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Sometimes you see things in a differnt light after a few drinks, a couple hits, and good meditation...



ahhhh I wanna scream! Nahhh man I'd rather drink myself to death. Let this wind we have right now crush in my skull as it splatters on the pavement. Blood trailing into different directions on the flat surface trying to spread out and take up space. Eh I guess everything isn't that bad. I just feel like I'm in a very univiting place. Like everyone and everything I do is annoyed by something I've done. But at the same time they tell me everything's cool. Maybe I'm just paranoid. Everyone around me seems to be out of control and upset and I think it's because of me. Although some of them are upset me and one of them is for a reason I don't know about. Even though I really could care less this time and all I want back is my Father's cd. So just keep on keep on with those drinks man. Spark up another bowl. Lay in a sexier position aned spread your legs. You're not going to get the man you want because what you want is completly oblivious to him. And all your secret ambitions and feelings will never be known by too many people if any because your too chicken shit to let anyone and further more you have no idea on how to act about the situation because you have so much doubt it's pathetic. Maybe a little bit of feelings for a special girl you blew your chances with and a guy that doesn't even know you exsist. Or maybe he does and somethings clouding his vision. Yeah that's right, you just keep telling yourself that. You know what you want to be and you're so scared that it's not true, you'll never be that way, and it wont come even close to happening. You got good ideas, good ambition, but it's never enough to change things around when your in a bad enviroment. Just sit back and try to figure yourself out later. Remember your drinking, getting high, having sex and wishing you were having sex with somebody else that totaly confuses you, but excites you at the same time. Cheers!! my fellow friends and to whomever reads this "Life is like a box of chocolates." Sometimes you just get that nasty flavored one that keeps you oming back for more. But don't get sour about it todays another day and just maybe you might become happy



Music: Buck 65...Kennedy killed the hat.

Current mood: Taken back.



Damn man...I was just totaly backstabbed by one of my good friends...There was this girl right and I really liked her and I wanted to date her but it never ended up happening. I told all my friends my plans to date her and it turned around that people said that I was claiming to be dating her. And well people told her that that's what I "said". Then I start to hang out with my friends ex just so he might have a friend. And according to my friend it was okay....you know he needs friends and I thought I'd be nice. Two days of hanging out with this guy and he's telling everyone that we slept together and that we were dating. Which isn't true. I never slept with him nor will I ever and I would never date him. But fake word gotr out and my friend toled the girl I liked that it was true....So I get into this big fight with my friends ex and he tells me that someone else is fucking the girl that I liked. Like my friend. So I called her up to see if it was true and if they were hanging out and turns up the're together. Im like what the fuck I introduced them! So she asks me to call her back in 5 minutes.....I do and the girl that I liked answers the phone and eventually tells me that she has to go so they can have sex. Kinda a fucked up situation I'm....I really don't know what to say....I'm a little pissed off.