't majored in philosophy I'd be the same person

weerdpsyince: you go to school for what?

weerdpsyince: what's your major?

weerdpsyince: what's your major?

gwismyhero: douche

weerdpsyince: what's your major?

weerdpsyince: what's your major?

weerdpsyince: what's you major?

weerdpsyince: say it

weerdpsyince: say it

weerdpsyince: say it

weerdpsyince: hahahahahahaha

weerdpsyince: douche

gwismyhero: here's what I'm profiling right now --http://www.popsci.com/popsci/medicine/article/0,20967,1052070,00.html

weerdpsyince: look at it after i finnish editing this conversation to make me look smarter than you

weerdpsyince: shut up

weerdpsyince: i can se it coming

gwismyhero: I don't care who's 'smarter' -- there are definitely things that you're better at than me (and vice versa)

gwismyhero: hehe

weerdpsyince: like fucking

weerdpsyince: i'm better at giving women multiple orgasms

gwismyhero: that's good

weerdpsyince: you're better at over thinking yourself into a complete bind on LSD

gwismyhero: I'm better at calling you a douche

weerdpsyince: that you are

[ mood | ecstatic ]

[ music | 1200 40bos...the Illuminati ]



What if you could turn your life around? Think get the information and then decided.



Oh today has been mother fucking great! I am so happy that everything is going well and to top that off it’s beautiful out! I’m so fucking happy and the perfect song just came on the radio… great shit.



I just went out and bought some fabric for my skirt, fucking rad man and for the other room in the basement…yes I said the other room it’s going on the walls hells yes man! I’m finally finishing that bastard! Soon I have to call Cat from Loti Wisconsin…wherever the fuck that is…and make sure that we get a room together in the dorm rooms…she was my summer sweetheart. She is such a fucking doll I wanted to put her in a box and take her home and put her in my closet for later…



Any who…that and I need to get a hold of Kittie she found our apartment and moved into it already now she’s just waiting for my to turn 18 so I can live with her. Also I’m going to get my lip pierced and the back of my neck. Kickass.



Turn around and spin on a dime.. watch the sun go through the window pain and hit the tank with a glistening shine.

[ mood | Lonley/ pissed ]

[ music | Pink FLoyd...Comfortably numb. ]



Wow I'm just overly annoyed! I can't drive for the next few days.I had to stay home and not to mention this weekend I was almost blined. I was a work and got Chemicals in my eyes and it ended up giving me one and two degree burns. If any more had gotten in my eye theres a pretty good chance that I'd be fucking blind. I could hardly see on Saturday. I'm just glad the swelling went down. They also gave me Codine at the doctor for the pain. Well holy jumpin fuckin jesus I told them that that shit makes me sick it did before when I had my tonsills out. They gave me some green shit for it then but no not now. They just told me to eat something. Well who the fuck in there right mind would want to fucking eat something when there about ready to throw up? Sure as hell not me. I had to sleep with cream and a wet wash cloth over my eyese and a warm wash cloth on my stomach because me cramps got so fucking bad. And when I was at my Dad's they freaked out at frist but then took there sweet fucking time gettting me to the hospital. If I had gotten there earlier the swelling wouldn't have been so bad. Everyone kepted acting like I was a fucking problem. And again no one bother's to call me or at least leave me a message so I don't feel so fucking alone. I'm sick and tired of having to call everyone else. I don't know. I'm sick of trying to be happy. I sick of trying to get everyone elses approval. I'm sick of me. Today was Randy's second funeral and I could go I'm pissed beyond reason for that. When we first had his funeral it was to cold so they waited till now. I feel like shit. And I'm sorry that if I'm such a fucking burden that you all can forget about me.



"This is not how I am."

[ mood | lonely ]

[ music | Jeff Beck...Cause we ended as lovers. (beautiful guitaring!) ]



God I'm feeling really lonely right now. No one even bother's to call me. No one even bother's to message me and I know all the messages that I give people may be lame but whatever. It kinda makes me wounder if anyone actualy reads this shit. I know that a lot that I type may not be quite as exciting as the rest of your lives but I do write. I am lonely. And I can hold out a conversatin most of the time. I don't know insome ways I do expect things but in this case I can't expect anything from anyone but that's pretty much the opposite of what I was just bitching about. I can't relate to anyone. I'm excluded in everything exspecially at school and with those friends. School's be shit. I was sent to the principle's office three times yesterday. I just can't stand the way some of our teacher's treat people so I just started to bitch right back at them.



Anywho I went to the doctor's and they put me on 5 more meds...including a higher strengh of face meds and the patch. I'm going to try it! I hope that it's covered by our insurance they just gave me a sample to try it out for a month.